sunny winsley : d1 : cb : fin

Did you know that flowers have meanings? I found a book about it. We have a garden in our yard, so I went through after I finished reading it and figured out what the flowers meant. Calla Lilies mean faith and purity. Carnations mean beauty. Lilacs mean innocence. I think it's funny that people do so much with flowers, but most of them probably don't know they mean anything. For example, if I gave someone an orange lily, that means that I hate them. You wouldn't want to make that mistake.

I think people often don't understand the true meanings of things, even things they spend a lot of time around. Those coaches in the training center spend all that time training Careers for supposed honor and glory, but in reality, they're just sending children to their deaths. My mother is one of those people. I'm supposed to be proud, but I'm not. She doesn't understand the true meaning of her actions. What if I were reaped, Mother? What if I died? I don't know if even that would make her stop and think.

My family is just her and I. I don't hate her, but she's the perfect example of somebody who'd gift orange lilies and not give it a second thought. You have to wonder, are people just ignorant, or do they truly not care?