daylight of the jewels— conquer all {chautin&alexis}
May 9, 2015 15:28:25 GMT -5
Post by jess on May 9, 2015 15:28:25 GMT -5
A L E X I S S U N W E L L I've always been a warrior. From the moment I was born, kicking my way out like a proper fighter already. Sure, it caused extreme pain for my mother and resulted in her staying in labour for nearly two days - but that aside, I've still been a fighter from day one. And I never plan on changing that. Life for me has been a rollercoaster of emotions and pain and heartbreak, but I've never shown anything other than fighting spirit. I haven't cried in front of anyone since the day I was born. I haven't shown emotions towards anyone other than my closest family members. I don't cry, or laugh, or speak in any tone other than a monotone. If I do, I might end up becoming weak. After all the work I've done to get to where I am now, I refuse to be weak. I don't know what I'm doing here. Maybe it's some ridiculous stratagem to prove myself to everyone around me. Why do I need to prove myself when everybody already knows? Maybe I'm trying to prove it to myself. There's a part of my mind that doesn't believe I'm a proper warrior yet. I know myself better than anyone else. I have feelings and emotions and I've cried and I've wanted to die. I've just never shown it towards others - maybe for the best. For all they know, Alexis Sunwell is an emotionless freak with no heart. Having no heart is a positive trait in my books. My nerves are hardened and my heart never flutters when anyone looks at me, I never get the nervous butterflies in my stomach, fluttering and tingling. I've never experienced that. The one thing I can say I've experienced is emptiness. Day in, day out of feeling nothing followed by large bouts of emotions. I feel like a warrior now, decked out in lightweight metal armour and clasping a heavy but manageable sword in my right hand as usual. I look to be quite weak - I'm short and scrawny, but underneath this armour there's the faint ripple of muscles that comes from being a fully trained Career. I have both the upper body strength for attacking and lower body strength for moving. I know how to fight. I've known how to fight for nearly two decades now. As I said earlier, from day one. Day six thousand six hundred and sixty five and I'm still standing strong. I will not back down - a warrior never gives up hope. She pursues her dreams and moves forwards, and whether she likes it or not she will either end up at her goal or dead. My target is this girl they've put me in front of. My goal is to defeat, to pursue, to fight. My motivation is the will to fight that's stayed with me throughout my whole life. My answer to her question is- "I guess we're about to find out." My domain is this Colosseum. And it's a kingdom fit for a warrior. template by chelsey |