no grave can hold my body down ☜♥☞ half-baked
Jul 21, 2014 19:39:28 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker kelsier on Jul 21, 2014 19:39:28 GMT -5
P O T A T O
{ Heaven and hell were words to me }
{ Heaven and hell were words to me }
All I kin get is a couple 'er steps 'afore I am stumblin' ter ther dirt. Miss Sonja may be in pretty bad shape but I ain't doin' so well myself. Sweat pours down my forehead, the coolness of the mine doin' nothin' ter diminish my heat. My stomach burns from ther cuts in it an' my back aches worse than anyin', the deep gash in it needin' sewin' up fer sure, not ter mention my finger too. I jis' hurt a heck of a lot all over an' I'm wishin' real hard fer it ter stop. If I could speak I'd be callin' fer my Ma right now. (I wonner how she's doin' up there in heaven, if she's with Pa now, if she's missin' me, if she's seein' this.)
If My Ma is seein' this I doubt she'd be proud.
Carefully, I lay Miss Sonja 'gainst the wall, hands shakin' with ther effort. I stumble back agin', letting out a low moan when my own back hits the opposite side. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts. I jus' want it ter stop hurtin' so bad. I'm in the knowin' that it won't be stoppin' until I die, that this pain is gonner follow me fer ther few days that I got left ter live. It's a miracle that we've even lasted this long, what with all ther people cuttin' inter us. I don' even really unnerstan' how Sonja kin even still be breahtin' right now, you'd think she'd be a goner from all that bloodlust.
I reckon it jus' ain't her turn ter die.
With a sigh I let myself sit on ther groun', unsheathin' ther sword so's that it sits in my lap. I gotter make sure I don' let us git sneak attacked by nobody, Miss Ingrid wouldn't be very impressed if we'd made it away from all that rabble jus' ter git ourselves killed anyhow.
I look back down the tunnel ter where I hope she's still standin'. I ain't ready ter lose her jus' yet, she's proved herself as more than a frien' over the past few days. An' it almos' seems endless, this week. I feel like we may jus' be doin' this fer ferever instead 'a jus' a few more days. I feel like I ain't never done nothin' else anyway. Absentminded, my thumb presses itself inter the blood encrusted initials 'a Opal Earnest, my wife. It circles ther large 'O' over an over, as if I'm pressin' my thumb inter her skin rather than this cold blade. I wish I were.
I shut my eyes for a momen', imaginin' her 'aside me righ' now, smilin' in that soft way that she do. Her han' would be on mine righ' now an' she'd be openin' my han' up so's that she could be gettin' her smaller han' inter mine.
'See, isn't this nice, how we fit together?'
I c'ain't think about her righ' now 'cause I c'ain't be wonderin' what pain she's in. I c'ain't be worryin' 'bout her when I get me an' Miss Sonja an' Miss Ingrid ter worry about. Thinkin' 'bout her is like breathin' though, I ain't doin' it on purpose, it jus' happens. I'm always jus' thinkin' 'bout her, wonderin' after her, how she is, how she's copin'. I been thinkin' 'a her for so long now, it's secon' nature. I know she's thinkin' 'bout me too 'cause she tol' me that she would be. She tol' me that she has been since we met.
I open my eyes an' look across at Sonja, knowin' that she needs help but so dang tired myself that it's an effert jus' ter hold my sword in my lap. Maybe we'll both jus' bleed out an' die here an' Ingrid will fin' us layin' here like two guardians an' maybe she'll cry fer us. Or maybe she'll make sure that we drown. She were wantin' us ter drown I think. I heard her mumblin' once in her sleep but I were thinkin' it were jus' nightmares. Seein' as this whole thin' is like nightmares I ain't in ther knowin'.
An' i'm thinkin' 'a Ripred like I do a lot of ther time, like I did every Sunday an' like how I used ter stand in my fiels' in ther mornin' an' thank Ripred fer ther bounty I had.Now I ain't so sure what I got. My life an' my wife is slippin' away an' I ain't seen my sister in years. I ain't knowin' what I got. An' I guess this is a test 'a faith. Ma told me that Ripred would test me agin' an' agin' but if I put my faith in her she'd see me through. I'm tryin' I reckon but it's real hard when everythin' feels so hopeless.
"Ripred," I whisper, voice rocky an' broken, "Please jus' let Miss Sonja wake up agin, an' I promise I won't doubt you no more." n' we both knows it as a lie seein' as humans were made ter doubt. I will try though, I will. "An' please give us Miss Ingrid back safe," I add. An' I ain't never even wished fer nothin' so fervent, not even when we was all drownin' in air from the drought. This is ther most I've asked an' prayed fer anythin' in my life.
I know I don't deserve anythin' from Ripred, not after all ther sinnin' I done these last few days but there were nothin' else I could do. I promised my wife I'd try my hardes' an' breakin' a promise is real bad. Killin' is too. I ain't knowin' what to do, I feel like a caged animal.
"Please, show me ther way," I whisper inter the dark.
If My Ma is seein' this I doubt she'd be proud.
Carefully, I lay Miss Sonja 'gainst the wall, hands shakin' with ther effort. I stumble back agin', letting out a low moan when my own back hits the opposite side. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts. I jus' want it ter stop hurtin' so bad. I'm in the knowin' that it won't be stoppin' until I die, that this pain is gonner follow me fer ther few days that I got left ter live. It's a miracle that we've even lasted this long, what with all ther people cuttin' inter us. I don' even really unnerstan' how Sonja kin even still be breahtin' right now, you'd think she'd be a goner from all that bloodlust.
I reckon it jus' ain't her turn ter die.
With a sigh I let myself sit on ther groun', unsheathin' ther sword so's that it sits in my lap. I gotter make sure I don' let us git sneak attacked by nobody, Miss Ingrid wouldn't be very impressed if we'd made it away from all that rabble jus' ter git ourselves killed anyhow.
I look back down the tunnel ter where I hope she's still standin'. I ain't ready ter lose her jus' yet, she's proved herself as more than a frien' over the past few days. An' it almos' seems endless, this week. I feel like we may jus' be doin' this fer ferever instead 'a jus' a few more days. I feel like I ain't never done nothin' else anyway. Absentminded, my thumb presses itself inter the blood encrusted initials 'a Opal Earnest, my wife. It circles ther large 'O' over an over, as if I'm pressin' my thumb inter her skin rather than this cold blade. I wish I were.
I shut my eyes for a momen', imaginin' her 'aside me righ' now, smilin' in that soft way that she do. Her han' would be on mine righ' now an' she'd be openin' my han' up so's that she could be gettin' her smaller han' inter mine.
'See, isn't this nice, how we fit together?'
I c'ain't think about her righ' now 'cause I c'ain't be wonderin' what pain she's in. I c'ain't be worryin' 'bout her when I get me an' Miss Sonja an' Miss Ingrid ter worry about. Thinkin' 'bout her is like breathin' though, I ain't doin' it on purpose, it jus' happens. I'm always jus' thinkin' 'bout her, wonderin' after her, how she is, how she's copin'. I been thinkin' 'a her for so long now, it's secon' nature. I know she's thinkin' 'bout me too 'cause she tol' me that she would be. She tol' me that she has been since we met.
I open my eyes an' look across at Sonja, knowin' that she needs help but so dang tired myself that it's an effert jus' ter hold my sword in my lap. Maybe we'll both jus' bleed out an' die here an' Ingrid will fin' us layin' here like two guardians an' maybe she'll cry fer us. Or maybe she'll make sure that we drown. She were wantin' us ter drown I think. I heard her mumblin' once in her sleep but I were thinkin' it were jus' nightmares. Seein' as this whole thin' is like nightmares I ain't in ther knowin'.
An' i'm thinkin' 'a Ripred like I do a lot of ther time, like I did every Sunday an' like how I used ter stand in my fiels' in ther mornin' an' thank Ripred fer ther bounty I had.Now I ain't so sure what I got. My life an' my wife is slippin' away an' I ain't seen my sister in years. I ain't knowin' what I got. An' I guess this is a test 'a faith. Ma told me that Ripred would test me agin' an' agin' but if I put my faith in her she'd see me through. I'm tryin' I reckon but it's real hard when everythin' feels so hopeless.
"Ripred," I whisper, voice rocky an' broken, "Please jus' let Miss Sonja wake up agin, an' I promise I won't doubt you no more." n' we both knows it as a lie seein' as humans were made ter doubt. I will try though, I will. "An' please give us Miss Ingrid back safe," I add. An' I ain't never even wished fer nothin' so fervent, not even when we was all drownin' in air from the drought. This is ther most I've asked an' prayed fer anythin' in my life.
I know I don't deserve anythin' from Ripred, not after all ther sinnin' I done these last few days but there were nothin' else I could do. I promised my wife I'd try my hardes' an' breakin' a promise is real bad. Killin' is too. I ain't knowin' what to do, I feel like a caged animal.
"Please, show me ther way," I whisper inter the dark.