it blooms tainted; aeson {day 1.5}
Feb 13, 2018 18:13:59 GMT -5
Post by kousei ♚ on Feb 13, 2018 18:13:59 GMT -5
I think I lost my mind a while ago
'Cause I've been seeing some ghosts
And I'd be lying if I told you I'm fine
But I lieYou shut your eyes and listen to the sound of winter's graveyard; it sounds like cannon fire.
It matches the rhythmic echo of your heart against your frozen rib cage, displacing the apathy frozen over the outer layer of your chest and it strikes you in the only way any feelings, bar rage, ever have.
Hollow.
You eye Euley Sarasin with suspicion when she takes one step towards you and teeters on the boundary of too close for comfort. A pacesetter in your race to eternal damnation, she's caught you in your rare moments of vulnerability, where there's not a single weapon in your hand and you're left counting cannons like heartbeats. You eye her with suspicion she offers you her spear still heavy with the blood of the nameless boy you failed to cut deeply enough to warrant crimson rain, the head of your axe merely skimmed shallow. Now you draw a notation for failure with the thin line of blood he left behind.
There's not a single shred of trust between the four of your hollow hearts, and that fact is made clear when you accept her poisoned gift by taking the point of the shaft closest to the head with your outstretched hand, far enough away from your armored chest to redirect any momentum that comes your way in time. No words of gratitude disrupt the sound of silence between the four of you. You lose yourself to the sound of a winter grave, stepping on the sled left behind with caution before you take off.
You watch unneeded wealth whiter to distance and feel hours pass beneath a dying sky.
Yellowed pages preached trust in your fellow man, for when stripped of finery and hollow scripture, everyone was a brother or sister in sin. All products of the same evil rooted deep beneath human nature and in the eyes of an imaginary man in the sky, sins and virtues rested in a place deeper than your bones. Trust becomes essential with that logic. Despite being left behind at six years old, you tear the holy word cover from cover for the truce flag the four of you share is tattered at best, burning at worst. As the graveyard fades, paranoia flourishes and you ensure Isaac, Violet and Euley do not wander from the edges of your peripherals. Mind on the weapons that sit heavy in their hands and the attention on any part of their skin not covered by armor.
Hours flutter beneath this frozen hell and time with your allies stretches further than any horizon; you watch any semblance humanity decay from Euley's figure, any semblance of trust erode from Isaac and innocence fade from Violet. You fought like wild demons, racing to scatter your humanity into the snow. Perhaps you ought to be more careful with where you put your vulnerabilities after all.
It's a good thing you claimed the armored vest with threats and vitriol, now your hand never leaves the spear heavy with blood you did not claim. In the back of your mind, you know it would be fucking stupid for them to act any differently -- ("if you give me a knife and turn your back to me, I'll probably cut your throat.") The truth set you free, you suppose.
You do not think whether hours or eons have passed when you come to a sudden halt on the sled, you recognize the sight of summer's ashes.
It's not instantaneous, your grip slightly tightens around your spear and your eyes widened for summer's ashes are crimson in color and mimic the sight of blood droplets. You pictured slaughter, however, no cannon fire augmented the steady race of your slowed heartbeat and the drops are far too sporadic to be a trail. One step and second of inspection and you recognize the sight of summer's decay. Not blood droplets, but flowers peering from the ice that grips them. Perhaps it's meant to be a synthetic reminder of summer as a world without frostbite becomes a distant memory.
What a fucking joke.
You roll your eyes and scoff, a silver mist forming from your lips as you step forwards. Wanderlust grips the back of your mind, a morbid curiosity for what lies beyond grips you. You turn to your allies, wondering whether that truce flag is in tatters or flames. "Don't fucking follow me, I'll be back." You tell them, your voice flat and eyes unwavering. Truth be told, within that morbid curiosity is the natural need for solitude.
They fade from sight but not hearing, you can't let them stray too far after all. If something were to steal their lives you would want to be close, so that you can gut whatever it was for stealing blood that's yours to claim.
You shut your eyes and listen for suffering, resorting to a memory upon silence.("It'll be waiting for you, that special place in hell will claim you."
"Not before it claims you, though.")
Scripture scrawled across yellowed pages drew notations and imagery of brimstone in your mind. And here you are, suffering from frost trying to claim your skin and not fire attempting to claim your soul. You ought to tear that holy tongue from its mouth for spouting such lies.
You whisper into the distance, arbitrary sin in one hand and a lack of care for damnation in the other. "Why won't you take me to it?"
Perhaps you already sent yourself there with those two words commonly associated with damnation.Yeah, these thoughts I would never speak out loud
I've seen you cry, but I've never seen you
Shout like a hurricane
These shots don't ricochet