clingy things } perry&abe
Jan 30, 2016 3:53:53 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2016 3:53:53 GMT -5
"You're in charge."
Afternoon citrus kissed his skin through the kitchen window, orange hue striking like a roaring inferno with his mother's harsh eye contact. Sharp words and a sharper tongue coming through pursed lips, lying was synonyms with politics, and while she spoke he nodded simply as his eyes crinkled, "so try to act like it, Abraham." And he huffed, six p.m. disappointment sinking in as she grabs his shoulder and his jaw clenches before she leaves.
("They need you.")
It was etched into his forehead; every morning, every afternoon, every inhale and exhale they didn't really. Besides, all he needed was a name apparently. And it was something he could never grow into, his father's name, he could hardly even grow into his own at this point and the more he tried the more he grew into Zodiia, rather. His mother's voice still sharp in his mind as he walked up the stairs - "talk to him." As if he was a child, he spent eighteen years growing into fourty year old silhouettes; at eighteen, it's hard enough to raise yourself nevertheless eleven others.
Fists now tucked in his pockets, the wooden stairs creaked under his black socks - talk to him, and for once Abraham could only respond with "what about?" It's in his falsetto, a head voice built on charisma and back bone. He shook his hands before opening the door, the cold knob against the warmth of his hand. What about, Peregrine's room didn't smell like anything.
Abraham could never grow into his father's name, he knew this, sometimes it felt like he was the only one, but growing into Abraham was hard enough. And there's a groan in his throat with Perry that comes with having to rub the rust off of years of small talk, nothing more than small talk. And it felt like that between him and most of them, that by giving up childhood for a title, he gave up his siblings as well. How did his mother ever expect to do this alone, citrus dancing across the dim room through a single window.
He can barely do this alone.
Maybe it's not that bad. Being alone.
Peregrine's room wasn't like his - in the last few years, there hasn't been much in common really. It wasn't overly white, with holiday sweaters in the corner and extinguished candles littering shelves, and it too didn't have Perry Zodiia in it. A quick double take and a "Perry?" with furred eyebrows, Abraham considered for a slight sliver of time that he could just call it quits there, easily enough. But politics was never easy and the citrus six p.m. sky kissed the corner of his eye, as children it was always his hiding spot.
It was one of the few things Abraham remembered about him.
The latch to the window was already open, propped open from the outside and Abraham crawled head first through to the textured roof, scratching against his clean socks, "Perry?" his hand still pressed against the window shutter.
It smells like smoke outside.[ i do not want power. ]