{In the process of getting home} [Nyte]
Apr 16, 2014 9:27:39 GMT -5
Post by kousei ♚ on Apr 16, 2014 9:27:39 GMT -5
CARBO STARK
This seems to happen everyday.
Everyday it seems like all I see is black, the darkest shade of black imaginable. Everyday I seem to disappear into the underground, not knowing if I'll come out or not. All black, black, black. Like some sort of cruel joke, I don't know when I'll come out, all I know is that I have to work. Keep on working, keep on working and hope the last thing I see isn't bright orange. It may be stupid but I want to live so that tomorrow I see another dark shade of black. This existence it quite dull. But it's still an existence and that I am grateful for.
I can barely see my pale skin because more soot, dirt and coal have covered it. Hard to believe that under all this black there is white. It's difficult, I'm just surrounded by bigger, burlier men who all see the same as me. We all want this day to end but the day ends when the men in white says it will end. Have mercy on us Peacekeepers, we've been working for hours. I don't know if they'll be happy with the work we've done, I know I've been working hard cos if I slip up the rest of us will surely die. Shovelling coal the dumping it in the cart.
I've heard many coal miners complain about the jobs they have, about how it lacks any creativity, about how it's dirty, boring and uncreative. Then why don't they just quit? Honestly at first I'd just grunt in agreement whenever someone would complain to me (as if I could do anything) but now it just gets annoying. We're all in this boat together, we're all dirty, sweaty, covered in soot, tired and just downright annoyed, but you don't see me and some of the others complaining.I'm just as miserable as they are damn it.
My skinny arms shake and struggle as another shovel load of coal is lifted and dumped into a wheelbarrow. It's hard, doing this for hours, find coal, put them in the wheelbarrows, find more coal, put them in the wheelbarrows, it goes on and on. Sometimes I wonder if we'll ever run out of coal, surely the coal will run out right? I wouldn't be able to handle doing this until I die, maybe I'd be like one of the older people who work in the mines, working, working, just shrouded in blackness all day and the only interesting thing that happens is when there's some sort of explosion and everyone is buried or burned alive. I have no one to blame for this, after all I took this job the moment I turned eighteen in order to continue getting food. I have no one else to blame for this but myself.
Suddenly the bell signals that it's time for us to get out of the mines and I resist the urge to punch the air and cheer; our shift is finally done. I take a few slow but steady steps up out of the mines, leaving the eternity of blackness behind me for today. And then I see the blue sky, the white clouds, the grey and depressing seam buildings it's hard to believe that it's so easy to go from being depressed in blackness to actually seeing some diversity around me. And then I have to go back tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll just see more black for most of the day, tomorrow I'll have to work again.
I walk over to the grey tap and open it running my hands under the cool water to wash all the soot off my hands, I then splash my soot-covered face with the cold water and it goes from clear to black as it drips off my face. I use my shirt to wipe my face clean of the cold, black water and then dump my shovel into the pile. Good-bye and good riddance. I'd been clutching onto that thing for too long I thought my hands would never be able to let go of it, but then my small grin is instantly wiped off my face when I remember I'll have to pick it up once again tomorrow. Damn it. I can't complain, I asked for this job.
I take a look in one of the small mirrors provided but I'm not surprised by what I see any more, the water hasn't completely washed off all the dirt and soot and streaks of black still stain my otherwise pale skin. Although, the black does make my light blue eyes stand out like a cloud in a blue sky. On top of my head sits a black birds nest, sticking out in random places, my hair is usually black but all the dirt and coal has only made it blacker. Honestly, in the month I've worked in the mine I'm surprised a bird hasn't mistook my hair for a nest and landed in it. Or maybe they would if they didn't seem to be repelled by the seam and the noise of the mines.
I take off by myself, I don't usually converse or hang out with the other miners; they're just co-workers, not friends. There's a big difference. And now I'll have to take the agonizingly long walk across the stream to my house. My usual day is just depressing anyway. I swear any normal person would've hung themselves long time ago, but I'm not a normal person -at least not in my eyes-. When I get home at least I can relax, take a bath in the bucket, maybe uncle will let me get the much bigger bucket this time, that's way better, quicker and more comfortable, I've earned it, after all I'm the one working. The small hope allows a small smile to form on my face.
I ignore the unbelievable aching in my arms and legs and keep trekking on.Narrative
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