a flee from reality | finley vs dymas [day 7]
Apr 5, 2018 14:48:10 GMT -5
Post by d6a georgie cham 🍓🐢 frankel on Apr 5, 2018 14:48:10 GMT -5
I am blind amongst the twisted trees, my guardian with the compass in her hand, guiding us away from the blazing chaos that I left behind. I pull my goggles over my eyes, a world of green looks better than the red that I have left behind, Gabriel and Cade; the names etched on my brain. My limbs feel heavy, victim to the fury of surviving in the games but the organ in my chest still beats. Six days later the blood is still running through my body. How long before my oxygen is taken away? Seventh or eighth?
My body yearns for a break as Stella halts at a clearing, there is no canopy of the naked trees. I guess they are begging for spring like I am. The summer’s sun on my face and the world filled with life but winter’s bite remains here. Really is my life to end on this frozen turf? Only the shivers down my spine to remember rather than the sweat that drips from my brow on a hot day. So many days of doing certain things when I was back home, and I never knew those days would be my last time doing them.
I sling my pack to the ground, claiming a space to spend the night. My hand brushes across the ski poles, trying to dampen away any signs of the fire from them; I don’t want to be physically reminded of it. ”I’ve done it again.” Two lives switched off so effortlessly, the first barely forced me to press down but the second did take away a far ounce of energy from within me. Those last seconds, an infinite source of energy from nowhere driving me to the end and the everlasting effects of the actions now trail behind in my mind. These will be the scars that I have to take home.
"Finley, you have to remember here....it's always going to be the choice between living or dying." Two choices of the trials of life, to continue or lose it all; it is such a fight to walk down either path or the avoid the other. It is a reality that burns harder on my cheeks than what the flames did. It is hard revelation to avoid and I am just going to have to face it, with my eyes wide open. These words of comfort from Stella, the only remedy to my collapsing mind and I don’t want to lose it from her.
"There's not many of them left...not many more options left...is this our last time together?" The history of the games says this is our last night together, just six others left now, and I will likely have to face one of them alone in the morning. Six days still standing and there has always been one person besides me, I really am not expected to survive a day longer without her.
Pieces of a game moved around, they may even put us up against each other and it really would be the end for me. I’d surrender to the end, I am not going to see my friend die and certainly not by my hand. "Do you think it would be wiser to split up?" I beg for us to stay side by side but predictions in my mind want to push her away from me. "I would be dead twice over if it wasn't for you."
"No but I guess they will split us up anyway." I shake my head at her last comment. I am no saviour to another, especially Stella. The one to keep the fire burning and to tame it when it goes out of control. Six long days and she is the one to keep the oxygen in my lungs, I can’t bare to split up with her, not after all this time. I am no saviour, not with Alejandro, Vesper and Eva being dead. "I haven't done anything, I haven't saved anyone. It is all you."
My body goes limb, finally it can relax as I rest my back against the trunk of the wooden fortress. If only my mind would follow the que and settle down, I guess I will never get the best of both worlds. One thing or the other and I am grateful for it; a little bit of agony has been set free.
"We saved each other." Through my goggles, the smile on her face is as clear as the snow. I pull the visor down to my neck, I want to be able to see it clearer as it slowly begins to creep across my own face. All this hiding from the cruelty of life and yet beauty can still coincide besides it.
"Let's hope their sadism doesn't extend so far as to make us face off against each other tomorrow. I cou- I don't know if I could ever hurt you."
My face drops to my hands, another attempt to hide myself from the chaos outside. Just the thought of having to aim my weapon at her, the promise would have to be let go. I am sorry Quinn and Piper but I can’t kill her.
An exhale from between my lips, I fight the tears that want to march down my cheeks. Permanent stains are already on my skin from the salty liquid, I don’t want to add to the marks. “If you wake up before me...just run far away. Just get away from here." A warning as if a monster is preparing to wake from an eternity of sleep. I can not feel anything hiding from within me but my actions from the past two days give me the suspicion. Does a killer’s mind swarm them like mine does?
"I think I'll go to the peak - better vantage point up there anyways." Far up in the clouds, with a view to the chaos unfolding down below. I have no thought on where to go, maybe the predictable familiar of the flowers. A place where my mind can wander and the perfect resting place for me to fall. "You just - you have to save yourself to get back home to your family, okay?"
It is selfish for me to think that I am the only one here with people waiting for me back home. Surely there must be someone praying in Twelve for Stella’s return, a heart that cares for her more than what I do.
"Don't you have family to go back to?""Just my dad. But.....he wasn't even there the day of the Reaping. I couldn't find him in the crowd. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye."
"There must be at least someone waiting for you there?""Other than him and Allie, it was always about dance to me. Just me and my studio. I didn't have time for anyone else."
What a reveal, so much learnt from my ally in this short conversation. There has not been much talk between us of what is back home, I don’t think I have even spoken about my sisters with her; not that I can remember every conversation that I have had. This talk of a hobby that has moulded her, far more exciting that my floral collection. I have not seen that many dancers in District Nine before.
"Just get home for yourself then. I wish I had the opportunity to see you dance." A spectacle of a show and I will never have the opportunity to witness it. "It was nothing special. It certainly doesn't prepare you for the brutality here. It was just another form of escape." Nothing will prepare even the strongest career for the games, cannons sounding across the arena and there is no sign of the career who left our camp this morning. Is he amongst those who have fallen today?
"I can show you some steps. You'll have to make up music though." My body moves with her request, never have I been to quick to try something. I leave behind my pile of goods as I stand up. "We don't need music, we...” Sour words nearly dropped from my lips,we have each other and that’s enough. Really she is the image of my sister, there is no way that I can such thoughts to add to the plague in my mind. “I have never really done this before." Another amateur in an act that will likely flag me as a fool, here is my opportunity to be an embarrassment.
"Here, come here. Raise your right hand up and grip my waist with your left. I'll lead but technically, you're supposed to. And don't you dare step on my toes."
Slowly my hands follow her instructions as I take hers, resting each hand on the appropriate part of her body. A giggle parts from my lips at her last comment as I awkwardly follow her lead, what a performance we must be putting on right now and well, I am enjoying it.
"It is really warm; do you feel warm too?" Something has taken flight within me, during this moment we have spent dancing together. A burning inside unlike anything that I have experienced before and I just want to extinguish it. I don’t want to feel this.
"Am I making you nervous, Finley?" My burning cheeks must be so obvious to her, I beg for the fire to settle, I don’t want this to become untamed. "I am always nervous, I don't think this is nerves...it's probably all that fire from today." An excuse picked from a pile that dropped into my mind.
Stella’s hands drop from mine and I guess that marks the end of it. The night is drawing in and it is time to prepare. "You really did well today. I wasn't expecting a wildfire from you." A rewind to the day’s actions, after a few moments of forgetting it. I fight for anything to rid their faces from my head and I hope I can avoid everything that reminds me of them.
"I don't want to celebrate doing what I did. Let’s just celebrate still being alive. Six days is longer that what I would have ever expected.""I didn't even think that I would make it past three."
I begin to gather up the firewood, anything to end this conversation of remembrance. It is the right time to call it a night, I want to relish in her last comforting words before they are slashed away by reality. "I'll make a fire, lets settle for the night."
So, the day is over, and I guess tomorrow will not be like any of the others…
Each night my sleep is getting limited, so much to tick in my mind and keep the nightmares on the full screen. I must have gotten a few little hours early in the morning for I awake to loneliness. There is no sign of my ally, my advice from yesterday must have been followed. I just hope you are safe.
Before I can get to my feet, the familiar sound of the parachutes rings in my ears. Another gift to add to the piles, as jar of tar with a message strung to it. Play with this like you did yesterday. There is someone out there who enjoys my killing and I really do not want to give them the indulgence of another. My head cannot take anymore.
Onto my feet with the bag on my back and a ski pole in my hand. I have found no use for the camera I salvaged from Gabriel. If there is anything to capture, it is beauty of this life. I kick myself for not taking a photograph with Stella, what a memory that would be to carry. Except I have the moment of us dancing together in my head, that will be the thing that settles my mind during today’s events.
I venture through the twisted trees, no guide to take me and so my wandering I lost. Each turn I take and it isn’t in the direction I want to go; how can I free myself from this setting?
Except the ball has been rolled and the game makers have crossed my path with another. It is Eva’s District partner, the one we fought just two days ago. It is all silence for a moment as I extend the ski pole out to protect me. ”There are people waiting for me, there is a promise trailing behind me. Please just let me run far away from here.”
finley attacks dymas | spear
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[3057 -- Shallow Cut on Forehead -- 4.5 damage]
spearWkJnIV_Aspear
[3057 -- Shallow Cut on Forehead -- 4.5 damage]