ROCK ON! Aidin Grasswood's DP of drum roll Day 2
Feb 28, 2014 17:17:49 GMT -5
Post by kittyoemily on Feb 28, 2014 17:17:49 GMT -5
Life is complicated. All this very time you believe Death is the end of life. This thought rises up to never be erased from your mind only after a certain event forces you to recognize this false title of Death. Most of Panem, for them, it is the realization that there is the Hunger games at age four. Exceptions include me. I never thought about death before I was reaped. Yeah I knew I could get killed in the games. I also knew if I was ever called I would die, it never consumed me like most. I was more amazed by the work I could do, and the things I could accomplish to help my family live, I to look better, and for LOVE. Love is another deceiving thing since it is a part of life, besides the point,The true pounce came when I was reaped . THOUGHTs of death, that is, hit me in the chest. I tried to cover them up like most. Sometimes I did not even have to try my face just would not let me show what I felt. I could argue however surviving past the Blood bath made me more apparent of this ever coming force. The force I kept trying to say I could overcome, then make my mind again and agreeing that it would come no matter what. My hand flashes across my face. I see the one hand still beaten off my own accord. I don't have time to sigh.
Blood gurgles in my mouth as blood spurts out of my chest. My knees start to buckle at the final blow. These are the actions that brought about my thoughts. ONE of my fingers I see flash by my face as my hands go up in the air our of instinct and slowly fall. One score. The score of one. I take it as number one for my own image. I take the twelve ounces of sweat on my face, neck, legs, and fingers as a reminder. IT reminded me of my district. Twelve. I had twelve and many more chances to get out of this alive. I did not take them. I had many chances at love, real love. I ignored them. The girl who I watched in district twelve, I knew I made it up that I ever had a chance with her. A chance of love with her. Many others wanted me. I could have taken one of them off their feet. No what I did was cheat me and those girls. I always pretended I had interest when I did not. Perhaps I did and not know, either way I should have told them how I felt instead of giving them misguided hope.
My knees fully buckled I start to fall forward. Time goes by fast when you are dying, but slow enough to think about what is life. I fell for another girl is what I am reminded of. I know probably younger, but I did. Anni dorst. I let that go with out realizing. I settled on protecting her by giving her some lessons on weapons. I did not ally her like I should have, I did not ask her to join my alliance with Keanu and thistle. No once I saw her talking with another kid. I moved on. I kept my promise but moved on. I know how stupid I am now. Protecting her was supposed to be many things. Doing what I did, allying her, and never, I do mean never putting her in a position like I did. I can tell my self I only attacked her ally, not herself. Was that better however? NO a part of me is saying worse. I made a bigger gap in her confusion. In her sorrow and split decision. She granted me mercy all the way through. I should have realized it. I want to speak as time speeds up when needed, but I was falling forward faster. There was no time to say sorry. A part of me knew it was my own personal gain to say sorry, to get my morals clear, and un fogged. A part of me knew that the damage haves already been done, and sorry could make me in debt of another one which would not come. So time saved me with that. It saved me making another bad decision. Another bad decision on love and everything.
My knees. They started to scratch the sand. My eyes start to close. I was ready for the impact of the sand. I expected it to hurt, but I knew it will be less painful since it was sand. I start paying attention as I continue to fall of my environment. I know I have said and thought that this was an awful place to die, but was it really? Was it any worse than district twelve. I hear the water rising up on the beach. Some bird mutts chirping. No it was better than district twelve. I will not have to see my parents die first, or my kids go in the games later on, I had a beautiful place to die, even if it was a fake one. I was dying with those not cut out to kill because they like it, or want it. NO I was with those who had to. Could I blame them if they also killed me because they had to? The answer to that is yes, but I won't. I was never cut out for this world anyways. I had too much of an ego, but with too much of a heart. I was virtually split in two in a world that was already mixed up with its two halves. Flower pedals sway past my head as I fall to the sand.
The sting is quick, fast, hurtful, but relieving. A part of me already starts to realize what is coming next. AS I feel my chest press up against the sand. The grit scratches my open wound. People say you know when death is coming. People say it is painful, people also say it is painless. Contradictions is what makes it all wrong. It is both Painful, and painless. You feel pain, but it feels like nothing in the whole scheme of things when you know where you are going. What people say about death. Now that is where people are completely wrong. You don't know when death is coming, because it never comes. My breathing starts to slow. I can already feel the inner part of who I am being ripped from my outer torn part. I can gently see where my closest part of my body on the sand is and where my shallow now lies gently above. I can only gently remember that I have to breathe my final breaths in the arena. I know now that death is not death. There is no such thing as death, as my body and inner self leaves my Panem body. I almost forget to leave my other body crying for my parents as I completely leave that part of life. I enter a white fog. I have realized that death is not really death, but another part of life. AS I exit the clouds. I give a nod at who I see. I give an true smile that was rare in my other part of life, that I have a feeling will be common here. I walk up to Thistle and Keanu to give them a hug, a memorable one, and in this part of life we won't be from different regions, or districts of Panem. We won't even be from Panem. No we will be from the same place. We will know each other for the whole part of life, not just the part where our neutral need for an alliance forced us together, or where a games to fight to the " death" to get us scared drove us together for the first time, where we would be torn a part for too much more time. We will be friends for the whole time, and till the end of time. And we will ROCK ON.
[ TEMPLATE BY KIAH ]
THANK YOU NOTES - there is many of them. OK yeah I am combining last years a bit since I did not know It was a thing and I posted the DP before I saw so here it is-
There is no specific order of significance
Puppy- Thank you for being a part of my "morale crew"! GOOO AIDIN also thank you lots for your sponsor money I appreciate it a lot
Ella :Thank you also for being a part of my "morale crew" I enjoyed the morale a lot Thank you also for the sponsor money I really appreciate it
Marree: You were technically the less obvious morale crew for Darren too I did enjoy your support last year thank you
Cameo: Thank you lots for the sponsor money hey look you technically sponsored kous in the end that money , also thanks for allying me last year again
Kous: Thank you for killing MY CHARRIES 2 years in a row!!!!!! GARRRRRR when will I get away from you Answer: NO way no how? LOL anyways seriously I do enjoy how your characters kill my characters off and they are not vicious about it( mantel with the token last year.) I enjoy reading those posts keep it up
Yoya: Ok last year never got to say thank you for allying and I believe I am the jinx that keeps getting my alliance killed note to self if ever in the games again maybe try and save allies by not allying?
Ally: OHHHHH thank you lots for the sponsor money, it would have saved me a lot of aggravation. Either way thank you soooo much
Cass: You were a great mentor!! You gave great info... some I may not have followed XD the shield whoops sorry I feel like I am stuck in a rut my character dieing on day 2 at kous's character's hands so sorry that was my my jinxing abilities at work. NOne of which is your mentoring fault. Anyways you got me farther with amount of people dead before right? Darren died 5th I believe last year so yeah
Geebs: Last years mentor you were great also!!! Got me through the BB and everything OK yeah still died on day 2. lol but that was great for my first games!
Nyte, Stare, Kire, Thundy: Great people great friends oh I can't get over what you / this alliance did for me. That shield was great!( it gave me hope? !!! Thank you guys sooo much. Thank you thundy for allowing for the shield to be given, thanks all of you for being good with it and coming up with the idea, and like that was nice, and like not back stabbing You could have killed him quick, but no you gave him a shield and just let me go thank you
Kay: Thank you for being great very nice person, and I sort of went to you with a lot of questions too ohh and you are a great friend too
South: Thank you for answering all of my questions I know there were a lot, yeah sorry about , also thank you again for running the games and such
Ross: Yes thank you also for answering all of my questions, I tried and split them up, do you guys truly know how many were there all together?..... compare notes lol or never know thanks for running the games again.
Rook: OK so you gave me advice that slipped on the cbox, but it is still great advice with the games thank you
Lalia: Ummm you were on the cbox while making this dp you are a great person
CICI: past games thank you, that was great muse emery and Darren
DEE: Ok that was a great training center rp. And thank you for not flat out saying no to an alliance. That made me glad. anyways Good luck in the games, and thanks for building a relationship between Ani and Aidin perhaps if Anni dies Aidin can see her again( AU rp or DP? ) Ok yeah you don't have to but if you want you have permission to include aidin seeing her after she dies , btw what kind of relationship was that did they actually start to like each other?......... the world may never know anyways good luck. Technically Kous can do the same thing if he wanted... Did not put that in the thankyou comments because he probably would not care to
MINIECLOVER Ok great person here, I was down on finding a standing alliance I mean I had a maybe but it was not guaranteed and she just said yes of course! OMG we had sooo many little arguments on whatsapp but were always great with each other right after, I am soooooo glad I asked to join her alliance and she and pogue accepted best thing I have ever asked to do. I am sorry minie about Keanu btw and I am very happy that you rooted for Aidin even when Keanu died you were like you know what GO aidin That was great. And thank you sooo much for the sponsor money GOOOOOO MINIE Btw thank you for letting me use keanu greeting Aidin into the after also
Mew: ok edit this in sorry mew I forgot my Darren first fan and I found out fan of aidin too anyways thanks you were great with my tables and such last year and giving me added advice ect thank you!!!! ----------------Kiah : thanks for the great tables I could not look as professional with out you I loved them a lot
Pogue: Great ally also, he allowed me to join their alliance also even though I am sure it was hard dealing with me who is very stubborn XD. Pogue sorry about thistle again and we should rp some time btw Btw thank you for letting me use thistle greeting Aidin into the after life and such
Day 2: I can't get over you Day 2, you are officially bad. I don't like you day 2 I mean for crying out loud not day 1 blood bath or day 3 or maybe not at the hands of kous why must you jinx me day 2 you know I wonder if HGRPG gives out awards for repetitive game play? Most Day 2 own character deaths killed by kous? Yeah I bet I have that award quick. For crying out loud day 2 why? I mean ugh I can't even speak to you Day 2. I mean thanks I like getting to day 2 a lot but .................
Bloodbath: Thank you for not killing Aidin although I have noticed you got greedy and killed both of my allies?
THANK YOU to everyone else on the site. YOU GUYS are very great people, and It was fun the past two games getting in some how Perhaps a 3rd one? OHHHHH just not on day 2!!!! ( Watch first one dead ; 9)
Other names I thought about for this thread :
Water.Life.Love.Death
Life is [Decieving]
Flower pedals
To go home
Yeah so lol ummm not sure if I choose the best one, but it was the happiest I sort of liked my DP for Darren last year how it was not all bad, but I knew it could not be a total rehash of it being goofy to make the death less sad for many reasons, but I still put a pretty nice spin ( I think...)