perihelion. {sunrise iv} | for hannah
Oct 20, 2015 20:00:13 GMT -5
Post by я𝑜𝓈𝑒 on Oct 20, 2015 20:00:13 GMT -5
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sleep now under my skin, make sure you'll try
to conjure the wind and ease my mind
somebody call out to your brother
he's calling out your name
to conjure the wind and ease my mind
somebody call out to your brother
he's calling out your name
Oblivion, she saw you rolling down the hills years prior, she saw your blackness hissing along her veins in the youth of her terrors. She trudged her way through her labyrinth and collapsed into the cradle of your arms in the night; you swung her through the swooning onyx wonderlands of her nightmares, you
You pushed her on the old, tarnished swing set with steady hands. Creeeeeak, and she was flying, but you always ripped her from the arms of the sky by the feathers with the chains of gravity, wound so tightly around your hands, bleached pale like snow from your iron grip, for you declared her soul as yours.
It was you who guided her shaking hand along sidewalk, littered with chalk drawings and dreams. It was you who spilled "Hannah O'Leary!" all over the District Square, your words dark red wine on a tablecloth of snow. It was you who clutched her trembling hand once more as you led her stone shell to the stage. Her body was a crumbling legion beneath the glare of the morning sun, for in its light, she felt not warmth, but the coldness of President Snow's serpentine eyes claiming her for the arena. The gentle hands of a sunrise had never been dreaded so - winds had never become the claws of howling wolves, snarling clouds had never become the harbinger of her own hurricane, and the sky had never become a landslide of concrete rubble tumbling onto her shoulders.
("Do not fret for me, Cody Bowers-Fox, for my shoulders of those of Atlas and hollow is my old friend."
But no shoulders can bear the weight of a massacre.)
You found that a single slip of paper is more deadly than a blade you or Cody Bowers-Fox could wield. You built this arena yourself and crucified her upon her own fear, nailed her wrists and ankles into a cross too cold for a blazing girl. It was you who shattered the sky with Thor's hammer, it was you who spun your twisted lies into her ears and forced her to believe that she was just as broken. It was you behind the end of the axe, tearing open her chest and harvesting the blood you so adamantly lusted for.
Planting the seed of rot within her heart and slicing her open from the inside and out was not enough agony for you, no, you must have her crushed in your palm - cold, cold ash. Her screams, you declared, must be carved into your eardrums. Her tears, you declared, must be painted upon your cruel fingertips.
You drowned her in a sea of tar, set her lungs on fire from stolen air. You thrust her into the snarling, lupine winds of a hurricane and left her at the mercy of lightning's swords.
You tried to ignite her with flames, bathed her in gasoline and held a match to her skin. But you never knew you could not set a blazing girl with kerosene blood ablaze, only feed her more fire.
You have laid her upon this ground, this earth made by the dust of old bones and dried blood. You longed to see her broken, bruised body writhe in anguish, but the pain guides her hand along, steadies her rather than devouring her flames with its breath of an arctic sea. Pain is the crackle in her fire, the whispers of an old friend.
Take her into the wicker basket of your arms, Pain, old friend, lay her down in a meadow of blankets at its basin and carry her to the stars, whose open arms wait for her to join them at last, for Hannah O'Leary has always belonged in the sky to blaze with the stars and soar through valleys of constellations.
Extend your arms out like a pair of angel wings, shield her from the ravenous glare of Oblivion and its waiting claws at the bottom of an abyss you must not allow her to tumble into. She has fallen far too many times, speared by arrows cast into the sky by a bow and a hand of none other than Oblivion. She once thought they were shooting stars in her years of blissful, blind ignorance.
Protect her, guardian, and stand with Hope in her final battle with the greatest opponent she will face.
The shadows have grown too vast, have become too much alike to a black sea for this to be anything other than the fourth, but not final, ending. They do not match the sky, set on fire by the kisses of the stars and the embraces of the moon. She once screamed and let loose an ocean from her eyes locked in darkness, but it in her final moments it is a blanket softer than the clouds, draped over her body like a shield.
Hannah O'Leary is not afraid.
Her heart is a clock within her chest, ticking away the moments to her new eternity. Each beat is set in slow motion, like a lazy hand weighed down by exhaustion upon a drum. Her blood pours onto the ground like a crimson avalanche, her breathing is shallower than a creek during a devastating drought, but fear has left her side, has drifted away into nowhere as a ghost.
She does not unravel before the cameras she knows are fixated on her, hungry to capture every last moment of Hannah O'Leary. The entire country of Panem is behind her, a thought that was once chilling but has become a comfort in the looming kingdoms of sunfall that gradually lean closer to her. It is Saxton and Jack who hold her hand, but theirs are not the only ones entwined with hers. Between the fingers of the phoenix, a jungle is laced, each palm a canopy of leaves, each vine a different finger. It is not their ghosts she feels curled across her hands, it is not a mirage of their presence. They are here, for she can hear their voices in the gentle wind, for she can see them in her stars, where her face will soon be woven in blue, for she feels their warm flesh against her own.
(Colgate, Abraxas, Cordelia, Katerina, Crest, Scope, Mother, Father, Clio.)
She assures her guardian angels with a promise: "It's okay. I'm going to be okay." A smile unfurls across her face; it is a promise she cannot shatter with the ceasing of her heart.
"Whether it is light or darkness I meet in this end, I am not afraid; do not fear for me, for light has never burned my eyes, and darkness has never chilled me to the bone."
"In a few short days, I have realized something: none of us are dying. Death does not prowl through this arena - how could it, when no such thing as ever existed? We will each meet our end and new beginning, all twenty-four of us, even the one who bears the burden of the crown. We are all coming home - did you hear me, Colgate? Abraxas, Cordelia, Katerina, Crest, Scope, Mom, Dad, Clio . . . . I'm coming home."
Oblivion, a thunder growls in your throat at Hannah O'Leary's words; they have cracked your scythe in two. Oblivion, you cannot harvest her soul. You were her shadow, you were her every footstep abandoned behind her, but never were your destinies fused together. Never did her bones belong crushed between your fingers, never did her blood belong pouring down in a crimson waterfall from your palm.
Hannah O'Leary does not belong upon your shelf.
"Crowns do not belong on a head like mine," she says, her eyes and mouth to the stars though she speaks to the pair of angels beside her. "Souls do not belong trapped in the cage beneath my skin. And most of all, I do not belong here. I am not meant to build a castle out of the bones of the children I have slain, I am not meant to paint the roofs of my towers red with their blood. This is a kingdom meant for another."
"Perhaps the crown is your calling, Jequirity Eckhart, Saxton Hale. But I know it is not mine."
In . . . hale.
Ex . . . hale.
Ex . . . hale.
These lungs cannot steal enough air to keep her afloat upon the waters of the end. She is not a sinking ship. She is not a falling bird with feeble wings, shot down by the gun of Oblivion. She is drifting back into the sea, her halfway house, each bone light with the grace of peace.
She does not mind the waves lapping at her fingertips.
In . . . hale.
Ex . . . hale.
Ex . . . hale.
Her bed does not rock with the violence of agony; the pain screaming within her bloodied, torn chest does not cast a snarling wave of misery and anguish to rip her apart, thread by thread, seam by seam. It is the anchor holding her to the ground, to her final moments in the world that once spit poison into her eyes from its clenched teeth. But the earth allows her one salvation, one peace to end all tragedies and agony -
In . . .
h . . . ale.
Ex . . .
h . . . ale. -
h . . . ale.
Ex . . .
h . . . ale. -
Oblivion, lay down your broken scythe.
hiding under the covers with no one else to blame
you couldn't help out your own neighbor
you couldn't tell it to his face
you were fucked up by the blame
. . .
table: fox
lyrics: brother by uncle jed
other: consent from arx & grim for
jack & saxton to hold hannah's hand <3
you couldn't help out your own neighbor
you couldn't tell it to his face
you were fucked up by the blame
. . .
table: fox
lyrics: brother by uncle jed
other: consent from arx & grim for
jack & saxton to hold hannah's hand <3