Growth

CW; anxiety

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Hey guys! It's Flyss.

I'm not new, but it's been a while since I've been active on the site. This post will hopefully serve as an explanation of that, as well as an introduction for all the new faces! 

To put it simply, I've been busy. I started this year with an absolutely CRAZY course load, where I had 5 AP classes, 2 Pre-AP classes, and 2 regular classes... somehow, I survived the year with an 98 or above in everything except for AP Biology, which was a 96. As many know, Junior year is the most important year for college admissions, so I'm absolutely ecstatic about all of this. 

While I did fantastic academically, I was nearly always doing school. I slept very little, and most of my free time was spent at work. 

Beyond that, AP English Language absolutely KILLED my desire to write. Over the course of the first semester, I developed such an anxiety around essays that I avoided my semester B classwork for two months. I couldn't write for school without making myself physically sick, which meant that leisure writing was off the table, too. As someone who grew up with a love of English (I've been a member of the site since I was 12!), it was absolutely disheartening to have that passion turned against me. I began to doubt everything I wrote, and, at one point, I ended up spending over 18 hours on less than 800 words for a lab report. 

Now that the school year is over, I want to reclaim what I've lost. I want to make writing something that I enjoy again... something that doesn't feel like a chore... and that involves going back to my roots. Growing up as part of THGRPG has influenced my development as a writer on such an impressive scale. I can't thank everybody enough for making this site what it is. The kindness and patience I've received over the past 5 years is astounding, and I look forward to feeling every bit amazed by this community now as I did when I first joined. 

I'm glad to be back.