vasantha }} d7.

I've never been wanted.

Never been loved.

Not even by my own parents. They dropped me off at the doorstep at the convent when I was barely a year, left me there without a word or a note. Who the hell knows why. 

So the nuns where generous enough to take me in, I think they cared for a little, until they began to realize that I didn't give fuck about anything they had to say.

They tell me I need to stop cussing so much or I'll go to hell or whatever. 

Clearly I listen so well.

They tried so hard to teach me about god and shit, how great he is. They must think that I'm possessed by the devil since I never pay attention to a word they say. Or care.

Once they tried giving me a biblical name, Elizabeth or something, to make me more holy. I told them they can fuck right off.

My biggest fear is that I'll be stuck here forever. I try to run, but every where I turn there's always something in my way. I'm trapped.

Maybe one day I'll make it out of this hell.