ICARUS LAHEY // DISTRICT TWO [FIN]

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ICARUS LAHEY // DISTRICT TWO [FIN] Jan 30, 2014 4:35:24 GMT -5

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Post by cass on Jan 30, 2014 4:35:24 GMT -5

Yo I am beta then you.

lololol jk i am srsly a sweetheart with a horrid attitude

it isn't horrid as much as it is blatantly truthful and blunt

and there is that part about it that i tend to piss people off with

i really don't know what i say that makes them want to throw me into a wall

i think i may have the hots for that argent chick

yolo

seventeen, yissssss ~~because like he is the same age as Allison and das awkward if he isn't ya know~~

im an abused child, k

my dad locks me in a freezer, well used to, he dead

mum dead errybody dead

much sad such lone many cry wow

but i have cedric and the other's they are as good of a family as any they make me happy

lookit more info here, kk

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ICARUS LAHEY // DISTRICT TWO [FIN] Jan 30, 2014 4:51:50 GMT -5

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Post by cass on Jan 30, 2014 4:51:50 GMT -5

I C A R U S L A H E Y

( N A M E ) Icarus Noah Lahey
( A G E ) Seventeen
( D I S T R I C T / A R E A ) Two
( S E X U A L I T Y ) Heterosexual
( G E N D E R ) Male
( O C C U P A T I O N ) A thing

( B I O G R A P H Y )

I think I have unintentionally become the comic relief in Dedric Hale's group. Believe me when I say it was unintended, I don't mind it all too much, really it is just a mirage of what I actually do. You low a facade placed up do hide what really is going on in that head of mine. But that is only sometimes. Most of the time I'm really thinking what I am saying, but it helps, you know? It makes people carelessly believe that's just me all the time, not damaged whatsoever, not broken, not searching to be mended.

A thick mop of brown hair sits on my head, most people question the cleanliness of it, but seriously, though, I do wash it every chance I get. I think they assume that I don't have the resources to treat myself to good clean clothes and hot showers. Is that because I grew up in an abusive household, where after I escaped that I ran of into the dark to stand beside a man everyone called crazy? Well if they thought that i wouldn't blame them. I mean it does make sense. But, seriously I do keep myself clean, I can't stand being dirty, much less covered in blood.

They say the eyes are a window to the soul and, personally, I think that is bullshit. My brown eyes are a window to nothing. And if you somehow managed to get into this distraught head of mine I think you'd get lost in it. Behind those brown eyes of mine is a wall, but once you get past the broken bricks you see all of it. In there is like a giant brick wall has been built, but then over time it crumbled, and the way it has been mended is someone has slapped duct tape everywhere, in the hopes that it'll just hold together. But it won't, it's just halting the oncoming pain.

I don't care, really, though. There are people out there who have it worse then me, the best way to deal with my entire family being dead is to not let it affect you. I mean look at Dedric he let's it get to him and he is, well kind of like a psychopath. You see I try to not take it so seriously, it is why i can joke and laugh and smile about it all.

I wonder if any of them can see behind the shattered walls?

I'm not super strong, but I'm not small either. I've got this kind of long, lanky build, muscle laces each limb. It wasn't there when I was twelve, nor when I was fourteen and fifteen. I just started working harder after those years, and eventually it started to build up, and I could pretend there was more in this body then just scars and remnants of horrid memories. It's not hard to gather that i have a lot of family issues. A person in my standing without them would be crazy. I'm not crazy so it is only fair that I should wake up at night a scream plastered to my lips, or sweat pouring down my face, hands wrapped tightly around blankets as I felt the fridge door slam down on me.

My father was a cruel, cruel man. I wasn't sad when he died. In fact part of me was rather relieved. I grew up fearing so much because of him. And there are things I am afraid of that I shouldn't be scared of, there are times during the day where i look behind myself to remind myself he isn't there, that he is going to hurt me. I often wonder if it all would have been different of mother had of lived. I'm almost 100% sure my dad would have been a better man. I think in the end he took out all his pain on me. I mean it isn't fair at all, but I understand. I hate that man so much, but I understand. I feel that same pain everyday, twice over. Because I've got neither of them.

I think the best things about who I am, is that from all of it I have come out and I am capable of trusting others. It is a hard earned thing, but I haven't fallen so far into some pit of despair that I can't let others in. When that trust grows it breaks easily. I hate it, but after being hurt so much one small sting and it can't be mended again. I'm loyal to the end, I'd kill for the people I cared about. I can't stand by and let the ones I have come to think of as a family get hurt. I'm no hero in that way, just selfish. Just a boy who can't afford to lose anything else. I'm unforgiving and unrelenting when it comes to hurting the people I care for. If you ever make that mistake you are pushed out of my life. I don't need that in my life. Don't expect to be forgiven.

The others seem to both accept and hat emu blunt attitude. If there is a situation going on I'll say what they all are thinking. And maybe I don't say it in the correct way, but I still say it. In all honesty, honesty is the best way to get around things, I've lied, though. I don't think there is a living soul out there who hasn't. Doesn't make me a bad person, just as long as when the time comes I can repent from those mistakes it doesn't matter.

But when people say I must surely have a few screws loose after everything I have been through. I look at Dedric and think, I could have turned out like that guy.

And then I can tell myself I'm a lot more stable.

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