fool's gold {ark and krys} blitz
Feb 6, 2016 1:26:16 GMT -5
Post by maverick hale 🌧️ d5 [nyte] on Feb 6, 2016 1:26:16 GMT -5
k r y s t a l ✶ a m b r o s e
Living sucks. More specifically- living on your own. It's not as though my family were particularly well off, we weren't rolling in bills as green as the trees they were torn from (not like somebody else I just so happen to know.) But who gave a shit if we had to skip a couple of meals, if I'd been working since I was fourteen and even then depended on Taylor to buy me anything that was less than necessity. At least I wasn't so fucking alone. At least when I woke up in the middle of the night with sweat staining my skin and the world very much feeling like it was going to end I had a sister to call out for. One who so loved to braid my hair and sing me songs until the world turned to nothing but mush around me.
I keep dreaming about him. About the good times. I keep dreaming about how his head felt laid in my lap, and the way his blonde hair was always so perfectly sunkissed. And then he turns to bones beneath my fingers, hissing as skin falls away in bloody chunks and he lunges for me. Angry that I took his life away. Angry that I listened to him when he begged for my help in ending it all.
When I wake up, there is no one to call for. I am left to press my face into a pillow and scream because there is no one around to hear. Because no one will care if I stain the pillow case with an ocean's worth of salt water because in the morning it will dry. There is no one to ask, to care if I am withering from the inside out.
No one knows that a bottle of whiskey has sat on my counter for five days now- unopened and whispering stories of sweet numbness into my ears. And maybe one day I'll throw two years of sobriety out the window but I don't think tonight's that night.
Instead I storm into the house of one Ark Williams, fists clenched at my side and purposefully ignoring the lighthearted atmosphere of yet another fucking party. (And oh I can smell it, beautiful bitter gold.) "Hey, Asshole! Hope I'm interrupting."