swift as a sickly turtle {kaplan}
Nov 7, 2017 23:02:12 GMT -5
Post by Meghan on Nov 7, 2017 23:02:12 GMT -5
Stranger,
It's been twenty eight years since I came to this Earth, fabulous to the core, I'm certain. Sure of myself, ready for this world,not crazy not crazy NOT crazy NOT. No, fabulous and sparkly and certain, oh so certain of my skill, my beauty, my ferocity. But nobody told me, nobody told me why did nobody tell me how boring such a world would be once the first throes of youth vanished, and the young scallywagon blossoms into a sculpted rose.
Did she wonder about these days? The days she never lived? I don't know why I still think of her,
the woman... no girl... who shares my face. Most days I forget about her, all consumed by bread and circuses. But today, yes, today I can't forget. Watching little Bruce's head, the same age as herthe same age as her the same age as her the SAME AGE, clattered through the sky with a roar. As if it was nothing more than a golf ball. I wonder if she felt horror in that moment.
I'm not sure when I started to care, it's just games. They're just tributes. But maybe, just maybe, when cousin Vinnie disappeared all those years ago I wanted to disappear too.
I don't know why I'm telling you this. You're a stranger, and you may never read this.
Let's talk about our meeting instead. Today, shortly after I watched the little boy fall. I've seen you around, of course. We've been in this business for a long time, but we hadn't ever worked closely. I'm sure I've worn your clothes, but then again, who hasn't? You're well known in the Capitol, and wealthy. I respect you, as I'm sure you respect me for similar reasons. Yet we haven't said more than a few words to each other.
Well, we certainly say something today. I'm ran into your shop, swift as a sickly turtle and trilled my excuses. You don't need to know the truth. That I spent the last hour crying in my bathtub. I wiped the black and gold and turquoise streaks of color from my cheeks before I came running to your little shop. I didn't reapply, I knew you'd prefer me clean and polished. Every designer likes a fresh slate, and even at twenty-eight, I'm the freshest.
I was late for our job. I'm sorryi'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry, and I didn't have a reputation of being late. I am the Capitol's princess, after all, and princesses are never late. Perhaps I should become a Queen. Queen's can waltz in and out at any hour and be on time. Except, maybe for the President, but that's one exception among a sea of thousands. Yes, perhaps I will be Queen, but not yet, not until I've earned my stripes.
Because honestly, I haven't done anything memorable in twenty-eight years besides break my heart with each new crush, never really settling for anyone, and owning a face that dazzles. I am unremarkable, though beautiful.
You don't need to know that. I won't tell you, how could I? No, but I will tell you that
as I burst into your shop with the fierce cloak of embarrassment, I did something ridiculous.
I always do. It's what I'm known for.
"Hello, darling!" I clucked to you. My voice was syrup, oh I DRIPPED every word from the back of my throat. Sue me, slay me,forgive me forgive me forgive me. "I suppose you want to see the goods?" I dropped my dress then, stepped out of it, and twirled for you, thankful time and treatment hid my scars from view. Invisible, yes, but still there, always there.
- Princess
It's been twenty eight years since I came to this Earth, fabulous to the core, I'm certain. Sure of myself, ready for this world,
Did she wonder about these days? The days she never lived? I don't know why I still think of her,
the woman... no girl... who shares my face. Most days I forget about her, all consumed by bread and circuses. But today, yes, today I can't forget. Watching little Bruce's head, the same age as her
I'm not sure when I started to care, it's just games. They're just tributes. But maybe, just maybe, when cousin Vinnie disappeared all those years ago I wanted to disappear too.
I don't know why I'm telling you this. You're a stranger, and you may never read this.
Let's talk about our meeting instead. Today, shortly after I watched the little boy fall. I've seen you around, of course. We've been in this business for a long time, but we hadn't ever worked closely. I'm sure I've worn your clothes, but then again, who hasn't? You're well known in the Capitol, and wealthy. I respect you, as I'm sure you respect me for similar reasons. Yet we haven't said more than a few words to each other.
Well, we certainly say something today. I'm ran into your shop, swift as a sickly turtle and trilled my excuses. You don't need to know the truth. That I spent the last hour crying in my bathtub. I wiped the black and gold and turquoise streaks of color from my cheeks before I came running to your little shop. I didn't reapply, I knew you'd prefer me clean and polished. Every designer likes a fresh slate, and even at twenty-eight, I'm the freshest.
I was late for our job. I'm sorry
Because honestly, I haven't done anything memorable in twenty-eight years besides break my heart with each new crush, never really settling for anyone, and owning a face that dazzles. I am unremarkable, though beautiful.
You don't need to know that. I won't tell you, how could I? No, but I will tell you that
as I burst into your shop with the fierce cloak of embarrassment, I did something ridiculous.
I always do. It's what I'm known for.
"Hello, darling!" I clucked to you. My voice was syrup, oh I DRIPPED every word from the back of my throat. Sue me, slay me,
- Princess