Gone Fishing! - [Cameo, Jack, Anatra and Marree]
May 19, 2014 12:09:09 GMT -5
Post by Anatra on May 19, 2014 12:09:09 GMT -5
Tyren OrcaI bury myself in my own arms, my knees against that chest that pounds with the heavy heartbeat of mine. I can feel the sorrow flowing from my eyes but I just wipe it away. The alcohol is having too much of an affect on me. How could I let this happen? Don't cry, don't cry. The voice speaks to me. It's such a stupid voice. I can't just sit here, wasting what could still be returned to a good night. I hear something, a commotion of sorts outside. I hear what sounds like the snapping of a dense stick, but footsteps follow after. I'm confused, I don't know what is happening out there. People are going to the woods, what is going on? Am I being left? Have they decided to abandon me and forget I exist?
Don't be stupid, the stupid voice tells me.
Suddenly the tent opens again, and I can smell who it is before I see. His footsteps weren't at all heavy and the scent of his aftershave is quite subtle, but noticeable to me at least. "Tyren." His voice speaks. I wipe my eyes on my t-shirt, and thankfully when he looks at me he doesn't seem to see that I'd had a moment of weakness all to myself right here. "It's alright..." I tell him. "It was just a joke for you, I know..." My voice sounds dry from the alcohol and burned from the emotion that is resting deep within my stomach. I prevent it from returning, keeping it within. I don't, and won't want to ever reveal it whilst drunk. I won't become what I've seen to be the people that have done stupid things such as love, or sex during drunken times. It's not my nature, and goes against the human kind of nature.
We hear the zip coming undone again, Max and I. I'm quickest to take to my sleeping bag. I'm too warm to go within it but I just lay myself down and face away from them both. Max isn't in my bad books at all. In fact, I don't know what to think really - but I can't right now. Max sits up in his, within it apparently. "I didn't know she's your girl friend." Matthew finally speaks. The sound of his voice has a split parallel in my mind; frustration and regret. I don't know what to think about it. It was only a dare, Why was he so pissed off?
He thinks I like him, in that way.
"Sorry." He utters.
I feel something move behind me. It's him. He touches my back. What is he doing? Maybe I'm thinking this all wrong. Maybe it's him that likes me. What am I supposed to do here? "Are you okay, Tyren?" His voice beckons to my consciousness. For a moment I refuse. I just don't know what to say. What can I possibly say? Should I just pretend I'm asleep?
I'm so confused right now.
"What're you doing?" I ask him.
I don't know what is happening. I feel, for the first time, unknown.