Leaving After I die

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 18:18:28 GMT -5

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Post by pup on Jun 2, 2015 18:18:28 GMT -5

Guys this time it is for real. Right after I die in the games, which I know I will because now I am a target, I will go and just leave. Recently a few people on the site have basically told me to go crawl into a hole and die. That hurts. Really. They say I stole a spot from someone which was because of my stupid kindle not loading and me not seeing Marr post. I wanted to destroy my post, but then someone said I couldn't delete it even though I had just posted it. I just want to say maybe after I leave I will go crawl into a hole and die because honestly guys, you seem to really want me to. If I'm not needed in the world then I might just not be in. So after Lily dies in the games, I am leaving and you will never hear from me again. Ever. So now guys if you want to send me some more hate pms just fuck off and leave me alone. Your mission is accomplished to make me feel as low as humanly possible. From now on until I leave, I will not be on chat, I will not answer pms. I will still post and everything, but after I die. I am saying my final goodbye.

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 18:27:39 GMT -5

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Post by rook on Jun 2, 2015 18:27:39 GMT -5

I never said you should crawl into a hole and die, dude, you should never think that. I said it was a shitty thing to do, and you should feel bad for doing it. If there were circumstances you couldn't control, then okay, but you have to take some responsibility for this, and that doesn't mean quitting, or "wanting to crawl into a hole and die", it means accepting what happened and learning from it. No one hates you, and certainly no one wants the things you say to happen, we're just annoyed because it was a selfish thing.

At the end of the day, this is a Game, and we're all playing a Game. Please don't think that you're not worth anything, because despite some of us getting frustrated and annoyed with you, it does not mean that we do not value you as a person.

If you want to leave, then do, but you're a good kid, and you shouldn't take something like this so hard-hitting.

I'm sorry if I upset you. Genuinely.

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pup Veteran Member 3,008 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Sept 14, 2023 20:52:48 GMT -5	Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 18:28:46 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pup on Jun 2, 2015 18:28:46 GMT -5 Rook it's not you. Honestly and truly. Other members have gone at me about this.
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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 18:41:45 GMT -5

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Post by * on Jun 2, 2015 18:41:45 GMT -5

Puppy, you really need to let things go. What happened happened. I can't take back what you did and neither can you. You got the spot fair and square (By the rules) and you better do your damn best to play FAIR. I will not have you take the spot you got fair and square in vain. That wouldn't be mature of you and I"m trying to be a good sport about it.

Puppy, honestly, you need to take a step back. Breath. And just do what you need to do. No sore winners, you hear me? Suck it up, buttercup. It's just A GAME. I can't control what others do, but I can control how I represent myself and I am keeping my head up. If I don't get in the games this time, I will always have September. Life goes on. Quit seeking attention and just play the game to the best of your abilities please. As I said, I will not take a spot out of pity, and I don't want this games to be a pity party for anyone.

Play the game.

Play the game right.

Best reguards,

Marree

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 18:48:52 GMT -5

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Post by pup on Jun 2, 2015 18:48:52 GMT -5

Thank you Marr. That really makes me feel a bit better, honestly, but I am still sticking with my decision. I have been diagnosed with depression two years ago, and I honestly really liked this site when I joined. It made me happy for a time, then I started feeling like some people didn't really like me on here. This site now doesn't make me happier like it used to. I don't feel that urge to just go a rp until my fingers hurt from taping the screen on my kindle. I don't think this site is making me better because honestly, some people take the game to seriously, and this site has become an outlet for quite a few people and is amazing and makes a lot of people happy, but I know that I am not often wanted here, and I think it is better for me to just go and try to find another outlet for me to make me happy and unstressed. That is my decision and I appreciate for you and rook trying to make the little fourteen year old sitting in the back of his room on a kindle better. I really do appreciate it, but my decision holds firm.

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 21:33:52 GMT -5

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Post by Deleted on Jun 2, 2015 21:33:52 GMT -5

Puppy,

I really hope you don’t give up so easily. I would tell you (and probably everyone) to take a deep breath. It is, after all, just a game. This site has a lot of great things—people, threads, stories, tables, etc—and you’ve said yourself you’ve enjoyed it. You earned your spot in the games fair and square. What you shouldn’t do is tear anyone else down because of the games, or let them do the same to you. It’s silly and juvenile, and sometimes people take them way too seriously (I know in the past I have!).

But the worst thing you can do is put your self-worth into what other people think about you based on a made up game. You’re better than that. Use the games to become a better writer, or build a good character. Remember: some of the best characters from the games aren’t victors—and playing to win is usually what drives people crazy anyway. In the end, if you still feel like you’re not being treated the way you want to be treated, take some time to cool off and figure out what makes you happy. The site will still be here, and there will still be people willing to thread with you. I know I’m one of them.

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 22:17:27 GMT -5

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Post by cici on Jun 2, 2015 22:17:27 GMT -5

Puppy, I'm sorry that you feel this way. Unfortunately, a lot of the people on this site are too trapped in the mindset of the games to value other members for anything beyond how well they code and/or how much they benefit one’s own plot. It's unfortunate because I know you're a wonderful person and I think 75% of the members on this site have felt victimized, undervalued, and unappreciated at some point in time in the same way you do right now. I'm not trying to belittle the way you feel at all; I just hope that you know that it's none of your fault, and that you earned that spot fairly and should not feel guilty for playing by the rules (that are seemingly always being rewritten). I don't think it's a bad idea to leave the site if that's how you're feeling - not because I don't want you here, but because I think hgrpg unconsciously and unintentionally fosters an unhealthy environment that is not fathomable to the people who run it, due to the fact that they are never victims of it. Good luck, puppy. Do what you want to do and don't wait for the people on this site to validate you. Everyone on here is fantastic, but the games can be misguiding, and I would hate for them to mislead you too.

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Leaving After I die Jun 2, 2015 23:10:09 GMT -5

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Post by Gamemaker Lauren Kinkade on Jun 2, 2015 23:10:09 GMT -5

Puppy, dawg, chin up. Today was a tough day. Tomorrow will be better. I would encourage to try to make decisions after a good night's sleep, but I know that can be hard. For now, I hope you're resting well, and that all has been forgiven. Tomorrow, I look forward to seeing what Lily Hope's got.

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Leaving After I die Jun 3, 2015 15:59:28 GMT -5

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Post by pup on Jun 3, 2015 15:59:28 GMT -5

Thanks guys. Knowing that a lot of you took time to respond to this really made me feel better. Kay, I took your advice. Today has been better than yesterday. I just felt really bad about taking away Marr's spot even though she has one now. Now that I know from what Marr has told me, she forgives me and I am fine with that. I think I was seeing everything in a much darker light than usual yesterday because I was sleep deprived from staying up late the night before A. Trying to volunteer and B. Studying for a huge test. Now that I have gotten more sleep and I thought things over, I am taking some more advice I got. You guys are right. This is just a game and I should just ignore the ~~careers~~people who took the game to seriously and sent me angry pms. I am doing what you guys say and ignore them. I have decided to stay for a bit, but I may be glacial and still not really come on chat much.

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