clash of legacies [carter&cedar]
Jun 4, 2019 7:34:03 GMT -5
Post by Tom on Jun 4, 2019 7:34:03 GMT -5
A name can mean a thousand things, with legacies attached that many don't want.
Carter's own carries virtues that he's never been able to live up to. Reasons to fight for and live for, but he's a selfish man with a relief that waivers in his chest. No more reapings. No more death. Escape. Freedom. Life. At least, that's what he'd tell himself in order to soothe his beating heart with the sounds of his footsteps rushing over the white floors of the justice building. The sight had been a guilt ridden punch to his stomach as he pushes Jack away from him with a a desire of anger and frustration in his eyes. Everything was crashing like a rerun of families tearing on the edges.
The Laws were safe. He should feel relieved to know no more of his siblings were going in. Carter should be celebrating with a round of beers with Jack. His father would show up with a deck of cards and tears in his eyes telling him that he did good, that he's alive, that he'll never have to suffer through that again. The Laws were safe, but Carter can't let his heart stop beating. He can't let his feet stop moving. He can't stop the glare towards every single peacekeeper that he passes.
The Laws were safe.
Cedar Halt was not.
Deep down, Carter knew why he's so angry, but he can't let it go. Arbor Halt's face sent the punch to his stomach. Living while Cedar Halt will never get to makes him sicker than he thought he could feel. The rose in his hand just another reminder of that guilt and selfishness that eats away at him, even years later. Nico Thorne had come back to them. All he could hope for is that Cedar does the same.
Pushing past the guards who almost question him when he opens the door without asking, he leaves them with a glare that stops them in their movement. The door closes behind him and Carter can feel the sound of his heart in his chest. The rose in his hand feels heavier than before, the green color signifying life, according to the book he'd checked out of the library. A silence fills the air as Carter stands among the walls he's been in. The walls where he screamed at his brother. The walls where he watched Mitchell Laws leave behind a shattered legacy. The walls that Jayne and Gabriel left him in. The walls that were his last reminder of home before death and rebirth.
The walls that would be Cedar Halt's last piece of home.
"I..." Words don't feel right on his lips as he sets the rose on a chair. "Fuck."
The weight of Mitchell's cards in his pocket still feels heavy on his soul. The legacy that he's supposed to live up to was not as large as the one on Cedar Halt's shoulders. Arbor Halt is a legend in District Twelve. Even Carter's own father talked about Arbor Halt as if he were a legend with such an honor attached to that legacy. Carter's own hand comes to rub at the side of his head with the pounding of adrenaline rushing and a headache forming.
"I don't care if you've decided to die. I don't care who your father is. I don't care about the legacy you have on your shoulders."
Fists clench in anger towards whoever made this real. Snow, the escort, forces beyond their fucking control. No matter who it was, they could fuck off because their victors didn't need anymore of this shit. He got to see that first hand in the reunion with Twelve. He can remember Aranica's words from that first night being alive and going home. He can remember the pain he's heard from so many. Fuck. This was just as fucked up as before and he thought he was over this hatred for himself, but the world seems to revolve over and over again.
"I'm not gonna say you'll live because we both know better than anyone what it's really like."
His voice feels heavy in the air.
"I just want you to know that you're not alone. You'll never be alone."
Arms crossed over his chest.
"I'm sorry that you were the unlucky soul who was reaped."
Silence.
"Is there anything you'd like to know? Anything I can do to help?"