what a mess i leave / frankel
Apr 23, 2020 22:42:07 GMT -5
Post by goat on Apr 23, 2020 22:42:07 GMT -5
Birdie had never been close with her family. It wasn’t dramatics, her getting down on herself because that was what she always did, it was just fact. She was the youngest out of her siblings, twelve long years stretching between her and Pierre. She had been eight when Preston, his oldest son, was born, and she had already decided then that becoming an aunt so young was stupid. It was just a title she couldn’t do anything with, so why did it matter? Every year she detached herself more and more from them that, by the time she’d moved out with her own child, she barely spoke to her siblings. She still exchanged annual niceties with them, sent out cards on birthdays and brought food to family dinners, but it was obvious she remained on the outskirts of the Hopes.
Even now, she wasn’t much of an aunt. Blackston pissed her off more than anything else. She wished his mother would get off her case and take him back home. She was an adult, she could pretend to be capable, she didn’t need some child watching over her. Other than him, she barely spoke to the rest of her nieces and nephews. She would greet them at dinners, full glass of wine in her hand, before returning to whatever nook she’d made for herself in the corner of whatever room they were in. It had been easier when her daughter was alive— she had also been fond of curling up in corners and watching the party go on without her.
She had gotten the letter from Pierre on a particularly rough afternoon. Looking at the mail had become an ordeal since Leland’s song lyrics had arrived that one day. She had started telling Blackston to comb through the letters before giving them to her, in case he came through with another half-assed attempt at poetry. Blackston had slid the letter from her brother under her bedroom door, where she’d locked herself up for the majority of the past few days, calling through the door that it seemed important. She figured it was strange to receive a letter from him. The only things he usually sent were holiday cards. Maybe another relative had died. She hoped they had left money.
There was no dead relative leaving behind a massive fortune (fuck, maybe next time), but he had extended an invation to her. Weird. She couldn’t remember the last time they had spent time together one on one. Maybe it had never happened before. That would probably seem sad, to anyone who didn’t understand their relationship, but she was fine with it. She didn’t really know if she wanted to sit down and have a real conversation with her brother. That would require talking to him, trying to morph her words into something that he could understand. It sounded exhausting.
She went anyway. She figured it probably took a lot for him to reach out, and besides, she didn’t have much else to do. On her way over, she stopped at the market and bought a few muffins. It would be rude to show up empty handed, right? She was sure he probably had a cook or something in that fancy mayor’s house of his, but still, nobody would say no to a good baked good. If he did, he was a dick. She would be the first to say it.
The mayor’s house loomed tall above her. She banged on the door with a fist like she would any other door. It was obvious she seemed out of place in this neighborhood, with her sweatpants and messy hair, but she had never really cared what rich people thought of her. She just wanted to get inside, maybe have some wine. Have a good night without anything getting too deep.
Her brother opened the door, and Birdie thought, fuck, am I gonna be this old someday?
“Pierre,” she said, half a smile on her face. The wear on both of them was obvious, almost a mirror image, and she didn’t want to think about it, so she held out the little basket instead. “You look like shit. Muffin?”