dressed up like dynamite [ pax&amos ]
Apr 20, 2020 22:40:28 GMT -5
Post by tick 12a / calla on Apr 20, 2020 22:40:28 GMT -5
A M O S
It's become some kind of unspoken thing - I don't go on runs without Pax anymore. Because we've always been sort of inseparable. We've always been Pax and Amos. Amos and Pax.
But tonight it's Amos and someone who's definitely not Pax.
It's some other kid, short as hell and kind of shifty, the one the guys all call Stocks behind his back because he's so shit at his job. There's a bundle of triple seven tucked in his waistband and one stuffed in my jacket, four blocks of foreign territory between us and the drop place. I don't know exactly how we got paired up for this, maybe his other partner ditched him or something. But a job is a job.
So it's almost too predictable when we're halfway through, taking one of the shortcuts to bypass a busy street, that a voice floats over from behind us. "You boys don't look like you're from around here." It says, and when I make eye contact with Stocks he looks like he's about to be sick.
I feel my own stomach drop, but I turn around first, probably because if I don't he's going to lose his lunch, and I've barely even raised my hands, barely even said a word when the jackass charges us. Out of the corner of my eye I see Stocks take off in the opposite direction, and of fucking course he does. If I get shanked here I swear to everything holy that I'll haunt his ass.
Arms catch around my middle, with enough strength to have us tumbling, and the ground rises, vertigo kicking in when my hands reach out to scrape against the gravel. He grabs the back of my jacket, then the arm, then the collar, and before he can get any farther I kick back, hitting something solid. A loud fuck comes from over my shoulder and the grip loosens for half a second, I twist and pull and make it halfway up from the ground when the guy yanks again and my jacket comes off - haha shit.
The loss of momentum catches me off balance and I start running like hell. My throat feels like it's full of sawdust, and for a split second there's only tunnel vision, only the pull of the pavement and the sound of my own ragged breathing. I turn through a dozen different streets before I think I've lost him.
But it's getting dark, and Nine's always been a hellhole, a whole twisting labyrinth of back alleys and bullet casings. And I'm fucking alone now, with God knows who on my tail. All the lights are neon-like and half-broken and I just pray I'm not still in their territory.
Because there are constellations of dying stars painted across my palms, bits of gravel tucked into the skin, but I think there must still be some kind of adrenaline shooting through my veins - I can't feel a damn thing. I kick the wall and try to catch my breath, easing the stones out and dropping them to the ground like pocket change. My jacket is gone, which means the package is gone, and Stocks probably turned tail and ran back, which means the drop completely fucking failed and I feel like I'm about to scream because I can't even do this right anymore.
I don't know what'll be worse, going back in a body bag or going back empty-handed.
But there are sudden footsteps from mouth of the alley, faltering, and some intuitive thing in my chest says that the only people out on this block, the only people still out at this time, are here for the same reason I am. I push myself off of the wall and set my feet, getting ready to bolt if it's someone looking for trouble again.
"Whoever's there, fuck off." I call out, try to steady my voice and sound like I know what I'm actually doing, "I've got a knife." Even though I don't, because I'm stupid like that.
And I'm pretty sure that if I carried a knife around, the only thing it'd be cutting through would be my own fingers.