seeing blue } taron x mason
Jan 10, 2018 18:12:31 GMT -5
Post by maverick hale 🌧️ d5 [nyte] on Jan 10, 2018 18:12:31 GMT -5
mason turner
He sticks to the confines of my skull. Infatuation stains a grey heart and there is mist behind my eyes. It's like moving through a constant fog, anxiety weighing down upon my shoulders and I cannot forget them. For even a moment. Weak and weary, I could see the scars hidden beneath translucent skin and I feel desperation staining ragged breaths. Over and over again, fists against bright red leather and I do not stop until my knuckles are stained the same hue. Sleeping, eating, they slip between the cracks in bony fingers and Tate has begun to press brown paper bags into my hollow chest. I throw them away.
I'm just not hungry anymore.
I can't stop thinking about them. Invisible shackles welded to weak wrists and I am yet unable to slip fingers between the broken skin. Freedom tastes like iron, as bitter and angry as my absolute failure. Shadows rest just behind my eyes, breaking my neck with every snap of their swollen fingers and I have never before been left speechless. Jokes do not hang in dead air and I find no relief from oxygen flooding tired lungs.
Training has stretched on for three hours now, according to the cheap watch strapped around my wrist and I blink away the blood seeping from every leap of it's ebony hands. Every tick is a second longer that I am free and they are not. That I am doing nothing to ease the pain that festered from within invisible prisons.
It's never hurt like this. So visceral that the mere thought of them leaves shredded skin in its wake. Deception is the name of the game, lies no longer need to slip from in between my lips as I have begun to fool myself into believing that I haven't the slightest clue why I cannot simply shove plaster into the cracks left by this case.
Yeah, it's just to do with how terrible it is. Yeah, it's just to do with the absolute injustice. Yeah, it's nothing to do with him.
Nothing to do with him.
Fists against leather again. Hair sticks to a sweat stained brow and I can feel every inch of my body begging for rest. For sleep. For food. One, two, one, two, three. Feet dancing across the mats and I go until my knees give out. What kind of idiot am I? My back hits the ground hard and laughter bounces off of empty walls. There is nothing left to distract from my idiocy. I've met this fucker all of a handful of times, none of which have been particularly pleasant meetings. He's no right to take up all of me like this. So violently, so absolutely.
"Get the fuck up." Gentle growl, palm pressed to my own and before I know it I'm clung to Tate Seraphim for support, room spinning from the sudden change of pace. "And for God's sake eat something." He pressed a plastic bag into my palm, features stained with the kind of indifference that can only ever hide with his usual maternal anxiety. Old habits die hard, is that how the saying goes?
Dunno. Can't fucking think.
Half a sandwich shoved greedily between dry lips. No time to taste anything before it's sitting heavily in the pit of my stomach and I'm pretending that the room isn't tilted on a peculiar axis when I meet his eyes. "Wassit to you, boss?" I mutter, hastily pulling a tank top over previously bare skin.
"We got one, from the boys you've been staking out for the last month and a half. Caught 'em with a shipment. Ten innocents. He was the only one we got in time."
Fucking fantastic. He wants me to work. Should've expected as much. Softness rests at my core, so marred by the scar tissue he forced into fresh skin that I cannot feel dread at the fact that screams will be the only company I am allowed to seek tonight. It's been like this, we've been like this, since I was a kid. And he knows damn well that I have been ruined by every stupid decision he made. And I know he pretends not to care.
"Got it." I'm not exactly dressed for the job, soaked hair sloppily pushed out of dead eyes and I look like I belong at one of them fancy training centers nestled between the fat thighs of the upper districts. My appearance has never been an intimidating one anyway. I'll work with what I got, I always have.
The Subject is sat in the usual chair. Wrists chained behind its back, ankles tied together and it's easier to think of him as nameless, worthless. There is no name attached to humanoid features, no personality. I leave no room for empathy. No matter how despicable a man he might be, trading lives as though they were nothing more than collectible cards, it was a man nonetheless. It's hard to forget, but I've learned how.
He's faceless now, brown sack forced over a slumped head and I tell myself he deserves what I'm about to do to him.
Because he does.
"I've got one request, 'fore we begin." I despise him. Everything he stands for. Subhuman trash with rocks for brains. I can feel hatred bubbling up my throat. Anger at what these creatures have done to them. So I wrap my hand around his neck and I squeeze because it's easy to do. "Try not to bleed on me. I don't like having shit on my shoes."
When the sack falls, it takes my breath with it.
Guilt crawls up my throat, staining it bright red and shame is what causes my hands to shake. Just a bit. It's not often that I get it wrong.
But, oh, I certainly have.
"No fucking way."