Trial By Fire [Cecilia's DP & TSA]
Mar 6, 2016 21:37:20 GMT -5
Post by * on Mar 6, 2016 21:37:20 GMT -5
Iain Miristioma. You are everything to me. I don't know why we were forced to meet this way... I don't want either of us to die. Can we just live forever?
I remember bits and peices of our conversation from last night. Certain little tidbits that I don't ever want to forget. The moment that my knives become lit with flickering flames and heat that radiates off of them, I have flashbacks of the girl that I killed. The sickening smell of burning flesh. The visuals of Iain Miristioma puking up his lunch. The way Hettie screamed out my name in glorified howls. I don't know if I'm ready to accept that kind of guilt again, but if it helps me protect Iain from dying with a damned soul, then I will. If all we need is to kill one person today then I hope it'll be me. I hope that I will be the one to keep the others from harming yet another soul. Hettie took three mutts down but those were merely lost souls and they didn't matter at all. No, they were heartless, skinless bonebags that deserved to die a horrendous death even though they felt not a single scrape against their bones. It's us that will bleed and feel the pain. It's the tributes that will suffer and those that are left alive will suffer from killing. Except Insanis. Hettie is too lost."I wish we could live forever. I wish we could..."
And my blade leaves my fingers with tar eating flames surrounding everthing but the hilt. It swirls into the direction of the first boy I noticed; his name lost to me. I seem to have taken no notice of faces while I was in the capitol. I was too focused on the boy standing nearest to me. Something about him has me drawn. He was someone that needed a friend. A boy that was lost in a sea of others, itching to be noticed and to feel wanted. Everyone deserves to feel that way in life. All living and breathing things need to have that coat of love to feel like they are making a difference, and with Iain, I found my charge. I found something in him that I couldn't find anywhere else. I wasn't a nursemaid around him nor a mother figure. I was simply a friend. Something I didn't have...
And he didn't either.We will. one day we will live forever. It might not be today but I will wait on you. Will you wait on me?
At that moment, when all things seemed to be falling into place, a grave and ill feeling swept over me. A frighteningly cold burst of dread swam over my skin despite the heat that was burning my hands. For the ones that stood in front of me, turned on me. Not on Iain, nor Hettie and definately not Insanis, but they turned on a small girl that they felt no longer needed to live. My mouth drops open as the first round of an assault came.
The blade opens up the stitches that Iain worked so diligently on last night to keep me from dying of blood loss. Again, the pool of crimson began to soak through my shirt. Warmth spreading fast down my stomach and onto the side of my hip. It painted my body a fresh, warm vermilion. I dare not scream because that side is still somewhat numb to me. Instead, I try to channel my energy into getting ready for the next attack because just as soon as I turned my head, I saw it coming.
The fire had been returned to me. The long spear like weapon coming at me with a warrior's strength. When I closed my eyes, to embrace the karma that was going to bite me, I gave my spirit away."I'll wait an entire lifetime plus more for you."
Wailing out, I don't care who hears. The blade that skewers my leg reminds me that I am nothing but human; a slab of meat. Once again, a mere whisper echoes into my mind from Hettie's lips. I am a meat shield... I am nothing to them but someone to take this pain away from them. That's the only reason they are this strong. It is because they chose two small, young tributes to take the pain away from them so that they may reign supreme.
I wish I had never joined them... The thought crosses my mind as the fire crosses my body. It feeds off the fabic of the clothes. It devours my breath. I choke on a scream of agony the more the wind whips around my body causing the flames to increase in size and capacity - to keep biting me; to keep killing me.
"IAIN... IAIN.... HELP. IAIN..." My scream is long and loud. The peircing cry is barely audible as the fire eats away at my shoulders; sizzling. And the audio of my own pain deafens me. I crumple to the ground, and idle words are swirling around but makes no sense to me. Someone just take this pain away, please? I try feverishly to wipe the flames away from my skin, but it doesn't help. It only burns my palms even worse.
Nothing will help me now.
And numbness takes over. My body is finally dying away as the flames have no more source to feed from. Just like Delta, I start to succumb to the darkness as my eyes burn from the smoke and the smell lingers in my nostrils. I lay curled up as the last of the flames have become mere match sticks.
Whimpering, I call out for the only person I want near me. "Ia...in." My whisper then ceases but my vision never settles until I can see him just one more time.You are my strength, Iain.