Taking a Break

Before you say Spesh is whining because his tribute died and just put it off as me being a self-absorbed rich kid, understand that it isn't about that. I have feelings beyond "OMG more moneys" too.

Everyone, or at least many people know that I truly care about/trust a few people on the site. Those people (who i still trust, that is)know who they are, but just to make sure they do: Nicole, Arx, Rook, Dee, Meghan, Zoe, Lulu, Aya, etc. Sorry if I forgot you. Maybe I'm an idealist, but when I trust someone I don't expect to have that trust violated through secrets and lies. And thereby, that person should know that they're not on that list for a reason.

Is this a result of my tribute dying? No. It's a result of the circumstances surrounding that death. It never was about the tributes. Sure it sucks, but I could care less that my tribute died really. It was going to happen anyways. This is about trust. I hate writing this, and it makes me cry (honestly, I am), but I can no longer trust someone who I would have trusted my life with and truly cared about.

That hurts. It hurts a lot. Especially because I've cared about this person and trusted this person for nearly two years.

So maybe this is being irrational because I'm in the moment, and maybe I'm just a raging asshole (we already knew that, didn't we)) who wants to do this publicly. But I feel that I have to take a break from the site. Whether that break will be until tomorrow or for more, I don't know.

If it does end up being a long time and you want to speak to me for whatever reason, you can get my Skype from the people above.

There's no need to reply and say, "it's okay Spesh". Yeah, I'll get over it. but it sucks. And the fact that i'm crying over it makes me realize how much betrayal hurts and sucks.