Playing with Fire (Matthew/Ky)
Aug 13, 2014 6:18:01 GMT -5
Post by Jack Lexington on Aug 13, 2014 6:18:01 GMT -5
What seemed to be a straight road to pleasure quickly turns into something much more serious. At first my girl claims she's not worried but we both know what it really is. She is worried, very much so. And she's right. I just haven't gotten around to asking myelf what would happen if we get caught. Having a girl friend is not forbidden but a wife and kid is against the peace keeper codex.
"Nobody forbids me to have a girl friend, Kyanite."
I try to give her some piece of mind but we both know her belly is ging to keep growing and when MY girl friend shows signs of pregnancy the question who the father is will be asked.
"I understand your worries. I just haven't figured it out yet. I need to look into this whole thing but I'm too busy right now."
Plus I wouldn't know who to ask.
I try to pull her closer again to end this topic but he takes the sheet instead and keeps asking.
"Wouldn't the capital catching us be worse? And on who will it be worse on?" I fall silent for a moment averting my gaze. Yes, what would happen if I break Capitol law by having a child?
"Me, probably. They can't punish you or our kid because you didn't sign anything."
I sigh a little and draw a breath that seems somewhat labored. As soon as I get worried this seems to be happening. Her words do find their way to my brain and heart when I've so far been dismissing them with 'It's not going to happen'.
With knitted brow I try to get her to look at me.
"I'll figure it out, Ky, don't worry so much."
She starts touching the skin on my chest and when I look at her finger I can see that she found the spot that's developed some bruising due to this weeks exercise. Damn. Why didn't I keep my shirt on? Then again, why hide things from her. It leads to no good.
My expression becomes even more serious. Should I tell her everything that happened?
But then she starts with her hormonally inhanced worries.
"The academy is hurting you too much... I don't like it. Why do you continue to keep doing it?"
I roll my eyes because it all leads back to Jins. The academy couldn't hurt me one bit if it wasn't to that asshole.
"It's not the academy and I can handle it. Why don't you give me a little bit of credit and start believing that I can actually make it and do something good for our country? Help people like you?"
My tone suddenly is a little sharper than I intended it to be but with the situation it seems like she has less and less understanding for me.
A long pause follows where my chest tightens more giving away how hard any strain, physical or emotional still is on me.
I can see the look in her eye. Kyanite is getting worked up and starting to move away from me because she thinks I'm selfish. I bet she thinks I'll ditch her and the kid when it comes down to it.
With a deep frown I shake my head looking her in the eyes. "Don't look at me that way, Ky. You don't understand."
A gasp escapes me. Maybe I should tell her.
"Nobody forbids me to have a girl friend, Kyanite."
I try to give her some piece of mind but we both know her belly is ging to keep growing and when MY girl friend shows signs of pregnancy the question who the father is will be asked.
"I understand your worries. I just haven't figured it out yet. I need to look into this whole thing but I'm too busy right now."
Plus I wouldn't know who to ask.
I try to pull her closer again to end this topic but he takes the sheet instead and keeps asking.
"Wouldn't the capital catching us be worse? And on who will it be worse on?" I fall silent for a moment averting my gaze. Yes, what would happen if I break Capitol law by having a child?
"Me, probably. They can't punish you or our kid because you didn't sign anything."
I sigh a little and draw a breath that seems somewhat labored. As soon as I get worried this seems to be happening. Her words do find their way to my brain and heart when I've so far been dismissing them with 'It's not going to happen'.
With knitted brow I try to get her to look at me.
"I'll figure it out, Ky, don't worry so much."
She starts touching the skin on my chest and when I look at her finger I can see that she found the spot that's developed some bruising due to this weeks exercise. Damn. Why didn't I keep my shirt on? Then again, why hide things from her. It leads to no good.
My expression becomes even more serious. Should I tell her everything that happened?
But then she starts with her hormonally inhanced worries.
"The academy is hurting you too much... I don't like it. Why do you continue to keep doing it?"
I roll my eyes because it all leads back to Jins. The academy couldn't hurt me one bit if it wasn't to that asshole.
"It's not the academy and I can handle it. Why don't you give me a little bit of credit and start believing that I can actually make it and do something good for our country? Help people like you?"
My tone suddenly is a little sharper than I intended it to be but with the situation it seems like she has less and less understanding for me.
A long pause follows where my chest tightens more giving away how hard any strain, physical or emotional still is on me.
I can see the look in her eye. Kyanite is getting worked up and starting to move away from me because she thinks I'm selfish. I bet she thinks I'll ditch her and the kid when it comes down to it.
With a deep frown I shake my head looking her in the eyes. "Don't look at me that way, Ky. You don't understand."
A gasp escapes me. Maybe I should tell her.