Just Barely // kittyoemily

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Just Barely // kittyoemily Oct 10, 2014 18:32:44 GMT -5

Post by Ailera on Oct 10, 2014 18:32:44 GMT -5

Ameline

Opening my eyes is the hardest part of waking up. A minute to realize I'm not sleeping anymore. Eight minutes to try to get comfortable again. Two minutes to lay there, waiting to fall back asleep. When its obvious I'm not going to get back to my dream, I open my eyes. First a crack, then all the way. Ten minutes to stare at the ceiling. With no window in my room to look outside, I turn my head towards the doorway. I can see into the living room, which is still dark. My eyes flick over to Abner's bed. Empty. It isn't yesterday anymore, because Abner is up. He would be outside right now, doing something productive, while I lay here. I close my eyes. I was just fine going back to sleep.

I open my eyes fifteen minutes later, but its too early in the morning for me to be happy about it. I don't want to chase after Abner today. Today, I want to lay in bed and sleep until tomorrow. Five minutes pass. I sigh, and turn on my side to get out of bed. I walk across the room, my hand sliding on the wall to steady myself. Just I'm entering the living room, I notice little rays of sunlight coming through the curtains. Instead of closing the curtains, I ignore it and take the backdoor to the barn.

I see Abner before he sees me. For a few seconds, I stand in the doorway rubbing my eyes. Usually, if I came out so early in the morning, I was fully awake. Today I was stumbling in. I knock on the wood a few times and wait for my brother to turn around. "Having fun?" I ask.

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Just Barely // kittyoemily Oct 12, 2014 12:21:56 GMT -5

Post by kittyoemily on Oct 12, 2014 12:21:56 GMT -5

I am sorry for everything.

ABNER WILLOW

I woke up from another one of my haunting historical dreams. My eyes wide open as if I have seen the Ghost. I know I have in one aspect. The ghost of who I used to be, and who I hope I am not today. Lying flat on my back I know it is an hour earlier than I usually wake up at, but I decide to get something done anyways. I get up slowly and throw my legs dangling off the side of my bed. I look at my sister sleeping so soundly. I did not want to wake her. So I quickly threw on my working out fit today and got up. Before I left the room however I stared at my little sister for a few seconds then went in and kissed her on her head. " please get better." I whispered, then I turned around and left the room.

Today was cleaning day. A part of me was happy that I woke up early so I would have enough time to eat lunch in between working, and perhaps take Ameline out for some candy or something to give her a bit of happiness for the day. An gentle smile reached my face at the thought of making my little sister happy. A chord was struck at the same time of why it makes me happy now. I ignored the chord like usual and started on my work of clearing out old hay and replacing it with new hay. Once I got the animals all out and into the pastor the harder part of work had came.

By the time my sister had come into the barn I had luckily cleaned it all up and was now placing clean hay down. Her presence was made apparent as she knocked on the barn door as I was lifting a bale of hay on to the floor and cutting the string off of it. On one of my knees I looked back to where the noise came from. Sweat rolling down my face she spoke. "Having fun?" I smirked and wiped the sweat off of my face. "of course I am, this is free career training right here, the finest and the best." I stood up and started to pull the hay apart and spread it around the barn continuing my work as Ameline does her job of talking to me making the work go by a lot faster.

Some how I wonder if I would be ever forgiven.....

"Ah, District Two, you do breed some crazies xD" Quote-Kay-

All time favorite quote ever^^

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Just Barely // kittyoemily Oct 13, 2014 10:15:55 GMT -5

Post by Ailera on Oct 13, 2014 10:15:55 GMT -5

Ameline

"Of course I am, this is free career training right here. The finest and the best," Abner replies. I smile a little more. I adored him. Everything he did, everything he said, I wanted to copy it. I take a few more steps in so I can be closer to him, and I watch him work around for a few second before I continue talking. I knew he liked it, and in a way, I liked it. It helped me organize my thoughts - I didn't talk to anyone else. "I had a really nice dream last night. I was with you and dad, and we were all very, very rich. We had really pretty clothes, and I fell down hard. Mama picked me up, and when you all looked at me like you were worried, I had Mama's body, and I didn't even have a scab!"

I stop to think about the dream. It really had been nice. "I think that dream means I'm not going to get hurt anymore, you know? My teacher said if you think about your dreams you find messages in them. I think that message was pretty clear, don't you?" I don't wait for him to answer, instead I sit down on the floor and cross my legs. I put my chin on my hand and follow him with my eyes. "My teacher also said that people like me, who aren't too strong like you are, they get really big when they grow up. I know I'm going to be big like you." I smile. It had to happen, even I looked warped, I was going to be big. I couldn't stay short forever, everyone grew. Even little bugs.

"Where you little like me when you were my age?" I ask. I knew I was exceptionally easy to injure, but I knew height was something families had in common. My family was tall, so they must have been short when they were my age, and taller later.

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Just Barely // kittyoemily Oct 13, 2014 18:14:57 GMT -5

Post by kittyoemily on Oct 13, 2014 18:14:57 GMT -5

I am sorry for everything.

ABNER WILLOW

It took a few minutes until she spoke again, and I got the feeling that maybe she had left, but when she spoke it was like of creepy."I had a really nice dream last night. I was with you and dad, and we were all very, very rich. We had really pretty clothes, and I fell down hard. Mama picked me up, and when you all looked at me like you were worried, I had Mama's body, and I didn't even have a scab!" Not the first part because indeed it was doing its job of making my job a lot easier, but the second part. The second part that although I kept working like it did not bother me it did bother me. It bothered me because some how I know that is the life she was meant to live. The one she was meant to live until I became a sour apple, or because I was always a sour apple. So I continued to brush the hay along, but it became harder than I expected it to be since she indeed was talking to me, and she was indeed happy. ( She could have been happier though)

"I think that dream means I'm not going to get hurt anymore, you know? My teacher said if you think about your dreams you find messages in them. I think that message was pretty clear, don't you?" I nod in agreement even though my face was in opposition of my nod since it was not facing Ameline I could do that. I however was pretty sure her simple dreams could simply not come true."My teacher also said that people like me, who aren't too strong like you are, they get really big when they grow up. I know I'm going to be big like you." I nod once again, even though I know it is false again. I guess it could be true. I could get her eating healthier. I mean she has different dna, but that does not mean anything right? If anything it may give her a better chance of it coming true since I was never entirely short like her, so no way my Dna works like that.

Her questions just kept on coming, more importantly all centered on the same thing. The wrong thing. I would tell her to stop, but I owe her this much I owe her my unfading love. For me to accept any pain wrecking comments or questions. I owe it to her even when she says."Where you little like me when you were my age?" I know I have to lie. I know I really should not feel comfortable lying but I do. In fact I love lying. That is lying for my sister. The Truth most certainly won't set her free. She must know that there is hope, even if I know there is none. I must only keep the burden to myself. I have given her enough burdens for over an infinity of life times. I turn around with a gentle smile and drop the hay." Of course I was, that is why my bed is so small they did not guess that I would get as big as I am." I go running towards her and scoop her up in my arms as fast, but gently as possible. " And you will too in no time." My face was unrecognizable as anything but sincere happiness.. I intend to keep it that way." Listen." I said putting her back down gently." I have some extra money, and hopefully some extra time once work is finished I am going to go bring you to the candy store to pick out any candy that you want, my treat." I smiled my quirky half smile as I waited for her expression. The one that always makes my day. No matter how bad it was.

Some how I wonder if I would be ever forgiven.....

"Ah, District Two, you do breed some crazies xD" Quote-Kay-

All time favorite quote ever^^

Ailera
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Just Barely // kittyoemily Oct 14, 2014 10:05:51 GMT -5

Post by Ailera on Oct 14, 2014 10:05:51 GMT -5

Ameline

"Of course I was, that is why my bed is so small they did not guess that I would get as big as I am, and you will too in no time." I laugh when he scoops me up. I loved being picked up by him, or anyone, for that matter. I liked being higher up. I squish my eyes tightly together and give him a big smile, trying to make him happy. I loved having a big brother, and it was a little sad not all girls my age got to have a big brother like Abner. He was the best person I knew. "Listen," he says after he sets me down, and I nod my head in anticipation just as I let a more serious face come onto me. "I have some extra money, and hopefully some extra time once work is finished I am going to go bring you to the candy store to pick out any candy that you want, my treat." I smile again, and stand up straighter. When he finishes talking, I throw my arms around him and hug him tightly. That was another great part of being a little sister. Sometimes, it was okay to act younger than you were.

"Thank you, thank you, thanks, thanks and thanks!" I say in a quiet, but excited voice. I did like candy. I didn't care if mom said they were bad for my teeth, I loved having it. I figured anyone would want it. I begin to ponder over what kind of candy I wanted. Did I want something chocolate or something I could suck on? Or maybe something gooeyish. "My favorite kind of candy is blue candy," I say, trying to be silly. "What is your favorite kind?" I let my smile get a little smaller when I turn my head to look around the barn. It looked almost perfect. It looked like how Dad always liked, and I wonder if it had been nearly that way when Abner woke up, or if he'd done it all in a short bit of time.

"About what time will you finish?" I ask, trying not to sound too impatient. "I can help you get done faster if you want me to." With the idea in my mind, I feel the excitement begin to get through my body. Yes, I would help him. I loved helping him.

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