lemondrops and lollipops }} zenyatta & genji !blitz!
Aug 4, 2017 23:02:26 GMT -5
Post by maverick hale 🌧️ d5 [nyte] on Aug 4, 2017 23:02:26 GMT -5
zoe yates
I used to feel so... at peace. When I was forcing men to line their skulls upon train tracks laced with gold, eyes closed whenever horns blared so that I could not see the aftermath of the words that had spilled from between my lips. There was no such thing as guilt, they had so willingly laid down their lives for me- given me everything and so I saw nothing wrong with using them however I pleased. Preaching about a greater good that I began to doubt even existed all while pretending that I was a hero and not a power hungry dictator.
To be captured was a blessing. Thrown into a cell and treated like the trash I had become. So full of evil, of resentment and hatred thinly veiled as altruism - as doing the right thing. A blind man convinced that he had seen it all, condemning those who had only righteousness to offer. Fooling myself into thinking kindness was a mere fable all while leeching off of those who gave me just that.
My new comrades are damaged, imperfectly perfect and bound by our mistakes. Some of us are remorseless, having yet to see the error of our ways but I like to think that I am not the first man fallen to discord that can be picked back up again. Perhaps I am not my own, merely a puppet with strings tied around Reinhardt's fingers, made to be pulled and plucked at his will, but at least I am something better than what I was.
But of all my new friends there is no denying that he is my favorite. Something like I have never seen, a man whose mind I cannot crack. Not like the eggshells I used to shatter against pavement with toothy grins and soft spoken whispers, with tongues curled against dishonesty and seeking the chinks in chain-mail armor. There is something that I can learn from him, a knowledge that makes me hunger for his attention. For anything that he could offer.
Perhaps that is why I've put so much thought into this. Boiling a tea that is not too sweet, not too savory. Something that will impress him all while ensuring I do not come across as desperate. There is harmony to be found, tranquility settled at the center of balanced scales and I am his shadow, attached to his heels with a decorative mug clutched between sweating palms.
"Genji!" A smile that wavers, a voice that shakes. And the old Zoe would never have been so timid but I have never been more happy that he is long dead. "Would you like-"
Fuck.
"I made you-"
No, not that.
"Tea?"