} one less plate at the dinner table ; BLITZ
Jan 1, 2017 14:40:10 GMT -5
Post by arctic on Jan 1, 2017 14:40:10 GMT -5
hayk shim
It's been two years since I've seen a plate get set across the table from me.
It's been two years since I've heard the words [ "Hayk, how was your day?" ] because they never ask it anymore.
It's been two years since I've known that my family was happy.
It's been two years that I've known that there's no such thing as god.
After Sol died, I think it's been inevitable to pick up o the idea that we've fallen into our own modern day, personalized "Dark Age" - because this kingdom has never been the same without him. The direct family of tributes normally fall into that dark age (or, at least, the families that actually cared; that's a horrendous thought). But you never understand it that well until it happens to you. You don't know how losing your sibling on national television feels (or, i hope you don't). You feel sad; but they feel like the only thing that they'd appreciate in life was death itself. Why live a life when the people you wanted in it left?
Sol Shim was the only person in my life that made me feel like I was worth something. In this family, they always paid attention to the older kids. I often was left to my own comfort to take care of myself and I don't mind that. I get to learn more about myself ; explore my thoughts and wishes.
Today, our family decided to eat dinner together. We normally just ate in our own abodes because we couldn't stand the idea of getting more connected to people that we might lose just as fast as we had lost Sol.
Once we've all sat down at the dinner table, they started to dig in.
However, I just sat there and prayed.
There may be no god - but there is always hope.
It's been two years since I've heard the words [ "Hayk, how was your day?" ] because they never ask it anymore.
It's been two years since I've known that my family was happy.
It's been two years that I've known that there's no such thing as god.
After Sol died, I think it's been inevitable to pick up o the idea that we've fallen into our own modern day, personalized "Dark Age" - because this kingdom has never been the same without him. The direct family of tributes normally fall into that dark age (or, at least, the families that actually cared; that's a horrendous thought). But you never understand it that well until it happens to you. You don't know how losing your sibling on national television feels (or, i hope you don't). You feel sad; but they feel like the only thing that they'd appreciate in life was death itself. Why live a life when the people you wanted in it left?
Sol Shim was the only person in my life that made me feel like I was worth something. In this family, they always paid attention to the older kids. I often was left to my own comfort to take care of myself and I don't mind that. I get to learn more about myself ; explore my thoughts and wishes.
Today, our family decided to eat dinner together. We normally just ate in our own abodes because we couldn't stand the idea of getting more connected to people that we might lose just as fast as we had lost Sol.
Once we've all sat down at the dinner table, they started to dig in.
However, I just sat there and prayed.
There may be no god - but there is always hope.