we could forever | rose x roan
May 28, 2018 11:41:22 GMT -5
Post by alex 🐺 on May 28, 2018 11:41:22 GMT -5
r o s e hailsham;
A bead of sweat drips down your face, rolling off of your nose and dropping soundlessly to the blue mat as Roan jabbed a spear, blunted of course, towards your chest. He’s striking too close for comfort but you parry it well with a short sword in each hand, the spear you wear on your back bouncing up and down as you try to strike back.
Your chest is heaving and your arms are burning from the exertion, but you refuse to yield while Roan is still coming at you, his steps quick and measured.
Your heart is beating in your ears and you drift away from the fight as you fall into the rhythm that you create with him. It's not your heart, you remind yourself, even though the idea is so abstract that you can't even process that yet.
He may see in black and white but he fills your world with color every day, every smile that he throws your way, every wink when he thinks he gets the upper hand in the training center, but you are right back there with him.
He brings you out of your silence each day and you thank the gods for him. These stolen moments with him you cherish because they are not yours to keep, even though you file them away in your memory for the nights that you spend alone and he spends them with Jane.
Visions of him with her make you lose a step quickly and you shake your head to drown out the thoughts and the doubts.
The storm is raging within in you. The thorns sprouting from your blooming roses deprive your buds of the little sunlight they initially had. You’re feeling just as suffocated and trapped right now. Everything around you is a whirlwind of chaos, but you refuse to let that break you.
You stand stronger than the storm pounding against you.
A jab of your own and your sword catches on his arm and you drop your weapon instantly, the blood materializing fast. Your body is not your own, your blood is not your own, and if Roan loses too much, if there is a scar, they will be in deep, deep shit.
“Roan,” you start, stepping over to him to place a hand over his bicep, which proves to be a mistake as you are chest to chest with him, both of you breathing deeply. You refuse to make eye contact at this moment, your eyes downcast because that would just be too much.
“I’m - fuck, I’m sorry,” your words come fast and you think that you can maybe rip a strip of your tank top to fashion a tourniquet for the moment.
“Thought you were faster than that though,” you wink finally looking up. “You had the upper hand the entire time.”