watch your tongue girl { rex }

Ariel Porter 

As soon as we were done in the hospital I left, a smile to my sister and a frown at my parents. My sister understood, she understood how much it took out of me to be at her beck and call but she knew she didn't have a choice and deep down I knew that too. I almost never let her know how much it pissed me off to be her saviour twin because I knew that it would hurt her and to hurt her was the last thing I wanted, well that what I hoped. (it is what I wanted right? I didn't want to hurt her, did I?)

Sighing I push my parents protest to the back of my mind. All I can hear is my mother screaming for me to get back here, to take care of my sister, to be a proper sister. But I ignored them, my feet continue to walk until I was out of the hospital, until I was in the fresh air of my home, the hospital far behind me. I hated it. I hated it all, so much... and I wish that I wasn't Ariel Porter. I wised that I was just Ariel. Ariel who didn't have a twin, Ariel who was free. (but I would be lying if I said that... because I loved my sister, it wasn't her fault that she was sick.)

Sighing I kick the path I walk along, mumbling frustrated words under my breath. I should be grateful shouldn't I? She was alive, I was alive... But... but i wasn't me. "Why does this all have to be so complicated, why cant i just be a normal girl!" I scream into the quiet streets of district three. "Why cant i be like the other girls in my class? why?" I say more quietly, burying my face into my hands. 

Taking a deep breath in I push the thoughts of my sister, of my family, into the back of my mind because for now I was my own person. No one knew where I was, no one would come and look for me, not unless she had another elapse. Thats right, for now I could spread my wings and fly. The thought tugs a smile onto my pale face as I walk with a little more of a skip. I had the whole day to myself today, no school, no nothing. Just me. Just me.