chapter - [frankel]
Dec 15, 2016 17:41:05 GMT -5
Post by kousei ♚ on Dec 15, 2016 17:41:05 GMT -5
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K A E
It was fleeting, spontaneous and sporadic; but damned by cynicism, I'd trade this bottle if it meant I could taste hope on the tip of my tongue one more time.
That's the thing about moments that are spontaneous - the moment is never quite savored. Cynicism my darkness, hope my candle; it was snuffed out before I could even savor an inch of wax. Poisoned gifts - "fuck." And the curse is sharp, (nothing's slurred yet.) I was under the impression that hope would stay burning for as long as that candle would burn in the unrelenting darkness, that he would stay until we could no longer withstand the test of time and everything was snuffed by the elements. My eyes could only widen and my heart could only falter when he shortened hope's lifespan by snuffing out the flame himself.
I should've known that I was wasting my time, staring outside the window in the months that followed with my heart high on anticipation. I never saw him stroll down that road with regrets and second thoughts deep in his chest; I never saw the phoenix rise from the flames he snuffed out in that coastal district.
"Fucking prick!" and nothing's slurring or blurring. It was fleeting and spontaneous; nothing could be planned by this nimble mind and no eventualities could be anticipated by predictions and probabilities. Damned by the statistics, I fell into the trap of assuming the rotting apple didn't fall from the rotting tree. Succumb to temptation - I never dared to acknowledge the consequences waiting at the core.
I am the problem.
Juvenile delinquent; I suppose we all fell from one rotten tree or another.
But dig and cut through into the core and there is just Kael Summit, drinking while remaining on the edge of sobriety. And to think I was supposed to be the logical one. I suppose that's the thing about something as spontaneous as hope; it drives everything mad that's dared to feel the heat of the candle. I swear down to the bottom of this District Seven soil, I'll never wear my heart on my sleeve again.
So I take two more tiny sips, one to seal the promise and one for good measure.
I keep my back pressed against the tall hanging trees, branched arms shielding one half the moonlight and darkness engulfing the rest of it. I deserve to remain in this darkness; it's just logical, it just makes sense. Father, family, figure - none of it makes sense. The pages titled by the name Kael Summit were never meant to be scrawled with words telling tales of a son raised by his father, or a mother watching her son grow up, have kids of his own, learn how to swing an axe. It never held a chance of being that way, just like that candle of hope never held a chance of burning for longer than the sporadic moment it saw life. Cynicism was always meant to remain as my personal darkness; this is what I am and no hopeful candlelight can pierce that.
A breeze kicks in and I shiver for a moment and pull my coat tighter to icy skin, droplets run down my throat for a distraction from the cold. I hate the thought of poison running through my veins and the golden brown smokescreen of liquor clouding my judgement; but when my sole inheritance is the remains of broken battlefield shattered by a final lover's spat, logic becomes lost behind a heart no longer worn on my sleeve.
But perhaps there's a reason why I've only taken three small mouthfuls from the edge of this bottle that have barely even touched my cheeks. Perhaps there's a sense of the remains of logic in these poisoned veins after all.
Perhaps Keyser Summit was using logic when he decided to define me as another passing in his days as a traveler, perhaps I would've done the same. In truth, I would rather leave those issues in my peripherals and as a simple 'perhaps' or a 'maybe'. I'll never be told 'why' but I can only speculate. Perhaps he could see the hatred in the black heart I wore on my sleeve for that split second and logic drove him away.
"Fuck him."
There's a reason my heart is blackened by hatred.
"Fuck this!" I spit before I lurch to my feet, ignoring the sounds of the crunching of leaves underneath my pair of boots and twigs snapping underneath a second pair of boots behind me that I do not acknowledge; another passerby in my travels. I'm not even drunk enough to not care, I'm not drunk at all, I'm simply too numb to even bother caring. Defined by the sporadic sense hope he killed in an instant, I refuse to call Keyser Summit 'my dad' because I'm too bitter to even turn around to possible signs of danger.
I simply take one more sip and attempt to conceal the remains of the hope he killed with my hatred. Nothing will ever rise from those ashes anyway.
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