patchwork empathy {VT squad/Katelyn}
Apr 24, 2015 22:40:06 GMT -5
Post by Python on Apr 24, 2015 22:40:06 GMT -5
r a t t s.
Rattiera was not often a loser.
A life of thievery was a life of gain. Friends, enemies, jewelry, and money. Add a splash of alcohol, and that was her foundation. She was an influx of things that didn’t belong to her. Every necklace in her collection was purchased by a stranger’s unfortunate hands, and every penny in her pocket was earned by illegal swipes of her grimy fingertips. Selfish was an outsider’s perspective, survival was her own. It was a habit she couldn’t break when it was thrust upon her the very moment she craved a separation, and habits morph into a lifestyle. The alternative was mooching, and she was not that kind of friend, not to Garrett or anyone.
A life of thievery was not a life of loss. If she was arrested like her father, then maybe. But she was a blender, she faded into shadows like a scavenging raccoon. She had only ever lost one person. Family, but half of Seven’s population was missing one parent or the other. She knew she was not a special snowflake. Despite what happened, she sucked it up and moved on. She accepted the cards dealt to her and played them to her advantage.
She was a pretty good gambler, but nobody can be perfect.
Her name was Margaret, and she volunteered. Why? She asked for an explanation and received an apology. There seemed to be no meaning behind the madness but Rattiera knew better than to assume anything about anyone, especially Margaret. There had been a storm unfurling inside of that girl. Where it came from and why, she didn’t know. It was none of her business. But they were aching all the same, Rattiera and Garrett and Quentin and Draco. They were compelled to watch her broadcasted face if not forced by the District to “stay tuned for the Bloodbath.” Her heart would’ve been racing had she not replaced the sweat in her palms with a bottle of liquor.
It didn’t reverse her habits, it amplified them. With or without Garrett she continued her evening escapades, because no matter who or what was missing in her life she needed profit. Food and water, gambling and liquor, survival and luxury. That was her coping strategy; bar-hopping with Draco, watching Garrett and his strange gardening habits, tweaking electronics with Quentin. She surrounded herself with the fellow losers, the ones who ached as much as she did. Every morning, afternoon, and evening, as much as she could. When she was inevitably by herself, she glued her eyes to the miniature television screen in her bedroom with a bowl of noodles in her lap. Her appetite decomposed within minutes of viewing the frozen wasteland. It wasn’t the blood and gore that bothered her, just the thought of Margaret.
Everything crumbled around that girl. Ally after ally fallen into the snow, and Rattiera didn’t care for anything but their sacrifice for her survival. Margaret was a tough gal, she had proven that much. But tough gals were not indestructible. Nobody was immune to death and suffering, the two went hand-in-hand. Yet every day, Margaret conquered the odds. Sunrises and sunsets started to blend. It fooled her into believing she had a chance.
She did. Honestly, she did.
The finale fucked it all up. The four of them stood together in the Square, Rattiera sobered up and shrouded by the shadows of her too-tall comrades. There was a steam cloud whirling inside of her, having never been unleashed because Draco refused to respond to her taunts, and constantly interrupted her scuffles with strangers like he was a babysitter. It pissed her off, but sober she could bear it.
She regretted it when Katelyn and Margaret commenced their long-awaited duel.
She had never felt so much pent up frustration, so much hatred in one individual. It was justified. The shit she spewed, the “you deserve Hell,” and the “No one’s going to miss you when you’re gone.” She didn’t blame Margaret for never having mentioned her friends. Family was probably the first thing on her mind – other than surviving. The broad knew nothing, absolutely nothing.
She won anyway, and Rattiera stood in enraged silence until after the crowd dispersed.
Now that princess bitchface would be visiting their District today. Attendance was mandatory. She decided to dress in her baggiest clothes, and dosed herself with an injection of liquor. She needed that extra buzz to deal with the crappy circumstances.
She met with Garrett along the way, and said nothing. The Square was already packed when they arrived – fashionably late as planned – so they settled themselves near the back, waiting for Draco and Quentin to perhaps appear at their sides.
She yawned when Katelyn walked onto the stage.table inspired by rook