relapse — francis & nico. blitz
Jan 5, 2020 11:58:39 GMT -5
Post by 🌱 kaitlin. on Jan 5, 2020 11:58:39 GMT -5
N I C O T H O R N E
I'm not sure why Francis is easier to see than Reggie.
Maybe because Reggie's death is still fresh, but I can still see Diana digging her weapon into Francis's skull as clearly as I can see Ridley killing Reggie. Maybe because Francis doesn't belong here, but this whole place reminds me of Reggie. I'm not sure.
Either way, I search for Francis's name, give into the night.
For the grand opening, they called me in, had me look at myself, stare into hollow eyes and see nothing but darkness. They asked me if I wanted to see anyone else, if they wanted me to spin up Reggie, or if I wanted to see the boy that I loved in my games again.
I couldn't do it then.
I can't even do it now, but I will anyway.
It's the middle of the night and I'm not even sure how I got in, but I was walking down the middle of the street staring at the stars and thinking about light and dark and the moon and the sun and I just—I climbed through a window and pressed a button and then sat down in the middle of the floor, crossed my legs and sat like I did in first year at school, back when we didn't have desks.
Not that I really made it to the years where I needed a desk.
I listen as the machinery warms up, let it scan me and process who I am before a boy with the sun in his bones is in front of me once again. It's been years since I spun him up last at the museum in the Capitol. Seeing him here, knowing he's here but not here in Twelve—it's worse.
I don't hesitate.
"Hey 'cisco," I say, a callback to our first night together.