Happiness to Be {or Dwindle} // {Marr//Ky & Vy}

Kyanite Ruze Mia's fifth word was utter this morning. "Vee-vee" is her word for Vy. Of course, I think that Vy was out of earshot when I was trying to get her to say it. I wasted no time in spreading the joy though as soon as I ran off to tell her. No doubt though, she's got Brooklyns down pat as "Bok" but that's relatively close enough. She loves her big sister and follows her everywhere. It's sad to see them seperated every morning when I drop her off at sitter but I've got to do what I have to since Matthew is rarely ever around and I"m the one taking care of Mia. I guess he's doing alright for himself, but I rarely see any help from him as of late. Too busy taking care of himself, I'm sure and the last time I saw him was on Mia's first birthday three months ago. Today is no different. I wake up to Vy at my side, little Mia laying in her crib crying and wanting some attention while Brooklyn tries to console her through the bars of the bed. The sight to walk into never fails to amuse me into just standing and staring at the adorableness that has become them. So, when I walked into work this morning, nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Vy and I walked to the center, we took our seperate ways, and I delved into the supply closet in the clinic awaiting my first patient of the day. The first order of business was to start going through all of the random drug tests that we had conducted over the last week. Surprisingly, I only found two individuals that had something very wrong with their tests; Brian Tugger and Vanity Pryce. The results were uncanny how they were both showing signs of something in their systems other than normal, but for very different reasons. Brian's results are likely going to have him iced from this place, but Vy... "Gregory. Can you see that Ms. Pryce comes to my office as soon as possible, please. Tell her that everything is fine, but it's of the utmost importance." He stands from his desk and gathers a paper or two before heading out of the clinic and I'm left staring at the paper work. "Vy... how could you do this to me?" I wonder in a whispering tone, utterly in disbelif about what I was going to have to reveal about the findings. Will this change things between me and her? How can I face her in just a few short minutes thinking the absolute worst of her right now. With a calming breath, I have to remember that I need to stay professional. When she gets in here, I need to find out what she knows. See if she can tell me something that she's been hiding from me. "Why would you hide this from me?" Tingling sensations prickle my fingers, nerves at an all time high until I hear the footsteps of someone coming near to the door and then she appears in the doorway, standing there. Her beautiful features strike me down hard. That loving woman standing there. She knows something, obviously because of that smirk. I see that unsure look in her eyes, studying me. She's first to chime in though, trying to spill the beans, but just the wrong kind. "Everything okay?... If you found something in my piss, it has to be the painkillers for my knee. An those are prescribed." Strike one, Vy... I give her a forced grin of professionalism and stand to greet her back. "Morning, Ms. Pryce. Come on in." I wait until she hobbles into the office and point to the chair in front of my wheeled one. "Please, take a seat. I need to discuss something with you, if you don't mind." My heart is racing so wildly right now and I study her gait. How she walks and as she comes in to take a seat. Without her watching, I eye a certain part of her body that is most discerning to me but hold the glance for no more than a moment. I decide to dive right into the questioning to see if she truely knows what's about to happen with this situation or not. "In the last month, have you use any illegal substances at all or anything, Ms. Pryce?" I wait for her answer and then go on. I"m trying to calm my mind before I expell the real reason for me calling her in here. "I understand the use for painkillers but that's already been dismissed." "Any alcohol use?" I wait again and proceed with another after her answer. "Do you smoke?" Even though I should know these answers, I honestly don't know what she does when she's not around me. Things are going to have to change, should she tell me of anything that can harm her body, and change quickly if i have anything to say about it. It should, too. "Ms. Pryce, the results of your screening have... not been completely without concern. Is there anything that I should know before reviewing the findings with the head of the clinic for a retest?" I sit in the wheeled chair and cross my leg over one another and rest my arm on my clipboard on my leg. I'm completely baffled right now and thoughts of her being with someone else has entered my mind, though my facial expression holds absolutely no change or show from concern.

Kyanite Ruze Vy takes the chair in front of me without question but there is loads of hesitancy in her gait. Something is making her nervous, and I know why. This drug test that we had given has shown up something that wasn't meant for me to know. She.. didn't want me to know. Though, I have to ask those standard questions like normal for anyone I treat so I know if there are any underlying causes for certain ailments that might arise. Some how, I treat Vy differently than any other normal patient of mine. I treat her as if I'm testing her loyalty to me even though I should know I can trust her. My past is revealing itself in my insecurities at the present time. "Not unless you drugged me without my knowlege?" She jokes at this very serious moment and my heart plummets and my posture becomes straighter and more professional. "Sorry, you're being serious." I nodd my head in her general direction. I wait for her answers and to hear what she has to say. Those words coming out to say that she gave smoking up for the girls, and fortunately me as well, and we had kept drinking to a minimum. The bottle of wine was enough to get each of us a little tipsy but sleep came very quick for us shortly after. We've been holding on to our kids more and relying on alcohol a lot less except in special occasions. Vy gets a little uneasy in her chair, her facial expressions telling me all I need to know. I can trust her with her answers. Though, she continues to think this is all a joke. "Okay Ky, real funny. Can i go back to work now?" My motherly instincts kick in as well as my worry for her already. Last thing I need is something happening to her or for her to get hurt or kicked and potentially ruin what's about to pass through my lips. I feel like I"m the one hesitating because a cold rush of air seems to brush up against the nape of my neck and send cold chills down my back and I visibly shutter with goosebumps appearing on my arms. "I'm being very serious, Vy. This is no joke. I just don't know how to really tell you this." I start off becuase I feel like I'm rambling, which I always do when the situation is unsettling. I stand up and go to make sure the door is closed all the way and then turn to her. I take a step closer to Vy so she has to look up at me, but not by much and I lay the clipboard down on the exam table. "I may become a little unprofessional right now, but it's just me and you, but I think this is between me and you now. Vy... have you been seeing someone lately in the last month or two? Other than me?" My heart studders as I look into her eyes, waiting for her to say something but I finally just let the cat out of the bag. "Vy, it's about the test you took. You know I love you, right? I will always love you but why didn't you tell me you were pregnant? You could have told me... I would loved to have been the first one to find out..." I feel a bit of hurt pinching in my nerves particuarly where my heart is at and my brows furrow in dislike.

Kyanite Ruze "...have you been seeing someone lately in the last month or two? Other than me?" I come out with that question and it's almost an immediate reaction from Vy herself. She reaches for my hands, taking them within hers. It's so odd to think that with Matthew, his hands practically eveloped mine but they were rough an calloused. Vy's hands aren't nearly as large to mine own, but they still overlap the tips though they are ten times softer and her hands have never done me wrong. My heart suddenly stops pinching the moment she touches them. It's like a sigh of relief to have her this enthusiastic about not being with anyone else. My trust is almost immediate with her as it should be and at this moment I would believe it if she had said I got her pregnant, but she doesn't. And the bombshell comes out. Her hands drop away from mine. She looks at me flabbergasted with nothing but fear soaking through her pores and the color draining from her face. HOwever, her usual hilarious tone comes out claiming that I'm still joking when I most certainly am not. How can she continue to not make what words came out true in her own mind? "No you're not." I spill out when she mentions going to go train her students again and she's immediately up on her feet. All I can think is that she really didn't want me to know. That she's still hiding something I didn't know. "This isn't a joke. I swear to you Vy... why would I joke about something like this to you?" She keeps standing there, unable to move while her gait shifts slightly to the right and then to the left. It's such a small sway that if I wasn't watching for it, I would never have noticed. My hand reaches out to her, to touch her arm and guide her back to the seat, but her words crash through the uneasy atmostphere. "I haven't been with anyone aside from you since your Brother..." "What?" I remember them having a thing a while back but that was before Jeran shipped off in the peacekeepers regiment. That means that Jeran, a peacekeeper, my very own brother - "...Vy. Vy! Dr. Morano. Come quick!" The news of what I had to give her has obviously taken its toll on her. The news that could be so upsetting to someone like her, when she clearly wasn't ready. Something else flashes through my mind. Maybe she didn't know and my previous words about being the first to find out was true. Maybe I am the first one to find out, unfortunately. Then again, how could she not know? Things had to have been different lately for her. Something must have been off. I should have noticed something before now, but I never thought... our relationship challenges that specific surprise from happening. My hands rush to anchor her from falling any further, but I honestly wasn't prepared all that much. I hold her and lower her as slowly as possible to the ground. My voice calls for Vy, "Vy? Vy... you gotta wake up." I beg her. Her eyes respond immediatly, only taking a few seconds out of her consciousness to give me a real fright. Is this what she dealt with when I was pregnant? When my life was suddenly thrown into turmoil without notice? "Ms. Ruze, what's going on? Oh..." My mentor greets me at my side, now tending to the wonderful person at my knees, while she's tending to her stats, I still try to coax her out of her lucid stance. "Vy. You're okay. Just breath. Can you tell me what my name is?" I try with a simple question as she comes out of the dizzy spell. "What happene in here, Kyanite?" Dr. Morano asks me and my first reaction is to shrug my shoulders. "She just fell. I had to go over some findings with her latest test and it didn't..." "Her bp's low, but slowly coming back up. Ms. Pryce, have you eaten today? Taken any medications? Is there any possibility that you could be pregnant?" Now, it was my turn to turn to a chill with those uttered words. With one test, our relationship will soon be changing.

Kyanite Ruze She continues to lay at my knees. My hand caressing the top of hers in a lover status, but subtle enough that it is also patient friendly and within regulation. I study her face and her hazy eyes. That confusion that surrounds her ever present features and her thoughts. She answers my question with my name... my full name. Instead of Ky, she seems to be more on a formal matter now. She don't ever really call me Kyanite, not unless something might be wrong. I crack a smile at how comical she can be at times. "I"m okay." She states without any confidence in her voice. I think she was trying, but failed. I shake my head at her. "Okay. Sure." I taunt her back, teasingly but masked. Dr. Moran then begins her tasks, removing the blood pressure cuff and then asking a routine set of questions. Strength recovers within Vy's body enough to sit her up and we both allow it, watching very intently for any change of color or sway of her body. I'm the one watching her like a hawk though. The question throws her off. "No...I don't know." I look to Dr. Moran an quickly nod to her to notify her of her condition. She notes it subtly but then continues to appease Vy. "I know, Ms. Pryce. I know, but you don't normally pass out on a normal day, so lets see if it's just the stress of training unruly youth all day or not, shall we? Lets get you up and on the table instead of the floor, please? Ms. Ruze would you mind helping me secure your patient so she doesn't end up in the floor again?" She takes a moment to see if Vy would be accepting to that notion. "Sure. Come on Vy. Up you go..." My voice is soft, yet calm around her. Last thing I want to do is to further her discontent with the news of her expecting another little one. To have three children in the house under the age of four... and the father of her little one to be. "Maybe my pee was mixed up with another female trainer? This can't be happening. Please, can we just check again?" "Was her drug test inconclusive about a substance or something, Ms. Ruze?" Dr. Moran asks, pulling on Vy's arm to stabilize her while I took the other side and very slowly we get her to her feet and over to the chair to sit. I bend down in front of her, rubbing her right leg. "We'll do another test just to make sure that the results are correct, alright, Vy?" I look to the woman beside me and nod. "Can you take it in a few minutes or we can reschedule? Whatever you want to do, okay?" "Vy, would you rather take another test right now, or wait till we get home?" I question her, realizing that Dr. Moran has aquired our relationship status now. I shove the thought away and just look at her with honest eyes, concern and questions gleaming. "We can do one at home. Let's go home? Dr. Moran, would you mind if I left early to take Vy home to rest? To make sure she gets home alright? Would rather not have her working any more today with those rambuctious kids. "Alright, but Vy... take it easy, okay?" Dr. Moran releases her to my care and I place a hand out for Vy to take.

Kyanite Ruze Vy isn't well at all. I'm not sure if its the news that was given to her or her own mental stability about the whole thing. I know that she really don't want this, but if it's true, then it's already happened and she's going to have to come to terms with what the future holds for her and me; us. We are two peas in a pod with our lives and the lives of our littles. We can only hope that this will end well for us and she won't have to endure anything painful like what I did when I was pregnant with Mira. There is no Matthew in her life and if Jeran really is the father as she stated, then I know everything will be alright. Her father isn't around, so there is no judgement there nor is there a Jins in her life. It's just me and the girls. "I have to say goodbye to the boys, give them instructions for the rest of the day. Last thing I nee is for them to get worried." She dismisses herself from my side and for a moment, I feel afraid that she's going to give me the slip and go back to training, so I watch from the door to the gym to make sure that she comes back after she's given them direction. I can't hear what's being said but I can see the looks on their faces and I can tell they are taunting her. Mentally,I know that's the wrong thing to do, but they seem to buckle down and give her the respect she deserves. A few more words are uttered and then she returns to my side and I feel complete once more. "Whip them into shape, did you?" I question her, grinning slyly as we start our journey home, and it's unusually quiet as we do. Our hands link together, my thumb rubbing her hand as a comforting measure since I'm not sure that she'd be willing to accept anything more. This really is a scary thing to deal with and I remember how I felt when she came up with the conclusion of me being withchild. I remember that at the house, the tests that I have are a little over a year old, not needing them for quite some time. A few words are uttered to Vy about a new test and sure enough, the store is suddenly upon us and she jerks my hand back, pausing very quickly. "Yes, you can. We have to, Vy. Do you think I want to risk your health and the health of the baby..." I use the correct terminology in front of her, reminding her that it isn't just a possiblity. We are only redoing the test to confirm for her and for her own mind to wrap around the situation. "I'll go in and buy them, but you have to stay here and wait on me. Everything will be fine, Vy. I love you. I will be with you every step of the way after tonight. Until we get home, I'm going to have to be two steps ahead of you." I flash her a quaint little smile before disappearing into the store and returning with a bag and then take her hand in mine and lead her back to the home in which we live. "I'll get the girls after we have taken the tests and If you want to chat. Okay?" I halfway whisper once we reach the threashold of the house and walk inside. First things first as my shoes get tossed off and into the corner, releasing the pain in my feet from standing all day. "I'll meet you by the bathroom." I disappear with the tests in hand and turn up at the bathroom door. "Ready when you are?"