if I had a heart {New Panem Patriots vs 3 Monmonmo}
Mar 14, 2015 17:00:50 GMT -5
Post by Knuckles on Mar 14, 2015 17:00:50 GMT -5
Chaske Parks
If I had a heart, I could love you
If I had a heart, I could love you
[presto][/presto] | Ever since I ran away from the fight, I haven't been able to look at Wyatt. He killed her. The only piece of home I have. He destroyed her, but she would've killed him if he didn't kill her. He took several hits that fight, and his blood covered the pure white ground. It was no longer pure. None of it was. It was red and ruined, and her blood covers my skin. Her blood, the blood of the tiny girl from twelve, and his blood. All of it cakes against my skin, and now I'm stuck. I can't do anything anymore. A fire floods through my veins, and I can't contain it. Wyatt should be fucking happy that Prism and Mason are here otherwise I would kill him like he killed her. His blood would be mine. Yet, I still move beside him like I have to. I healed him after the fight. That's what brothers are for, right? What the fuck is even holding me to this band of brothers? Is it Mason? No. It can't be him because he tried to break my arm, and I haven't forgiven him for it. I'll never forgive him. It sure as hell isn't Wyatt. He just broke every thread of trust I had for him. I keep telling myself that it wasn't his fault. That he had to kill her, but he killed her, and I didn't ever get the chance to make up to her. I didn't get the chance to tell her I was sorry - yeah, I told her, but she was dead. Her cannon sounded. She didn't hear me. "You killed her Chaske. You fucking killed her. It was you. Just like you killed mother and father. It was you!" The voices rage inside my head, and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs unable to do anything. Unable to control myself. A howl from deep within my body matches that of a wild animal howling to the moon in the middle of the night. "You're worthless! You're a screw up! You ruin everything!" A stream of water pours from my eyes, and it's a miracle the tiny tears don't freeze against my face. It's so fucking cold, and now I'm dead. Nothing lives inside me anymore. A heart beats. Lungs expand and relax. But other than that, I'm an empty shell. Out of all the pain Father and Mother put me through, this is by far the worse pain imaginable. I can heal the physical wounds. Bruises goes away, cuts go away, but a broken heart never mends. I can't just slap a bandage across it and expect the cut to heal. It's fucking impossible. Pieces spread out so far, I can't reach them. I might as well lay down in the snow and die. After running away, I gathered a bundle of firewood, and a bunch of plants that have medical purposes. The firewood is needed in order to survive. The only water I've seen in the arena is that I found in the golden chest after climbing the fucking ice pillar. (I held the weapon that killed her in my hands.) Yet Prism stops beside me lighting a fire so I can boil the water. So I can make it pure and clean. Just like the snow once was. Pure and clean, but not it's no longer clean as it drinks the blood of those falling around us. Mason Hammerfell lost his district partner. Prism Nixton lost his district partner, but none of them watched her fall before them killed by their allies. I never touched Hedvig, or Dillon, but they touched Mystic. They killed her. They killed her. What ever happened to caring about one another? I could've saved her, but I didn't. I chose to fight against her. I chose to let her die. "It's all your fault!" I allow the jug of water to boil over the fire Prism created. My heart sits far within my stomach as it growls begging for something to eat. My throat burns for the taste of the water, yet I know I need to wait. The gamemakers gave me something, but I don't know if it's safe or not. After all, they want us to die. My eyes find Wyatt sitting away from me. He killed her, and I want him dead, but at the same time I'm glad he's alive. He's my bro. Prism is my bro. Mason is my bro. We're all brothers here fighting for the same reason. I know all three of them want to make it home alive because it's exactly what I want. I want to live. I want to go home to prove to mother and father and chance and sister that I am who I said I am. I am the one capable of winning the games. "kill him!" A sudden urge has me on my feet, and I'm running towards him with my hands wrapped around the handles of the hatchets. One of them raised above my head as I march towards Wyatt. Ringing blares through my ears, and in a second he's on his feet. I'll kill him. I'll kill him! And he's moving towards me with the ice pick raised high. I'm about to strike, I swear, when out of nowhere Mason lands on top of me tossing me towards the ground, and my eyes wonder to Wyatt, and Prism has him pinned against a tree. Yelling at him. Tears pour from my eyes as incoherent animal like sounds erupt from my lips. Somehow I break free of his grasps, and I stagger towards a tree fighting to hold my head on straight. I slide down against it bringing my knees to my chest. My eyes focus on a point in the distance, and I don't move once I place the jug next to the fire. I don't move or think or do anything. I just sit and breathe. Then the anthem blares through the arena, and I feel myself breaking. Falling farther and farther away from reality as tears sweep down my face mixing with the snot pouring from my nose. I can't - don't want - to look, yet I need to. For Mystic. For her to show her my last bit of respect. To show her that I care for her. That I need her right now. Quartz Caplin of District One Mystic Trotter of District Nine Gaia Cross of District Twelve Another career gone, and if I've counted correctly only three remain. The three career males. Mason is one of them, and he's still by my side fighting along with me. He's killed someone today. My heart breaks over and over each time I think about Mystic. My district partner. I'll fight for you. I'll do everything in my power to make sure you're never forgotten. Thirteen of us are left alive. Thirteen left in the game. Twelve more must die. Twelve more before the crown can be placed on my head. (A temporary crown. One that will fall apart like the world around me.) Sighing heavily, I place the empty jug of water, and my newly purified jug of water inside my bag before turning my back towards everyone. I nestle down against the bag keeping my head off the snow, and for the first time in two nights, I allow myself to fall asleep. I allow the night to consume me, and my only hope was nobody would kill me in my sleep. The next morning the voices of my allies wake me as they talk. For a moment my eyes shift around, and I close my eyes listening to the sound of my heart ticking inside my temples. My chest rises and falls as each breath enters and leaves my body. I'm... I'm alive. Nobody killed me unless this is some sort of horrible dream - this entire arena is a fucking nightmare, and it's hard to tell what's real and what's fake anymore. Gathering all my supplies I throw my backpack on my shoulder. Quickly, I make sure the hatchets are within reach so I can grab them easily in case I need one. Once again we're on our feet moving through the arena. Moving through the frozen hell. My toes are growing cold and numb. My head slouches forward with every step I take. The tension runs high, and I want to bring it down. I want to apologize to Wyatt for what he did. We're in the hunger games. Killing isn't a choice - it's a must. After walking for a while and dodging the branches of the trees, a tall tower stands high in the horizon. My eyes widen as I stare at it wondering what it is, yet I don't run towards it. I follow behind them. Mason, Prism, and Wyatt. A band of murderers. No longer would this be considered a band of brothers. It was shattered. Broken. Torn to shreds. A giant ice castle sits in the distance. A miraculous sight compared to the rest of the arena. Doors ajar, I want to stop and not move inside, yet the reflection of the light, of the snow crashing towards the ground mesmerizes me drawing me closer and closer until I'm finally inside. Cracked floors, knocked down columns - it looks like a tornado ran wild. My eyes rest on the throne. Hints of blood stain the solid ice. Every single hair on the back of my neck rise into the air as a lump forms in my throat. I can't breath. Reaching down, I pick up some of the rubble and sort through it wondering what's beneath it. Gripping one of the pieces in my hand, I throw it as hard as I can towards the ceiling of the castle praying with everything inside of me that it doesn't come crashing down at any second. Just the other day I was on top of the fucking world, and now I'm standing here like a fucking peasant in the ruined castle. It probably was once a beautiful sight, but now it's as ruined as those of us in the arena. The thirteen of us left alive. A light bulb burst inside my mind. This is my palace. My throne room. When the games end, I will sit upon this throne as the metal crown is placed upon my head, and I, Chaske Parks, will be the king of the world. My eyes turn from one place to another trying to figure out what happened. Death. People died here, and it's over. Over for them. Fragments of ice shards cover the ground, and I swear I can see the face of my district partner staring at me. I shake my head and the world seems frozen for only a moment. I inhale sharply, And in the distance something moves. Something or someone. It's my turn to kill. I remove a hatchet, and I throw it with all my might, and honestly I don't care who's in front of me. I don't care who I hit. After all, this is the hunger games. |
Chaske attacks {Monmonmo #1} | throwing hatchet
SVwc6PyZthrowing axe
[result: 10196 -- Miss (Axe lost) -- 0 damage]
SVwc6PyZthrowing axe
[result: 10196 -- Miss (Axe lost) -- 0 damage]
throwing axe