Lordes Izar | District Eleven {FIN}

You've always been a strong woman, even as you saw your family- your nieces and nephews- fall to the wretched Hunger Games. That strength started to fade, however, when it was Gabriel who was taken away from you. Normally, you'd be the one comforting the rest of the family. You'd talk things through with the parents of the fallen tribute, telling them that it was all going to be okay. Now, though, you're the one who really needs that consoling, even though you know it'll never be okay again. It would still be nice to hear someone at least trying to tell you that it'll be okay, but instead, people just apologize.

That's all it is these days; apologies. People just say things such as "I'm sorry for your loss" and you're tired of hearing it. You want actually comfort and support, not just people feeling sorry for you. Sure, you receive comfort and support from your wife and two remaining children, but it's not quite the same, because they're in the same exact situation as you are. They know how difficult it is, because they're experiencing it, too. You just wish that someone outside of the family you live with could tell you the same thing and show that they truly care. You wonder why it's so difficult to find someone who's genuinely concerned for others at this point. Perhaps it's because they're too focused on being concerned about themselves.

It's not hard for people to recognize you as an Izar, either, even if you weren't born an Izar, so it makes you wonder why they don't seem to acknowledge your pain. You have the same, slightly darker skin tone and dark hair. Your curly locks look a lot like those of many other female Izars and your dark eyes are hard to miss as a family trait, even if it's not that of your own family. Sure, you're not an exceedingly skinny woman, but you're at a healthy weight, which usually seems to be the body type of the rest of the family- average.There were days in the past where you didn't want people to feel sorry for you because you were an Izar, yet they would anyway. Now, when you desire the comfort, it's not there. Are they just missing the fact that your son was just killed on live, national television?

Some days, you feel that you just need to focus on your work and try not to think about the fact that Gabriel will never be returning home alive like so many Izars before him. When you do take the time to focus on your work, you're a very hard-working individual. A bit of a perfectionist, your work can stress you out quite a lot, but you still don't let it frustrate you to the point of giving up. For work, you dress more nicely than usual. A neat, solid-colored or simply patterned blouse and slacks or a skirt seem to be your usual work attire. When you're at home, you dress much more simply, but if you leave the house, you are sure to present yourself well, as you don't want to create a negative image for the Izar family. Your husband insists that you're too pretty for people to have a negative image of you, but you still try your very hardest. Perhaps it's your lack of self-confidence that causes you to be afraid of shaming your family name.

When you were growing up, you were a much more confident person than you are now. You always held yourself high and were quite popular at school. When you got into the workforce, however, you realized that you weren't the best at everything you did, and that you still had things to learn. This appears to have dulled your confidence quite significantly. Regardless, you were just happy to have your family. Your parents raised you to be respectful and you always are. They also insisted that you must never bring shame to the name of your family, and must only show the family in a positive life. This particular rule from your childhood has stuck with you ever since, even though your family name has changed.

As a teenager, you were very responsible. You always were sure to pick up after yourself and you were never a rebel. You did what your parents said, aside from that one time where you decided to sneak out of the house to go to your best friend's sleepover birthday party. You got in quite a lot of trouble for doing so, though, so you never did anything like that again. You knew it wasn't a good thing to disobey your parents, and you certainly learned the consequences of doing so.

You were in your early twenties when you met your now-husband, Aresti Izar. The two of you were working the same job for while, so you were acquaintances for quite some time. What really caused the two of you to click, however, was how well his personality fit in with your own. The two of you were perfect together at that time and still are. There are rarely arguments between the two of you, even to this day.

Once you took on the name of Izar, you knew it was to be respected. Your children started to come into the world one by one, and you taught them the same thing. They were to respect the family name and never bring shame to it. You, however, are a bit less strict than your own parents were and tend to give them a bit more freedom than your parents gave you. It sometimes makes you wonder how strictly your sister decided to raise her own children. Is she as strict as mother and father were, or is she taking the more lenient route like you are?

These days, with Gabriel gone, your personality has started to be hidden from the outside world for the most part. You're not nearly as bubbly and social as you used to be, as you now usually just spend as much time as you can with your family, not wanting to lose them like you lost Gabriel. Since you don't go out much, aside from going to work, people see you as someone who shuts themselves away. That's not entirely true, though. You may shut yourself away from a lot of people, but not your family. You will do anything to communicate with your family and they're truly the people that you most enjoy spending time with.

At this point, it seems that, aside from you, your husband and your remaining children, the person most effected by Gabriel's death is your niece, Romana. She's very sensitive when it comes to family matters, and was a broken down mess when Salome died. It was the first death she was old enough to truly understand, and she's gotten worse with every one that's followed. As for you... you've been effected by every since death of an Izar in the Games, even if it hasn't been to the extent of your son's death. It's slowly started to eat away at you, and it's likely where your desire to only socialize with you family and closest friends has sparked from. Gabriel was the tipping point. You don't want to lose those close to you, but you know that if you do, you at least want to have spent as much time with them as possible beforehand, especially because you never know when it's coming.