Tired Mechanical Heart // [ Mace + Marianne Train ]
Jun 16, 2014 13:07:44 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Jun 16, 2014 13:07:44 GMT -5
for what it's worth, I have a slow disease that sucked me dry... I always aim to please
but I nearly died
Mace had his forehead pressed to the mahogany wood paneling in the corridor that connected the sleeping car to the dining one. He took each breath in as deeply, as slowly, as he could manage, and still the trembling in his fingertips would not stop. He thought of Mason - now sound asleep in his rocking crib just a few doors down. Mason, his son of nearly a year. And Juliet, who no doubt was still awake, being passed around among the sprawling Bryze family. She was old enough, loved enough, not to be a distraction to Julian. He, after all, stood a chance of bringing a Victor home. There wasn't any reason to trouble him with a sickly baby.
Not that Mace complained. No one could care for their song the way he did. Even with the extra help of the avoxes on board, Mace still preferred to feed and change Mason himself. But he couldn't spend the entire train ride with the baby. He had a duty, even if it was pointless. He couldn't keep expecting Saffron to handle the tributes by herself every year. It was a torture she didn't deserve, after she'd fought so hard and lost so much.
But still. Riddled with guilt, and responsibility, and love, he shivered in the hallway.
He brought his arms to his chest, crossing them, holding himself together. He wasn't even sure he'd recognize either of the tributes, despite having shared the stage with them. One of the cold spikes seized his spine, rattling him. He leaned too far to the left, triggering the door sensor. It slid open with a squeak, revealing him to the mostly empty car. As casually as he could manage, he dropped his arms to his sides, biceps clutching his ribs. His heart thudded, beat even despite the whirlwind of his thoughts. Nothing was better proof of the Capitol having toyed with the healthy parts of him when they carved off the frostbite.
Mace stalked right up to the tea cart, stilling his fingers by clutching several strawberry scones. "You want any?" He asked the plain girl, who could only be Marianne Taylor. He glanced at her, and then wrapped his left hand around the body of the scalding hot tea kettle, reveling in the beauty of warmth. He carried both over to her, with every intention of drinking straight from the kettle. "I'm Mace, and I'll be mentorin' you. You wanna tell me about yourself?"
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