ishmael corran {two} cbd2, fin

solo Career Tribute 622 POSTS last seen Dec 14, 2018 21:57:15 GMT -5	ishmael corran {two} cbd2, fin Dec 10, 2017 15:54:54 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by solo on Dec 10, 2017 15:54:54 GMT -5 ishamel corran male thirty-two district two blacksmith, writer soft-hearted giant, fought to earn money, on-and-off drinking problem deceased wife, nine-year-old daughter
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ishmael corran {two} cbd2, fin Dec 10, 2017 15:55:09 GMT -5

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Post by solo on Dec 10, 2017 15:55:09 GMT -5

Dear Ava,

...

~~Dear Ava,~~

My hands shake as I draw a line through her name, then crumple it up between soot covered fingers and toss it into the trash a few feet away from me. My grip tightens around the drink set in front of me.

She's dead, she died a long time ago. I keep telling myself that, but somehow, I can never really convince myself. Maybe she's just lost. Maybe she's been kidnapped. Maybe she just stopped loving me.

I squeeze my eyes shut and down the rest of the bottle.

"You've had too much to drink, Ishmael. Come to bed, okay?"

I can almost hear her voice, still ringing fresh in my ear. They say a person's voice is the first thing you forget when they leave you. But I didn't forget, how could I? Her voice was everything, her smile, her laugh, it lit up my world. She pulled me out of the fights, out of the desperation, out of the uncertainty. My fists were bruised, but she wrapped them up for me. I remember her smiling and telling me it was okay, we were going to be okay.

I stopped fighting when she came along. She deserved better than me, I knew she did, but I was selfish and I loved her, and who can stop that?

Then we got older, we got married.

Then she had Avery.

And then she died.

I almost couldn't do it when she was born. I couldn't, not with those blue eyes and brown hair that looked just like Ava's. She was going to remind me every day of her mother. But I couldn't just give her up either.

She's nine now, still all blue-eyed and brown-haired, and she laughs like her mum did. It doesn't kill me as much as it used to. After all, she's my everything now.

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solo Career Tribute 622 POSTS last seen Dec 14, 2018 21:57:15 GMT -5	ishmael corran {two} cbd2, fin Dec 31, 2017 18:05:52 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by solo on Dec 31, 2017 18:05:52 GMT -5 all done!

✨ zozo. Retired Staff 8,205 POSTS Pronouns: she/her last seen Nov 22, 2024 15:02:31 GMT -5 bloomtodeath	ishmael corran {two} cbd2, fin Dec 31, 2017 18:12:24 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by ✨ zozo. on Dec 31, 2017 18:12:24 GMT -5 "and she laughs like her mum did." RIGHT IN THE FEELS
	“and men said that the blood of the stars flowed in her veins.”