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its all coming down [pet plot JB]
Jan 27, 2018 21:51:30 GMT -5
Post by pearl mcclain d4 [ryan] on Jan 27, 2018 21:51:30 GMT -5
Bella Rose
I had a dream
about a burning house
you were
Being escorted into the justice building following what could have been the worst day of my life, I wanted to break down and cry. I wanted to bolt out of there and find a way to get to my sister. However, the amount of guards were staggering, like I was now one of the most prized possessions. I could help but wonder if this was the last time I would ever feel this way. Like a caged dog, who might never see the light of day because they might have tore up something precious.
It was time like these that I wished I was that precious thing.
I couldn’t stand it, but I had to go along with it. I just never thought my name would have been called. I still had a sister I needed to raise.
That’s when the tears started flowing. My sister. Marley. Who was going to take care of her now that I was gone? Who was going to take care of all the kids?
Who was going to take care of me once I died?
I shook my head. I needed to stop thinking like that. This wasn’t the end of the world, and we hadn’t even gotten to the capitol yet. There were so many variables that were flying around my head that I was surprised that I didn’t pass out from exhaustion. My body was running off the same adrenaline that filled me when I was in that dream with my parents. I had to put on a show anyway. While ten has had victors, they are always the underdogs. However, I felt more like a dog more than anything. I didn’t know how to fight. I didn’t know how to be strategic. Worst of all, I didn’t know how to kill. There was a difference between being able to take a life and watch someone died. Both were scaring but killing was something that I knew I wouldn’t want to partake in.
But then they finally started letting families in to see us. I didn’t think much about the boy that was reaped with me. I hadn’t even met him. We ran in two different worlds that no one had any clue about. I took care of children at an orphanage while he probably took care of live stalk.
The scary part about that, he probably knew what it was like to take a life and watch them die. That was something that I was going to have to learn fast.
They ushered me into what looked like a study. I only knew what this room was called because my father had one in our house. It was a small one, that wasn’t fully furnished, but he still treated it like it was his own private space. He treated it like it was the only thing that separated him from the world, and that was something I envied, even as a child. I sat in one of the chairs and waited patiently to see who was going to come through that door first. It honestly could have been anyone, but I was hoping that it was going to be my sister and the foster mother. My sister was probably the only person I wanted to talk too right now anyway.
I held the locket that was in my hand and waited for her.
And then she came through and I couldn’t believe my eyes. Well, I could. There she was, wearing the very same clothes that I helped stitch back together. The feelings inside of me were bubbling up, and I was starting to become angry with everything. However, Marley didn’t need to see that rage. She needed to see her big sister one last time.
“Marley, I…” I started but was cut off by the hug that she gave to me. Tears started flowing down my face in random trickles. I held onto her, one hand on her back and the other on her head. I could smell the ash from the house on her, and I was curious for a moment. Did she go back to the house like I had done earlier today? Did she even remember the house?
She pulled herself away from me and looked at me. She told me that she didn’t want me to go. She didn’t know where I was going, because I tried my hardest to not tell her much about the games. Of course, that didn’t stop the other kids from revealing certain things. I think Marley chose not to believe them though, and that was the innocence that I wished I could have kept myself. However, this was real. This was going to be my hell, and I had to fight to make sure that the arena wasn’t my grave.
”I want to show you this.” I said, holding up the locket I found and opening it in front of her. She asked me who the people were and I couldn’t help but smile at her. ”On the left, that is me and you, when we were younger. The people on the right are mom and dad.” She touched it for a second, almost tugging on it because she wanted to hold it in her hands. ”I went back to the old house and found it in what was left of my bedroom.” Marley looked at me like it wasn’t fair that I found something that she didn’t get as well. She told me that she wanted it.
I wanted to give it to her, but I closed it up and bunched it up in my hand. ”You will get it one day little one. I promise you that.” I left it at that because I didn’t want to leave here with her thinking that I wasn’t going to survive the arena. ”But until then, can you promise me that you will be a good girl?” I said in a cutesy voice. It probably wasn’t what she wanted to hear, but I didn’t care. For once, I needed to be selfish for my own reasons. I had a battle a head of me, and that meant that I needed to focus on the task at hand.
I walked out of the study with Marley’s hand in mine. I was surprised they let me go out, but the peacekeepers weren’t falling behind. It felt weird always having eyes on me, but that was something that I guess I was going to have to get used too. When we got down the stairs, I noticed that everyone from the orphanage was here. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw them. Even Rogue. She was probably only here because she wouldn’t be able to get into the house otherwise. Even though I didn’t like her per say, I could at least respect the fact that she came.
I couldn’t help but cover my face for a moment, thinking about how much I was going to miss this family I had a hand in creating.
Then I turned around and put on my strong face. I was going to have to be strong for all of them.
Yes.
Even Rogue.
stuck inside
I couldnt get you
out.
