nowhere warm / d12 train blitz!
Jun 3, 2020 18:42:05 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker tallis 🌱 kaitlin. on Jun 3, 2020 18:42:05 GMT -5
Nico is... trying.
Really, he swear, he's trying his very best. He'd been doing good before the 84th, resolved himself to stop drinking, and for the most part he'd been able to stick with it for the duration of the games and even beyond. He'd been there when Beck woke up, unable to bring himself to hold the boy's hand at first, but still—a shoulder to cry on if the kid needed it.
But then the lockdowns had come.
And Nico had lost it.
He'd mostly gotten back on track, but every time he takes a step he's terrified of falling five steps back, of ending up six feet under and ruining someone's life. Scared for Kendrick and scared for Ten and scared for Carter and—scared.
He doesn't want to hurt anyone else.
If Stel asks him later why he's late, again, he promises himself that he'll be honest with her, that for the first time in months, he'll let her see beneath the cracked glass. As it is though, he walks into the main train car late, everyone else already gathered around, and flops into the seat across from the boy—was his name Callum?
"Did I miss the volunteering explanation?" he asks, trying not to be callous but probably not succeeding. "Because I'll need one if I'm gonna snag you any sponsors." He purses his lips, looks up and pretends to ponder. "Guess I could always make one up."
