Bring Me Higher Love // [Kieran x Media AU]
Apr 5, 2020 22:55:57 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Apr 5, 2020 22:55:57 GMT -5
MEDIA MILES
It all started a few days after the 80th election.
The District One Post, which was forwarded to their residence in the Capitol, had printed a copy of a letter from the new Mayor of District Ten.
Madia sat in their sunroom, legs tucked under her thighs, the bright sun blunted by the paned glass, the paper spread out wide on the glass table. She read any article related to Ten, religiously, unapologetically. The new Mayor seemed like a decent person, like Media's own mother. Thoughtful. Careful. None of that upset her.
The handwritten signature at the end, though.
That brought her to tears.
Because she realized that it was not an act of maturity, but rather something else.
Ever since she’d written Kieran a love letter in her early teens, they’d been corresponding by post. At first, it was tepid, halting, as she worked on her cursive. But over years, it blossomed into something real and tangible. The drawer where she tucked her love away filled.
But then he married. Not abruptly. He’d warned her.
They wrote, just little notes, infrequently.
And then, strangely, the penmanship shifted. She teased him about a new tutor. He teased her about graduating high school. It didn’t matter; it was still Kieran putting pen to paper.
Or, so she thought.
The moment she saw Mayor Regalia Stromstatt’s signature, she knew otherwise.
For years, possibly longer, she had been corresponding with Kieran’s aunt. Best case, Regalia transcribed Kieran’s thoughts. Worst case, she hadn’t actually heard from him since his marriage to Saffron’s kid sister.
She didn’t write for six months after that. It was the longest winter of her life.
After, ensconced in her journalism degree, she tried again. She kept it neutral, tepid. When the letter came back, it was still in Regalia’s handwriting. But there was a warmth, an eagerness to it that she could not attribute to a middle-aged woman.
The letters started again. Infrequently at first, maybe once a season. She graduated, early and with honors. A festive missive arrived, congratulating her on the accomplishment. On the way to cover her first beat with an indie newspaper in the Capitol, she dropped off the letter to be framed. There were half a dozen truly special ones that decorated her office wall.
Then one day, her father asked if she wanted to attend a gala in one of the Districts.
“Well,” he said, smiling slyly in that way of his, “it’s actually a whole extravaganza. We’d be gone the better part of a week.”
She’d said yes, and had not dared to hope.
On the first night, she’d schooled herself to be the journalist she’d trained to be. She floated. She engaged. Occasionally, she interviewed. And then, only by chance rotation of society, she found herself presented with him, and his offspring.
“Oh! You do exist!” She’d said.
She’d addressed him formally, and was gratified to see color in his cheeks.
For the first time in a long while, she felt guilty. But also indignant. She knew he’d been forging the letters, or at least dictating them to Regalia. How dare he! But also, through her media connections, she knew about his wife’s spiral. How absolutely devastating things were in Ten for him. She’d heard, only very recently, that divorce proceedings had begun.
It had sent a blade through her heart.
And at the same time, prodded it to beat again.
The next day was a flurry of brunch (paparazzi invited), a tour of the district with the local dignitaries (journalists invited, like herself), a champagne reception, cocktail hour, seated dinner with poured wine, an endless parade of charity auctions with an open bar.
When she stepped out into the frigid district air, she felt the bite of frost on the teardrops decorating her cheek bones.
She knew it was Kieran, not by the way the door opened, but by the crunch of work boots in the snow. Media huddled deeply into her velvet green coat, red curls aflame. She let the shivering take her for a moment, then ground her teeth together and forced it to stop.
Only then did she turn to him.
“Does she know?”
Anguish tainted every word. Not because he was there. Because he might not be - because he still may go home.
“Does she know what it’s like to be an heir? To know that, when your storied parents finally meet their end, that it will not be the conclusion for you? That the deaths of Mace, Saffron, Aranica, Maverick and Topaz will only condemn us to further scrutiny? We are always going to be victor progeny.
“It is not the same to be a sibling. We are the only ones who will inherit their legacies. Not just their wealth, or their status, or their fame. All of it.
“Does she know that you’ve been planning for that, all your life?”
She choked up, the cold nearly suffocating. “Does she know about the place you’ve reserved in your heart? About the grave you’ve been digging there? What should have died in the arena will forever live in us.”
title lyrics from "Higher Love" by Whitney Houston