jinx casselman {ten} wip

Once upon a time...

No, that's no good. That's not how I want this story to start. "Once upon a times" are perfect little stories, with perfect characters and perfect lovers, perfect tales that always, always end with "happily ever after". They can't end any other way. That's not how the universe works. It doesn't let tales that are meant to be perfect end with an imperfect conclusion.

I am imperfect. I am flawed, I am finite, I am real. My story can not begin with once upon a time, because it does not end with happily ever after. Real stories don't have perfect characters, and they don't have perfect endings. Fairy tales are meant to stay in a book written by human hands, and off the pages of human lives. They are separate. They were never meant to exist together.

My name is Jinx Casselman

Names do not define me. They are a label, something placed on me to keep me apart from everyone else. Human minds keep things apart logically by labels, and intuitively by who they actually are. That is, of course, if you care to observe them or get to know them. I prefer to observe more than spend time in a relationship. It seems much more efficient to me.

I can't be too sure how people perceive me from the outside, mostly because that's not how I perceive myself. The only way I really know who I am is through introspective observations, not outer deductions. Unfortunately, the latter is how most people find what they believe to be the truth.

My best guess would be that they can't quite figure out who I am, at least not simply from watching. I'm a complex person. I have my likes and dislikes, I have my weird habits and my own way of dealing with life.

But let's say you were to take me solely by my appearance. Let's say all you could do was look at me, and you had to draw some sort of conclusion from the facts in front of your eyes.

These are the hard, core facts you would gather: I have short hair, not exactly straight, but not curly either. I keep it short because it gets tangled easily when it becomes too long. Your personal opinion, along with your perception of color, will determine whether you call it ash blonde or dirty blonde. Whether you think it's sort of messy or kept mostly neat. That all depends on your definition of words.