my heart is gold and my hands are cold {teva and tate
Jan 4, 2016 21:22:03 GMT -5
Post by maverick hale 🌧️ d5 [nyte] on Jan 4, 2016 21:22:03 GMT -5
tate.
My stomach aches. It's not a sharp pain, not that of skin separating every time I breathe or of stitches straining to keep my insides from pouring onto the floor. It's cold fingers working their way into bleeding wounds, whispering in my ear as they tear off bits of skin and it hurts but I am numb. I am frozen.
I've lost weight. There's been too much going on, taking care of Nemo and my brothers has become such a precedence that I guess I've skipped a few too many meals this week. It's hard to keep track of myself in between work and home and sleeping and cleaning. In between keeping myself sane and slowly going mad.
But I don't have time to worry about that, to worry about me because I don't think I ever do. I just wrap a belt around my hips and I pray that no one notices it's a notch tighter than last week. (and how it was a notch tighter the week before that.) There's work to be done after all, revenge to be carved into flesh. There are reasons to keep on living and for now they are enough to keep my heart beating.
Teva told me what happened, after I'd pulled my sorry ass past the threshold and collapsed on the floor. (And I think I might've bled out for a second time had I not known Nemo would kill me for it. (Nemo who was not very amused at the runaway dead guy act to begin with.)) Just the thought of it makes my blood crawl, thick like spiders down my throat and there is nothing to quell the fire that starts somewhere in the pit of my stomach every time I think of what the fucker did to Cal.
He's been there for me since before I can even remember. Cold and resolute, small and made of diamond.
They've been searching for him for days now. The man who hurt Calcifer. I haven't told them why and they didn't ask. Those under my thumb know curiosity will only ever end with you sat in the same chair you once threw bodies so carelessly upon. They know better than to question me.
He's here today. I can hear the muffled screams on some far end of the warehouse, muted as though his whole head was shoved underwater and he is trying to fill his lungs with as much sewer filth as he can before his time is up.
And he must be able to hear his heartbeats ticking away like the hands on a clock.
I hope he's scared. I hope he's trying to think up everything possible outcome of this final chapter and I hope he knows that it'll be about a thousand times worse than even the most disgusting and depraved thing he dares to imagine.
No one fucking gets away with this. No one hurts my family and gets to keep on breathing.
(And Calcifer has always been my brother.)
"Teva?" I call out to a busy warehouse and when I smile it is cold and laced with malice. It's not me. "I have a surprise."