| blessed or cursed | Diamond/Ariel
Sept 15, 2015 7:22:36 GMT -5
Post by k!ah on Sept 15, 2015 7:22:36 GMT -5
A r i e l P o r t e r.
Smoke swirled from her lips, climbing invisible steps ascending into the sky. Her crystal clear eyes watched, the smoke reflected in there depths. She let a small stream of air out between her teeth, the small burst of oxygen disturbing the chain of smoke, making her lips pull back in a small smile. It was only when she had meet Diamond had this habit of smoking in dark corners of the school, skipping classes whenever she pleased had started occurring. Her record used to be close to perfect, but these days she would be lucky to even had positive attendance for more than three days of the week.
And in all honset she couldn't care less.
She was fed up with being a walking blood bag for her sister. She was fed up of having no control of her own body what to ever. All her life her mum had been sitting right on her shoulder.
You cant eat that Ariel! You might contaminate your blood!
You cant play with those kids Ariel- they might have a negative opinion and sway you from being my perfect little walking hospital.
You cant smoke that Ariel, you'll get your sister sick.
You cant play with your neighbours Ariel, you might injure yourself making it harder for us to transport you to the hospital for your sister.
You cant leave the house now Ariel, your sister could need you at any moment.
You cant do anything Ariel because your whole being is not your own. But for her. For your sister.
You live for her.
Your whole purpose is to keep her breathing.
She was not her own being, but the second body of another child.
Her smile slips away, her eyes flashing with rage for just a mere moment before filling with guilt. It always happened like this. Always. Her whole life she has been told that her sister is alive because of her... so when she decides to run away for a few moments her world comes crashing down around her, suffocating her because she knew that the moment she turned away could be the moment that her sister needed her the most- and despite how much she resented her, she loved her. Loved her more than anyone else in the world.
She pulls the cigarette away from her face, her guilt ridden eyes examining it carefully, her mind spinning. She watched as it breathed smoke, but her eyes don't follow the smoke, not this time, they just stare, stare into nothing as she tried to breathe, as she tried to push away the guilt because even though she knew she should stop she didn't want too. Not this time. She was done being a puppet. She needed, wanted to make her own decisions, about her actions, about her body. She just hoped that she didn't make the wrong ones.
"sorry sis..." She mumbles under her breath, before bringing the butt to her lips, breathing in the toxic chemicals.