the river of silver and gold dries up {kire}
Jul 12, 2015 2:56:47 GMT -5
Post by я𝑜𝓈𝑒 on Jul 12, 2015 2:56:47 GMT -5
M E L A N T H A .
mother don't worry i've killed the last
snake that lived in the creek bed ;
mother don't worry i've killed the last
snake that lived in the creek bed ;
Nothing lasts forever. In time, our hearts give way and cease to drum against our chests. Love burns to hatred or fades to resentment and boredom. The granite bonds of friendship break into thousands of pieces against the force of distance. The river of silver and gold coins dries up to to a depression of desert sand in the ground. Nothing lasts forever.
My empty pockets leave a bitter taste in my mouth and a hollowness in the joy I had awakened with humming through my body. The Black household has never been in need of money, nor have our ravenous, empty stomachs torn at our insides with this intensity before. But my mother's paycheck had been cut short, only for a little while, due to temporary budget cuts. For now, we would have to scrape by with solely the will to survive.
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
I am not one to swipe treasures and trinkets from displays or homes. I am not a selfish thief. But I am desperate, and one should always be wary of desperate people. They are marked by their frail figures and hunger growling within hollow eyes. There is no prediction that can be made when it comes to the lengths they will stray to in order to survive.
I never thought I would be one of them.
But here I am. Desperate. Desperate and prowling like a predator towards crates at the market, chock full of fruit. I will not allow the hunger to drag on any longer. My family will not shrivel to skeletons, not when my heart still thuds like a stallion in my chest. It is a fate I could not bear for them - for us - to suffer. Especially not my siblings, some of them quite a few years my junior, so young and still so innocent. Their eyes are gradually opening to look upon the grim reality of Panem - hunger, desperation, poverty. We inhabit a country of selfish people who snatch away the livelihood of those in the ranks beneath them.
Part of me does not want my younger siblings to see everything for what it is. But the growl in their stomachs tears away at the screen of ignorance over their eyes. The shield has been fading over the years - it is unable to be prevented - despite my efforts to protect them. I see it becoming more transparent, letting in all of the demons that twirl upon this earth as if they own it.
Innocence does not aid survival. Neither does a conscience. Mine screams at me, stop stop STOP, but the rest of my body is compelled to go through with my minuscule heist.
I approach a crate filled to the top with apples of many different colors - green, crimson, sunset pink, golden. Just looking at their waxy skin and imagining the sound of my teeth sinking into the fruit makes my mouth water and my stomach snarl like a feral wolf.
Step.
My feet are silent against the cobblestone ground.
Step.
I can't do this.
Step.
Yes, I can. I must.
Step.
There is no other option.
Step.
My hand closes around the apple. Its lightly speckled skin is as gold as the sun moments before it vanishes below the horizon.
I drop it into my bag cautiously, my fingers trembling with fear, sealing my fate.