jaxson alexander cinders {{complete}}

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"They say the spirit's willing
But the flesh is always weak
I found everything I needed
Right beneath my skin, oh
I've seen down the end of the road
I deal in a different story, oh
I will never let go again
I feel it in my bones, bones, bones, bones"
{{"bones"||young guns}}

Good-looking is definitely an apt description of Jax, according to most people. He stands at five foot seven, respectable, though surely not imposing. A rather slim boy, he weighs roughly one hundred and twenty pounds, most of which is comprised by muscle. Not the type that would normally be accused of being athletic, he is actually in stellar physical condition, due to his enjoyment of running, swimming, climbing, etc. Jax's skin of is of a gentle, pale complexion that is almost solidified moonlight.
Luminous eyes of iridescent blue are his most distinguishing physical trait, despite his porcelain skin.

With one look, Jax is able to make people feel as if they have been frozen to the marrow. His hair is almost charcoal in color, and extremely layered in cut. His bangs sweep neatly across his forehead, nearly hugging his eyebrows due to their length. A running joke is Jax's pride in his hair, as he displays an amusing vanity when it comes to its neatness. His hair does, however, serve a practical purpose for him: it obscures his ears. Jax has been sensitive about the size of his ears since he was a child, as they are a bit large, a fact not unnoticed by kids when he was in school. They teased him mercilessly for it, prompting him to grow his hair out a bit as a teenager.

Jax's predominant trait is his stoic philosophy. He believes in the principles of stoicism very ardently, and is rigid in his adherence to them. The importance he places upon values such as valor, wisdom, justice, and moderation is very striking. He follows the stoic principle of self-control, as well; to the point of remaining very measured and in control of his emotions. Jax is very critical in his views of others if he views them as frivolous, impulsive, or overly expressive of their emotions. He also has a very cynical view of what he views as cowardice, the disdain stemming from his core stoic values.

True to the tenants of stoicism, Jax places a high degree of importance upon wisdom. To this end, the young man has spent countless hours reading, the end goal being to absorb as much as knowledge as he is capable of. Not only does he strive to learn, he spends a great deal of time meditating, examining himself to better understand his psyche; the highest form of wisdom being, in his view, total understanding of oneself. His value of wisdom can occasionally come off condescending, as he is quick to write off the "intellectually lazy." Frustration is riled within him when speaking with a person who cares little for attuning the higher knowledge that leads to true wisdom.

Jax has a unique perspective on the meaning of valour. He considers it the highest form of the self-control that the stoic philosophy characterizes. His reasoning being that keeping one's fear at bay and facing a distressing situation takes an abnormal degree of power being exercised over the emotions. He believes it takes restraint worthy of a stoic to achieve bravery. As such, Jax himself possesses, and frequently exhibits, a steely resolve stemming from his complete and total control of his emotions. This is not to say that Jax himself is a brave man; rather, his composure and command over his emotions is stronger than his innate fear.

Justice is an ideal that Jax holds very dear to him, being a major tenet of stoic doctrine. The judicious young man's definition of justice is inextricable from that of the philosophy he adheres to. He believes that that which fosters happiness falls within the definition of just, and conversely, that which spreads evil is categorized as evil. Accordingly, that which he sees as neither good nor evil is simply indifferent; not constructive, but not particularly harmful. He does, in accordance with his philosophy, recognize an "indifferent" as preferred or dispreferred. That which is preferred is in accordance with nature and that which is dispreferred contrary to nature.

Moderation, the last of the four major axioms of stoicism, is also found in Jax. He is frugal by nature, disdaining waste of any kind, and despises material excess. As such, he is staunchly biased against those who are wealthy and do not use their resources for the betterment of society. Greed, to Jax, runs counter to all of the values of import in a stoic's world, as he views it unwise, cowardly, and also in a way unjust. As such, the principle of moderation is the foundation of the philosophy to him, supporting the three other tenets of the doctrine. Strictly adhering to this value, Jax is content with modest accommodations and few possessions, comfortable with a poor man's life.

Though his philosophy is the thread used to weave the fabric of his identity, there is more to Jax than stoicism, and his personality is not devoid of depth. Independent of his creed, he is a serious young man, rarely ever shaken. He approaches things with a maturity uncommon to a youth of his age, with a methodical, analytical calmness. Perhaps this somber nature stems from his childhood as a solitary orphan. His seriousness is not to be mistaken for severity, however. Despite his serious, Jax does enjoy life and for the most part, the people around him. He can extricate himself from his graveness in favor of his lighter side.

Stemming partially from his own personality and the result of his studies, Jax possesses an innate peacefulness. A unique tranquility, like the still waters of a pond. This serenity, along with his self control, is the primary reason why he never seems to express negativity. After years of introspection and getting to understand himself, he has learned true inner peace. Hardly anything seems to bother the young man, and he has been compared to a gentle ocean wave, rolling along quietly and peacefully. He is content to, as he would put it, "flow wherever the current of life takes me, without resistance."

Perhaps linked to his maturity, Jax is highly intelligent, especially for his age. He has a rather insightful mind, and he is a student of logic. In all of his readings, science, logic and philosophy are the subjects Jax reads the most about. This studying has trained his mind to its peak, and kept his reasoning skills sharp. His skills of analysis are impeccable, as noted by many close to him. However, his intelligence mainly lies in memorization and dissection of information. His memory is nearly eidetic, and as such, he has an almost complete recall of all information he comes across.

Jax's intelligence makes it difficult for him to relate to people of his own age. They tend to see him as a know it all, an eccentric, or someone who is just tedious. It doesn't that help that he delights in offering people all kinds of new information when the opportunity arises, which some see as downright condescension. This, in tandem with his generally shy personality, caused children his age to frequently steer clear of him. As a result, he has grown to be rather…interesting.

An isolated youth made him develop into a socially awkward young man. Jax makes it a point to avoid interaction whenever possible these days, much preferring to make like a wisp of smoke and become intangible to the people around him. When forced into social situations, he will often be forced to search for cues from the most socially adept people around him and do his best not to come off as a nervous wreck. In large crowds, he has been known to suffer from some anxiety, and he will try to either flee as quickly as possible or blend in and hope to be left well enough alone.

Jaxson Alexander Cinders was born in District Three to unknown parents on October 9th. This day would become the root of his personal vendetta against the Capitol, as it was this nearly omnipotent entity that would have his parents executed for "subversion," thus leaving the boy to the mercy of the District's orphanage. As he grew, he witnessed many youths waste away and many thrive. This would motivate him not simply fade away, like a withering ember. His childhood was mainly spent immersed in reading any materials he could get his hands on; this intellectual stimulation was the only thing that really engrossed him.

Ostracized by the other children, Jax simply spent most of his time alone. It suited him, being something of an outcast, and it would spur the development of his mental faculties. His teachers at school quickly caught on to the fact that he was no early child, marveling at the speed at which he learned. Outpacing his peers entirely, these teachers often did not know what to do with the boy, so he spent most of his class time daydreaming. When he was nine years old, however, one teacher in particular took an interest in him.

Sensing that Jax possessed extraordinary potential, the teacher insisted that the school administer to him an intelligence quotient exam. He scored an outlandish one hundred and sixty three, exceeding even the teacher's high expectations. Being classified as a genius meant that the District placed him in a special accelerated program, designed to cultivate the talents of children such as he, with beyond exceptional gifts. This program allowed him to essentially start what could be considered graduate studies at thirteen, completing them at seventeen. At this age, he was recruited to work in a secret chemical weapons plant under the direct control of the Capitol.

It was also during his adolescence that he began to take notice of the society in which he lived, noting in particular the brutality of its government. Jax was touched by the suffering of people across Panem, realizing the malevolence of the Capitol; however, his horror would turn to sheer hatred upon turning sixteen. The orphanage allowed him access to the files it had kept on him since his arrival, and he was incensed upon learning that the Capitol was responsible for leaving him without parents. In memory of the family he should have had, Jax has vowed that if the opportunity ever arose for him to aid in the destruction of the authoritarian regime, he would do so without the slightest hesitation.