smoke break, please. sebastien / jacinta
Jun 3, 2020 3:00:55 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jun 3, 2020 3:00:55 GMT -5
sebastien salazar
He had stayed outside Jacinta's house since the sun fell out the sky. Funny how it was, he struggled calling her anything besides her name -- Jacinta, older than him. Older than Luzia, but they had made it so very apparent that she was no sister.
But she was a snake, alright. Cold and spineless and the scales were the capitol jewels she wore, that she threw her siblings away for. Part of Sebastien envied her in the green that she wore, that deep forest imprint on every dress they tossed in her; they loved it. They, anybody but the Salazars and he felt like he was the only one who still kept his head up and his words to himself.
All of the siblings hated it- Jacinta the most, every single thing and every single way. Luzia hated the way she existed in that shadow, that she would be holding a helm that Jacinta just couldn't seem to bear, couldn't seem to fucking want to. Elena, youngest Elena, she hated it all in such a naive way; she hardly understood what it all took from them. She's upset she can't date one boy, isn't that something. Sebastien holds his back to the Victor Village estate, waiting for Jacinta to open the door and he can visualize her running from Jaci's to Jaci's boy toy.
She was being tortured all right.
And Sebastien wanted it all, he wanted that place so badly and it was only one more sibling away. Jacinta, Violetta, Luzia, and then him, and if he ever had his name on that crown -- all that power in two grizzly hands -- he would do so much better with it all. Cut the bullshit, the torture it takes to be something important, it was all he had ever wanted.
That, and a note back from Stella Blakesley.
She had to know he existed, right? That's a woman he could share a cigarette with, start an empire with. There's only two people strong enough to kill a Salazar on this earth: Aeson Kight, and the woman who killed him. He knocks again on the Victor's door -- always the victor, always Jacinta Salazar, the champion district seven searched for for over twenty years. And yet, somehow, it isn't good enough.
He isn't good enough. There's a part of him, a festering, sickly pale part of him that hates her for it. It sits between his rib cages and beats not out of necessity, but out of the desire. The need to hate her, to blame her for everything they've lost in the years including herself. Violetta died because of her, Luzia lost her voice because of Jacinta.
Because of Marley, Elena is weak. Because of Jacinta, because of Mackenzie -- it always comes back to this row of houses. He needs to hate it all and convince himself that it's just another street under his feet - Salazar's yesterday to Salazar's tomorrow and all that. There's an empire awaiting him and he runs from it all when Jacinta opens the goddamn door.
"Finally, I thought you were gonna stand me up again!" Sis, sister, he pulled the lighter out of his pocket before she even confirmed she had anything for him.
They only smoke on occasion together, Sebastien's taken it up on his last few years. Hand panting on his thigh, she wasn't the girl from his childhood, the star of television and the girl who fought for their pride. That Jacinta loved him- he had convinced himself. That she was the one who cared, and it must have been the editing. It had to have been, he looked her in the eyes and he saw it over and over and over again, all those things Valentino and Marina said about them. Father and Mother and Jacinta, the lost sister -- it hurt to think it.
He could never say it out loud, "Valentino still thinks you're a rat, that's all the gossip I got for you.
Can I get my cigarette?"
Sebastien had never felt so shameful.
Begging to a traitor -- no matter if she was the only one who supported him, he hated the bitch.
He convinced himself of this same lie. Every single time.