the song of the l o s t // [stella v euley day 7]
Apr 5, 2018 19:46:27 GMT -5
Post by alex 🐺 on Apr 5, 2018 19:46:27 GMT -5
s t e l l a
Crimson skies and a false sense of security. Stella runs deeper into the forest of bent trees, twigs snapping under her boots and catching on her fur coat. Finley follows close behind. Red was smeared across the sky like molten glass and Stella felt her spine bending under the weight of it all. She was suffocating under the feeling, like swimming underwater knowing that her chest was aching for want of air.
They pause at a clearing and Stella drops her guard, latching her ski pole with the others and shedding her satchel with a thud. The wind whistling through the trees. Finley’s face was a darkened window, haunted in a way that Stella had never seen before. The flickering of a ghost across his features as he speaks.
"I've done it again." His face is downcast and Stella can feel the sadness radiating off of his body. He was trapped under the weight of it all, shaking hands and choked breath. Eagles circling his head waiting to sink claws of panic into the back of his neck over the second life that he had taken. Stella, with Finley, had always been the one to try to bring the fire of life back to them, by razor edge or emptiness, grasping with burned hands for the light, trapped and chained but still struggling.
"Finley, you have to remember here....it's always going to be the choice between living or dying." She has never been one for comfort, for hope speeches when she was raised as a solitary figure dancing on her own. Comfort to Finley, like a brother to her in all but blood and name, is not something easy, but it flows through her like water.
"There's not many of them left...not many more options left...is this our last time together?" Promises to him are fool’s gold but they gleam in the light all the same. Stella had never thought they would have forever, clasped tightly in the hollows of their hands. Even if they tried hard enough to fight it, anything here was possible and time and distance made liars of them all.
They were a fraying thread and a remnant of foolish hope that they could change their circumstances. Death was a debt bought and paid for the moment their names came out of the glass. Hardened and trained, but their fate had been sealed days ago.
She is hesitant. They have been living on borrowed time and she was not ready yet to pull the thread that had weaved them together. "Do you think it would be wiser to split up?" Logically, she knew that the answer was yes, it would be wiser. The final eight in the arena meant the end of alliances and the beginning of the real Games fought completely alone and purely out of self-preservation. "I would be dead twice over if it wasn't for you," she whispers. A girl cloaked in armor to hide her true feelings of fear. The wild bird in a gilded cage who had yet to take a life. Had yet to hold the string of fate in her hand and rip it apart. She was not built for this carnage and calamity.
Finley’s words bring her out of her reverie and Stella struggles to remember what they were talking about. "No but I guess they will split us up anyway. I haven't done anything, I haven't saved anyone. It is all you." Oh, how wrong he was. They had saved each other, that much was for certain. Stella may have drawn first blood but Finley was able to finish the job. If only they could escape this place together. Foolish thoughts would not do well to find their home in Stella’s mind. Nothing good would come of them.
”We saved each other." Tender words and heartfelt confessions to each other that an entire nation would see and hear.
There are words that could describe this - the way Stella feels when he speaks to her - safety, loyalty, and most importantly hope, but the human tongue does not have words for the depths of this - for the strength he unleashes inside of her. something that universe buried and burned so deeply that she thought it was gone forever, taken from her in the brutality of a life lost.
She wished that Finley would believe in himself the way she believed in him with a fierceness that outweighs history, wish a hope that rewrites the stars.
This conversation is too much and not enough at the same time. They have never crossed the line into familiarity and starting now would be dangerous for them both. "Let's hope their sadism doesn't extend so far as to make us face off against each other tomorrow. I cou- I don't know if I could ever hurt you." Her voice cracked at the end, betraying her. He had always been the one to feel more, to show he felt more as Stella stood and bit her lip into a pulp over the emotions of the past week.
"If you wake up before me...just run far away. Just get away from here." She feels fragmented, like this fragile heart cannot take another breath of wind, like his hands are too gentle for this ribcage to split open under. The warning of leaving him weaving through every thought, even though she knows that she will steal away when dawn breaks. His heart is too good for this place.
"I think I'll go to the peak - better vantage point up there anyways. You just - you have to save yourself to get back home to your family, okay?" Hands shaking heart pounding. The words rising thick in her throat, choking. This was a goodbye drawn out that had been coming for along time. Like earth is worn away by the smallest trickle of stormwater, this space has been growing between their hearts for what feels like a millennia. She wants this to be easy, but stringing it along makes them makes both of them cowards for hiding from the truth.
"Don't you have family to go back to?" A laugh breaks her lips, sardonic and cutting. She shakes her hand as a hand darts out from the warmth of her jacket to the worn golden triangle necklace around her neck. Her only token. Her only anchor to the world that once was. "Just my dad. But.....he wasn't even there the day of the Reaping. I couldn't find him in the crowd. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye." Darkness - black coal and darkness when she thinks of him. Memories are costly here. Blood is counted like gold and memories do not come cheap.
She holds onto the memories of him, something like a dependable ache in her chest. Memories of him, memories of home the wildfire turning her branches to ash.
His voice is softer when he asks her his next question. "There must be at least someone waiting for you there?" Did she project the facade of a happy home complete with warmth and siblings? She was not sure what mask she wore each day in this place, tearing more and more away to reveal her truth self. Was that even left? Was the Stella under it all the girl that had reacted to the boom of the cannon on the first day?
"Other than him and Allie, it was always about dance to me. Just me and my studio. I didn't have time for anyone else." A solitary existence rivaled only by a solitary star burning up alone.
"Just get home for yourself then. I wish I had the opportunity to see you dance." Another laugh and a shrug of her shoulders as she settles herself on the ground, boots digging into the snow and her back against a tree.
"It was nothing special. It certainly doesn't prepare you for the brutality here. It was just another form of escape.” Stella gets up quickly, motioning to Finley. “I can show you some steps. You'll have to make up music though." She beckons him to join her and raises her hands. "We don't need music, we...I have never really done this before."
"Here, come here. Raise your right hand up and grip my waist with your left. I'll lead but technically, you're supposed to. And don't you dare step on my toes." She wags a finger in his face, but the smile that breaks over her features makes her forget for a moment that they are in the arena. That they may die tomorrow. He laughs as they sway, tentative steps that give way to a smile on both of their faces. He’s a bit clumsy, but does well with a laugh escaping his lips.
"It is really warm, do you feel warm too?" A full-bodied laugh erupts out of her chest as Stella shakes her head, spinning Finley slowly. The sunlit dipping below the horizon, honey-colored and ocre.
"Am I making you nervous, Finley?" A raise of an eyebrow and the hint of jest. A brief moment of levity in the heaviest of places.
"I am always nervous, I don't think this is nerves...it's probably all that fire from today."
She stops and grabs his face with her hands again, mirroring her actions from the night previous. Again he needed to understand her. Again he needed to hear her words. "You really did well today. I wasn't expecting a wildfire from you."
His eyes avert and she know that he has flashed back to this afternoon with the porcelain-skinned boy and the poet. "I don't want to celebrate doing what I did. Let’s just celebrate still being alive. Six days is longer that what I would have ever expected."
Her chest feels heavy at his words. Her ribs cracking under the weight of it all. "I didn't even think that I would make it past three." Their moment is over, passing as the night sky darkens and Finley takes a step back.
"I'll make a fire, let’s settle for the night."
West winds blow and the dawn cracks open like an orange rind beneath the gleaming teeth of the night. Citrus and calm sea. Caught, lost under cloudless skies, swaying up into sun. The yellow joy of breaking open into day. It’s not to last though, the sky darkens as Stella rises, a snowstorm a foreboding sign of the day to come. A yawn passing through her lips as she watches Finley sleep. She needs to use this moment to escape, gathering her things quietly. He deserved a better ally than a solitary ballerina from District Twelve. She hopes she had done right by him by leaving now, rather than another forced goodbye.
She runs from things she cannot see. This world, blurred like lights through rain on a window, water streaking down glass. She learned at a young age that your breath on the window only smudges the outlines of the world more. Later, she learned that somethings are destroyed in the simple act of observing them. She told him she would head for the High Peak but her feet bring her to the Snowflower Field on autopilot.
She’s been running for what feels like years, escaping something she cannot name. This haven, this harbor, the ways to say fear in a language she has never learned as a solitary creature in a world of her own making.
Her blood whispers in her ears. Silver and sun dancing through her arteries, sharp and sweet. This dark and wild side of nature as her eyes light upon the other tribute - Euley.
Unhymned, forsworn, and her: the wolf-sign, tracks in the snow, hunger for a fight that does not dwell within her. The monsters under her bed have nothing on the darkness tangled in her fingers, the gleam of white teeth. Crying out for safety into a careless snowstorm. All this light distilled into nothing.
Her armor is stuffed in her satchel - she had forgotten it this morning in her flight and now is not the time to pause to ask forgiveness, for time to make it a longer fight. No, there would be no time for gilded steel adorning her body. Only the crampons she thought to strap on her feet had she climbed the High Peak would have to do. She shouts at Euley, her voice loud as the snow whips around them. She drops her satchel, her coat swirling on her legs. She is cold, but she is ready. Senses heightened.
“Of course it would be you. It had to be you. You started it all for us, that first day at the Bloodbath. Do you remember his name? Do you remember him?!”
[stella's armor will not be active in this fight]
[stella attacks euley; spiked blunt]
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[14138 -- MISS -- 0.0 damage]
accuracy re-roll - day 7
spiked blunt
[14104 -- BROKEN RIGHT KNEE -- 7.0 damage]
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[14138 -- MISS -- 0.0 damage]
accuracy re-roll - day 7
spiked blunt
[14104 -- BROKEN RIGHT KNEE -- 7.0 damage]