Wishing waiting (Marree)
Apr 18, 2014 18:12:56 GMT -5
Post by Jack Lexington on Apr 18, 2014 18:12:56 GMT -5
MATTHEW DUNHAM
The waiting around is the worst part about having to stay here. Constantly I have it in the back of my mind that my lung will get compressed again because something that has been sealed inside my chest opens up again. I spend way too much time thinking about that option and feeling for signs because I’m confined to the bed as long as the chest tube is on place. It’s the strangest feeling having some piece of plastic stuck in your side giving access to your insides. I’d do anything to get rid of the thing but I’ve been warned to even do as much as move around fast. Having come so close to kicking the bucket I stay put as I’ve been told.
Instead I mull over options including what happens if Jins escapes or gets released at some stage. In the dark parts of my brain I for a plan that will get rid of him for good if our justice system fails.
The peace keepers had visited me a day after the incident to get my statement, in which I stressed over and over how ruthless and brutally he wanted to murder all three of us. If that isn’t good enough plus the evidence in form of a knife, dagger and handcuffs secured at the gym, I’m not sure what will be. There is a hint of fear in me that he’ll rat me out and tell the peace keepers about my assault on him weeks before. It’ll be my word against his though.
Uneasily I shift a little in bed to at least be able to see the window and ease my sore back.
For a while I think about Kyanite and remember the night we had when my father caught us. I’ve never felt this close to a woman before. It’s like she opened up her heart and mine at the same time. I doubt that I’d risked my life for anybody else…maybe, who knows. Ky’s special though and I know I’m beyond a crush. Last week I even told her that I love her. The words rang so strange from my mouth because I’m clearly not a lover. Didn’t even think I had it in me but sure enough that girl brings out the unknown in me. It’s wonderful and I appreciate her just for that. I only hope the events didn’t mess her up comepletely. Who knows what this kind of experience could do to her? She seemed very shaken up and probably blames a lot of what happened to all of us on herself.
I take a few deep breaths and study how my chest rises and falls with each one of them making the immaculate white bandage that’s taped to my chest move up and down. It makes for great entertainment before I look out at the leaves of the trees in front of the window again.
The other guy in my room is sound asleep so he doesn’t provide much distraction either. If only somebody would come by.