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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 2, 2015 20:07:10 GMT -5

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Post by Cato on Jun 2, 2015 20:07:10 GMT -5

Orion Hammerfell

An odd sense of purpose fills me now. I'll train, I'll talk to people, but I have this odd sense of purpose. I've volunteered now, but there's three others from home with me. It won't matter when I die. I say when due to my lack of ability to kill. Or desire anyway. Today there'll be time to train and eat. I'm not looking forward to that. Mainly because I know what's coming. What must Katelyn think of me volunteering after everything I told her? What I said to her compared to the reaping would make me appear as a liar. She will want to talk when she finds me. I'm afraid to tell her why. Its because I've lost the will to live. No one needs me anymore. No one depends on me. Maybe my cousin Odysseus, but he has his best friend Derek. I didn't get to know Derek all that well, but he's exactly what my cousin needs. Someone to be there for him. Me? I miss my brother.

I step into an elevator that'll take me down to the center. No one with me except the escort. I'd rather get an early start to the few things I want to learn. Like plants. Maybe even figure out new first aid stuff. I don't plan on killing, but I would like to live for as long as fortune allows. I'm not sure what to think of my fellow district partners. Circe is an interesting one. She also had a family member in the games a long time ago. As does one of my other district partners. Elya. If looks could kill then she'd be it. She's pretty yes, but her resemblance to Dan is most frightening. Dan scared the living crap out of me and Elya gives off that same vibe. I'm afraid to even look at her.

Elevator opens and I step out. I wont lie. It's extremely frightening to be standing here like my brother surely must have. So many things to do. So much to learn. Not much time to do it in either. My first thing I want to do is first aid. Learn more about it. What I know will not be enough in the arena. When I see Katelyn off in the distance presumably waiting for her own mentee, I decide the first thing I want to do is go back into the elevator and wait for everyone else to come down. Perhaps then I can blend in and hope to Ripred that I don't see her. When I turn around to see the elevator going back up, I sigh. Someone else must be coming down. I look around and imagine there's no place to hide here. The banquet hall. My escort told me that's where tributes will eat. Its also where I will hide for a while until more people show up. It's nice and quiet here. Nobody to bother me. Nobody to ask why I volunteered when in all reality I'm not sure I wanted to. Looking around it seems safe, and I sigh to myself. Freedom for a moment.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 3, 2015 6:01:54 GMT -5

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Post by charade on Jun 3, 2015 6:01:54 GMT -5

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Katelyn

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Ever since arriving in the Capitol, one of the people at the forefront of her mind had been Orion Hammerfell. The boy who lied. It was infuriating. Someone that she thought was different, a standout in the career district; someone she had all but bared her heart to, had the gall, had the sheer audacity to volunteer and willingly participate in the games. What had her parting words to him been? Something about hoping she never had to see someone with his integrity in the Capitol? What a crock.

She hadn't had much luck in finding the object of her ire, but she supposed that the career mentors took pre games training pretty seriously. After all, Julian was a monster and Cricket was a freak. Not that the training had secured another victor from district two since Cricket. Maybe they were more in the line with the mentors that had stopped caring.

The elevator dinged and she stared at it absentmindedly as the people filtered out. Then she saw him. And he must have seen her as well because he made a beeline for the opposite side of the banquet hall. Feeling the steam rising in her ears, Katelyn stalked over towards him. What was the saying? Only guilty men run? It looked like there was some merit to that. "Hey!" she barked as she rapidly closed the distance between them.

"All life is precious huh?!" she railed as she backed him up against the wall, prodding his chest with two fingers. "Not a career? Not gonna follow in Mason's footsteps?" Katelyn had never appreciated liars, but it was only after the ordeal of the games that she was unafraid to confront them. "You want to explain what I saw at the reaping?" she fumed with pursed lips and a cold flame dancing behind the blue of her eyes. She should have known better. All careers were the same. They were callous.

At least Mason had been honest about his true nature.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 3, 2015 6:22:37 GMT -5

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Post by Cato on Jun 3, 2015 6:22:37 GMT -5

Orion Hammerfell

As soon as I hear Katelyn's voice, I knew there would be no running. No more hiding. I had been hoping I'd make it longer than I did without her finding me, but I knew sheer determination would win out. She throws back my last words to her from district two back at me. At the moment, I am speechless. I look right at her only to look back down. Is it anger I'm feeling inside of me or guilt? To everyone in Panem, volunteering in place of another would appear as an attempt for glory. How could I make her understand my situation? She must think I'm a liar. The fact she even remembers me is the surprising part. Did I leave that much of an impression? I should leave right now. Avoid all of this incoming wrath. Something keeps me here. Rooted in place. I owe her an explanation whether or not she'll believe me.

"I'm aware of how it must look volunteering. Do you want to know something? The boy I volunteered? His brother is missing. I saved his life. Gave him time to find his brother. Me? I miss Mason." I look up again. I have no idea if she even believes me.

"All year long I've been a shell of my former self. I wake up at night screaming for Mason. Everywhere I go, I see him. He beckons to me Katelyn. I.... don't know what to do! You think I want to kill people? I'm not my brother!"

Calm. I need to get calm. She'll understand in time if I don't drive her away. My words at the reaping come back to me. "Future victor." I only said the words in order to portray confidence and strength. I won't dishonor my brother's memory by being weak. One hand reaches for the locket around the neck and takes it off. A moment later its open. Pictures of my brothers along with myself inside of this locket. Family is all that matters. I left Odysseus behind. I'll always regret that now. Still I miss Mason way too much. Do I have a death wish? Yes, yes I do. I'm looking to die. To be reunited with Mason one more time. I have nothing to live for anymore. I already made the mistake of volunteering. Left Odysseus and everyone else back home. I have nothing else to live for. I could go into the arena and kill. Take the life of someone else. Can I do it? Absolutely. Am I capable? You bet. Will I? That remains to be seen.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 4, 2015 18:21:04 GMT -5

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Post by charade on Jun 4, 2015 18:21:04 GMT -5

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Katelyn

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All of the bluster she had expected to see in him was absent. Though he was a good half a foot taller than her and she was looking up as she glared at him, she felt like she was looking down on him. For a moment, he said nothing, looking lost at sea. Or ashamed. Probably a mixture of both. She had once told him that she hoped he would never be reaped, yet here he stood of his own volition.

Orion claimed that he had volunteered as a service to the Cade boy, to give him time to find a missing sibling. Plausible? Yes. But the last three people Katelyn had fully trusted were dead and in their graves. She had not afforded any level of trust to anyone else since the victory tour the previous year, and Orion had ruined whatever benefit of the doubt she had given him before. All she could see was Mason declaring how he was a monster and how Orion was different; and then Orion leaping at the chance to be in the games.

When he mentioned the dreams, she felt a small kinship with him. It was never Mason for her, but Chaske, Dillon and Margaret appeared to accuse her every now and then. Sometimes, it was the pair from six with Velocity trailing behind. Those dreams were invariably sickening. As were the memories. "I didn't like what your brother stood for. But I respected him." she stated coolly.

"I watched him die only a few feet way from me. Smelled the blood when the career from four laid his head open. Almost got splashed when Prism cut Alexis's hand off a moment later. If you don't want to kill people then why are you here? Angry at the world? Angry at yourself? You got a deathwish Hammerfell?" Perhaps she had him all wrong. Maybe he really wasn't here to kill people. It sounded more like he had volunteered because he wanted to die.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 4, 2015 19:48:03 GMT -5

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Post by Cato on Jun 4, 2015 19:48:03 GMT -5

Orion Hammerfell

Death wish. That's what she's asking of me isn't it? If I have one? That is exactly what I have. On the outside volunteering for someone would mean a shot for glory. Panem sees it that way. Katelyn evidently thinks it as well. Everyone will forever see Orion Hammerfell as the brother of Mason. The volunteer following in his brother's footsteps. "Death wish. Funny you ask that. Yeah I have one Katelyn. You've allowed the memory of my brother and that of careers everywhere to assume I want to kill people. I'm not like that." I sound harsh but it's the truth. I want to die. There's family back home, but they don't need me as much as they think they do. The world will go on whether or not I continue to breathe. Death wish? I sincerely have one.

"I volunteered to die. Is it really that hard to believe? I'm not a career. I have no hope left. Nothing to fight for." Nobody at home will miss me. Nobody understands the pain flowing throughout my body every second of every day. Everywhere I turn his face haunts me. In my dreams. He's there. He's always there, and I want to be with him again. I want to see him because I have nothing else left. Nothing to look forward to. Sure, people are there, but they have someone to help them. I have nobody. Not a single person in all of district two. And deep inside the only way for me to find happiness is to curl up under the ground in a grave knowing that I'm with Mason.

"You don't understand what I've gone through already. Brother of Mason Hammerfell. That's all I will ever be. I'm making a name for myself even if it'll be in shame. I want to die." District Two has more worthy victors than myself anyway. Elya Johnwayne and Circe Lyon. Hell the other careers would be better. Anyone that wants to live would make a better victor than myself. All I need to do is wait for my pod to rise into the arena and hope someone kills me quick. Death wish. Indeed I have one. I said I'd see Mason soon. I intend to keep that promise.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 6, 2015 21:04:54 GMT -5

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Post by charade on Jun 6, 2015 21:04:54 GMT -5

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Katelyn

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So.

He hadn't lied to her. He had just...given up? Unacceptable. If a person like herself could survive the games, someone like Orion had no business giving up on life. "Do you really think Mason would want you to die?" she said sharply. Mason had talked at length about how decent his brother was. How deserving. "Wanting to die is the most selfish thing I've ever heard. You ever stop to think about the people you're leaving behind?"

Parents, cousins, friends, someone. Katelyn refused to think that there was nothing for him back in district two. "You're not the only one in history to have lost someone to the games you know. Twenty-four families do every year. And yes, I'm including the victors because the arena changes you. I'm not the same Katelyn that I was before I was reaped and my parents know it."she said bitterly. It was morbidly laughable that he thought so lowly of himself.

"I've only meet you twice and I've never thought of you as just "Mason Hammerfell's" brother." It was then that Katelyn came to the conclusion just his actions infuriated her so much; it wasn't just because he was doing the wrong thing for the wrong reason, but also for something a little deeper. And with that, she stood on her toes and pecked him on the lips, an action that sent electricity racing through her veins. "I bet I'm not the only one either."

Dead silence reigned between them for a moment and then immediately afterwards, she slapped his across his face as hard as she could, glaring at him with a look so cold it was a wonder he didn't freeze. "You should be ashamed that you're trying to get yourself killed. I know Mason would be. There's always something to fight for." she said as her heartbeat raced. Like it or not, she realized she might probably have a well, crush.

Which was both stupid and idiotic. Not only were they from different districts, he was trying to get him himself killed. To start viewing him in such a way was emotionally unhealthy. But he had been so nice to her on the last leg of the tour and was attractive to boot. He was...different. Right? There was no one quite like him in eleven.

Then again, on the other hand, she had to worry about keeping Kirito alive. If Orion was deadset on moping like this...she didn't really owe him anything did she? "I should go." she muttered in annoyance as she turned to leave. Perhaps one of the career victors she had been avoiding could give her some insight into their twisted world.

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Lionness Released [Rade] Jun 6, 2015 21:40:58 GMT -5

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Post by Cato on Jun 6, 2015 21:40:58 GMT -5

	ORION HAMMERFELL
	I'm speechless. Outright speechless. They say the truth hurts. Evidently judging from Katelyn's reaction that the statement is true. What was I supposed to say? That I want to kill. She's right. Mason wouldn't want this. He's probably kill me himself if he knew I was coming after him this way. I don't know if he'd be happy to see me ever again, but I do know that he'd be angry if I died this way. "You're right. I was selfish. What I said back in Two is still true. I don't want to kill. Dying scares me. How will I get through this? I've made the biggest mistake of my life volunteering." I'd been dead set on running right into the bloodbath getting myself killed in the process. Why is it that Katelyn is robbing me of that resolve? I shouldn't be affected so much by her words, yet I am. She said that she's never thought of me as just Mason's brother. That other's surely think that as well. If that's true then what the hell did I get myself into? I've made a huge mistake and at last, I realize it. Giving up. That's all I ever wanted. To die so I could meet with my brother, Mason. Odysseus has Derek back home. He doesn't need me. Nobody needs me, and listening to her talk only makes me realize that maybe I wasn't making the smartest decision, but it's too late now. Odysseus was hurt when I told him I wouldn't kill anyone. That I wouldn't fight, yet he's honorable enough to respect my decision. To know that I didn't want to make it home. Why is it so hard for her to respect it? Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm grateful Odysseus took it better than she is. Is that a good thing? I had hoped she understood, but I guess I'm wrong with that one too. All I want is to see my brother again. Is that too much to ask for? Odysseus gave me the locket. That might be his unspoken anger at my decision. He may not have said anything, but he was afraid to say the things Katelyn did. "I'm scared. Everything you've said is true. How then do I get through the arena without killing someone? If I have something to fight for, how do I go about doing that without killing? I've seen what the glory of the games have done to countless people including Mason. I don't want to be like other careers." The thought of killing other's terrifies me. I don't want to be like them. I don't want to become a brutal killing machine, and I really don't want the games to change me, but hearing from Katelyn makes me realize it's almost impossible. How do I get through this? Why was I stupid enough to volunteer? I wanted to die, but now I don't. I want to return home to those waiting for me. I want everyone to see me, but I can't stomach the idea of killing another human being. My mind races, and I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I can go through the games and not kill anyone, but in the end wouldn't I have to kill one person? I turn towards Katelyn hoping I'm not too late because right now I need to ask her some questions. I need help, and she's the only person I can turn to.first to make it out without killing someone?
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