Sterling Edenshaw / District Four / Finished /

Sterling Edenshaw / District Four / Finished / Nov 20, 2015 0:26:24 GMT -5

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Post by Anatra on Nov 20, 2015 0:26:24 GMT -5

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S T E R L I N G E D E N S H A W
18
Male
District Four

H I S T O R Y

I am nothing but a machine of anger. In fact, I don't know a single person who I haven't annoyed yet. I was born to two parents. Obviously, the odds are rarely in my favour, and I lost both of them in a fire. Me and my brother were only ten years old, so naturally we were truly heartbroken. That's how my story began, but how it continued on after that can be considered simple. My brother is my non-identical twin, by the way. It matters that I mention that because it is the only way I can let people understand how much I miss him now that he's been separated from me.

Directly after the death of both of our parents, we were taken to the district's holding area for children who have no home yet. We stayed there for not too long, or at least I did. They took me, but not him. I was given a new home with a new family, but I never fit in. It was never going to happen, I was already too deep into my own previous life to kickstart another. So I rebelled from them as much as possible. Looking back, I know it was the immature thing to do, but you can never stop those moments from occurring, especially from the future. My brother ended up somewhere off on the other side of the district, and since then I have only ever seen him a few times. We aren't as close, but we know that one day it will at least be like old times. Or as close as we can get.

I learned a great deal from my past; I'm a control freak. I'm angry. I'm impatient. I don't fit well with others. I don't understand people. It's not a great resume for a role here in district four. Now, I work as much as an eighteen-year-old wanting to volunteer can get. I say that because that's what I really want - to go into the games. Not to end my life, I'm more realistic than that. I want to win and see the Capitol. I need to live somewhere where people will finally like me. But I'll never tell people that. My reasons are kept inside. Instead I'll put on my tough front like I always have. That's just what I'm like, and I can't change that. And I won't be letting anyone else change it either.

A P P E A R A N C E

Despite being from district four, I don't have the typical blue eyes that everyone seems to associate with us. At least I assume they associate that with us, I would. Water plus eye colour, must be blue. Mine are a jade kind of colour. I've always been complimented on them, but then I think I was blessed with not having so many imperfections as others. I don't want to call myself handsome, but it's what people have said. I have an oak brown hair colour, and i style in so it sweeps a little. Appearance matters, you know. If I'm going to be liked by anyone, I have to look decent, don't I?

I'm the kind of person who wouldn't care too much for how I strut, though. My walk, talk and stance is quite tough. That comes from being in the training centre quite a lot. That place does a lot to your social perspective - you grow yourself into something much tougher than just a simple district-goer. You become a career, in some ways. Because of this, I tend to act tougher than I am. I puff my chest out too much, and maybe I tense in the mirror. It's not something I consciously do. It's all behavioural.

P E R S O N A L I T Y

I've been called cold. I think I'm more calculated than that, though. I am warm to the people that deserve it. My past has hardened me to the world, I think. There's not much that can get past me, because I'm very perceptive of things that happen around me. I notice a great deal about character long before it is revealed to me. I imagine it is something on a psychic level, but then that's just not possible. I'm clearly just good at reading people. Then again, I find people read me too easily, too. I am simple. All there is to me is happy / angry. There's little middle ground, and I tend to be on the latter side more often than not.

When I was younger I was often the older brother of our twin pair. I think that is nature telling the pair of us that I am the tougher one, and maybe he is the smarter one, I'm not sure. But regardless, I am of a protective mentality, if it's not my own life in danger. On that front, I think I would be quite selfish. For instance, if I was in the games, I would most definitely be in a strange conflict between protecting people and protecting myself, more than usual, because I don't play well with others at all. I'm also extremely impatient. I think I have some kind of anger issue, because people really do annoy me sometimes.

But when I find the right people, we click so well. It's like I am a jigsaw and people just either fit or don't, and that's it. There's not an in between zone where people can sit, not with me. I tend to get along with people who are similar to me. Quiet, not necessarily extroverted in many ways, and the kinds of people who will not irritate with cheeky remarks. I like serious conversation, but maybe it's a jolly person that I need to cheer my pessimism up from the ground. I'm not sure, because a lot my personality is still a mystery to me at eighteen.