four walls beyond; echo
Oct 5, 2016 0:18:34 GMT -5
Post by heather - d2 [mylee] on Oct 5, 2016 0:18:34 GMT -5
{ zackariah }
If we have never seen the edges of the world, how do we know whether or not they linger in our dimension of existence?
My universe exists just past the brink of my own front door; past the wooden door frame and the broken window on the second floor and the doorknob that does not turn all the way to the left. I have seen what I can reach on foot and nothing more— I do not know if there is a desire to do so caught in the back of my throat refusing to be swallowed by the raw force of truth.
I suppose there is an inlaid fear that if I look beyond what has already crossed my vision, I will find that what exists is no longer beautiful. For up until this point the world has been nothing more than skies lit with the colors of dawn, blue non skies accompanied by an orchestra conducted by the fall breeze, and a night sky so purely dark that any fears of what could not be seen were swallowed by the unknown itself.
The world I have seen is glorious, and who would I be to take beauty away from the eye of the beholder?
And though this world has led me to believe that purity is all that is to be mimicked in the first snows of winter or the first call of a bird in the early hours of morning, temptation has laid claim to my doorstep. He has made himself a home from the few doubts that still linger in my bones and sends shivers down my spine.
He asks me if I am sure I do not want to venture just one step more.
I do not answer, and that is the only confirmation he needs to invite himself in to stay for at least a while. As he settles in my bed and pulls the covers to his chin, he promises that he will not stay very long; that this only lasts as long as I allow it to do so. For some reason, I do not believe him, but I do not tell him so because he assures me that doubt will only extend the time he needs to stay.
The first few nights did not stray enough from normality to raise much concern other than the distrust that had etched itself into my palms when I had opened the door for him. Mostly, things seemed simple enough. We ate meals together, told each other stories of days when things were known, and on occasion, discussed fear and what it was we wanted most in the world.
When I had asked him, he did not say power or wealth or fame for the ages. No, he said that all he truly wanted was to appease the minds of those who were humble enough to deserve all that they yearned for.
The next day, he told me how honored he was to be staying in the presence of such a great man.
Oh, how I felt like king of the world I had seen.
I asked him of his world— of what he had seen in his time spent as a hopeless wanderer. He gave me an answer just detailed enough to peak my intrigue and just vague enough to leave me pondering.
“It’s quite ordinary actually. However, circumstance and human nature sweeps in at times to change the daily routine and when it does, my boy, it is inspiring.”
He watched me salivate like a stray seeing their first cut of sirloin. He dangled it in front of my nose and watched the primal instincts of a boy turned animal shiver out of my skin and present myself as something less than human.
I desired something more, and I did not even have to ask him to lead me to the fountain of life.
His voice was smooth, like a clean shaven jawline or a crisp, ironed shirt, “I can show you, if you would like.”
I knew I wanted nothing more.
He did not wait for a reply, simply flung open the front door and did not cast a glance over his shoulder to see if I followed— he knew he could have wrapped a simple thread around my finger and I would have trailed after him like we were joined by a chain made of iron.
I was terrified.
But his hand on my shoulder stilled my restless nature as he whispered in my ear, “You cannot fear that which you do not truly know.”
A question forming on my tongue I turned to look for him and found nothing in his previously occupied space. The devil he may have been, but a miracle he was, for I found myself in uncharted territory without a compass. I was simply a flightless bird here; a forlorn traveler with no home to speak of in tall tales unless questioned directly on the matter.
The streets here were made of stone, bordered by buildings whose horizon would not be unfamiliar if viewed from a distance but now seemed completely unknown to my eyes. I stumbled forward, eyes bound skyward as blue was shrouded grey by factory smoke and regret.
Pausing at the corner of two streets connected loosely by street signs whose names had no significance to me I turn my attention to the girl sharing the same general vicinity, “Have you ever been lost but also not sure that you were looking to find your way home?”
What a world not perfect yet so damn incredible.